@02:39 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Human Gate by: Pierrot]
I continued to do research about yakuza last night. I learned some rather interesting shit. It was over romantized way too much though....it's like so cool and woooow...LOL but the think is, women aren't allowed to be yakuza -.- they say they aren't strong both physically and emotionally to be yakuza. They think women should stay home and be mothers -.- and if in a situation, a woman couldn't stay silent to like a cop or something. I was mad =p BUT they kinda right, I can't keep quiet to save my life. LOL I have a blog enough said.
What else did I learn...hm...oh yeah the Yamaguchi-gumi was once run by a woman, the oyabun's wife until his right hand guy was out of jail BUT he never made it out of jail, he died of liver failure so oyabun's wifey took over for a while until another underling took over. That was pretty niffty. Anyway...yeah...I was saying all this back to Jun last night which was interesting to the both of us. =p my lip is chapped and dry and it hurts like hell because I keep picking it...which I know is a bad idea.
Riight, so Mistao was talking about sexy sexy Sugi and how he should be a dominatrix...or is that a female..? Anyway, yeah so we were talking about him for a good long time ^_^ AND she scanned some SEXY pics of him *glomps Mistao*
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm02.jpg
Sugi playing violin *drool*
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm03.jpg
Sugi looking off to the side XD *continues drooling*
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm04.jpg
Sugi's caps during his live show. Bweeeeee
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm05.jpg
Sexy Sugi again *drool drool*
*wipes drool off desk* Anyway...yeah....yummy..I went to Sugizo's offical site *click* and I wanted to look at the shirts they were selling, but the order form was in Japanese!! *sulk* and I was even MORE upset when I saw this poster *click* and I was like *drool* I WANT!! I would rip someone's left arm off for this poster!! But since the order form is in Japanese, I couldn't order X.X BUT I wanna bitch at those people because I don't wanna go around ripping people's left arms off! *sigh* I want this poster...
Anyway, I gotta talk to Akio about this Sat. with Jun...we might go out again. WAH but Ghost won't be here...;.; boo. But at least 3 yakuza are fine ^^ hehehehe okay time to go write. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 22, 2002
.___YG Family___.
@06:48 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Time is Dead by: Luna Sea]
Take the Wich YG Family Gang Pae are you? Quiz!
You damn right XD *takes out 9 and lights a cigarette*
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 21, 2002
.___Yakuza...continuing from Mistao's Blog___.
@03:05 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Dear from xxx by: Due le Quartz]
Waaaaah!! Mistao I'm sooooo soo soo sorry I couldn't talk to you last night! Mistao IMed me just as I was about to get off because my dad was all err being very nazi like about me being on at certain times during the weekdays. Like weekends I can stay online until like the sun rises and my eyes are red and bloodshot from staring at a compy screen all night but during the weekdays I have to be off at a certain hours -.-;;; well anyway Mistao I'm sorry (_ _) Oh but I read your blog *click* and since most of it was about Yakuza and I couldn't talk to you before *sniffles* I'll answer and comment everything now ^^
1- The origin to why the yakuza tattooed himself comes from Bakuto. They usually tattooed in a black ring around the arm for each crime they committed. The tattoo was to illustrate you were unwilling to accommodate yourself to societies rules and norms. Now is it to illustrate your clanbelonging.
This I knew about the whole tattooing themselves. The tattoo pieces were often huge, taking up most of their bodies and took over 100 hours to accomplished. It proved how much you were willing to stand out of societiy. The only one who really follows this in 36 Moons is Toki who has his entire back covered in a tattoo. Fun question for everyone! How many tattoos do you think each of the 36 Moons have?
2- There are freelance yakuza and clan yakuza. Freelance yakuza's are usually the bitches of the clan yakuza's 'cuase they get blamed for stuff or used but sometimes they come in handy and they might be smart enough to start their own clan. If not they end up joining a clan. In the clan yakuza the head is called Oyabun which means father. And below him is Saiko-komon, Waka-gashira and Shatei-gashira and below them are the Kyodais meaning brother and below them are the children which are like the hencemen. There can be sub-clans in the clan but in the end their main boss in the Oyabun.
Yeah in 36 Moons, Jia was addressed as the oyabun from other syndicates. Mostly everyone closest to him called him Jia (his last name) except for Toki who always called him Li (his 1st name) The saiko-komon, waka-gashira and Shatei-gashira would be like The Yami, Nishiki, Yuki and Takuro. Sub syndicates that worked under the 36 Moons. BUT Jia was always the oyabun and in charge. *claps* Yeah man I did reasearch for this bad boy.
3- The yakuza has been around for over 300 years O.O And it started with the Kabuki-mono, these were guys in feudal Japan that went around terrorizing ppl for the sheer pleasure of it. And they carried long sword and had odd hair and clothes. Well they stood out from everyone else ^^. They were eccentric samurai baby! XD They were just gangsta' *cackle* 'cuase they spoke with a lot of slang and well you get the picture. Hey how come no one has made an anime about Kabuki-mono? Oh Kabuki-mono were servants to the shogun of the era. Poor kabuki-monos ^^;; Hehee
Okay that I didn't know. I didn't go THAT far back into reasearch for yakuza. But damn I agree Mistao...that would make a kick ass anime. ^.^b
4- Yakuza trace their origins to the Machi-yakko, these guys defend villages and ppl from wrong-doers ^^;; And they were good gamblers and that's how they developed a tight knit relationship amongst each other.
Yeah didn't know that either. I just knew that yakuza have a tight relationship with each other. It's like family, so they have each other's back...um...except in the case of Toki and Jun ^^;;;;
5- The real yakuza emerged around 1700 and consisted of Bakuto, Tekiya and Gurentai. The all had one thing in common, they were poor, deliquents, landless and misfits. Wai see poorness bonded them, awww *_* LOL. So then they started to develop a family type of relationship and so emerged the Oyabun (father) and all the other ppl beneath, Kobun became his children of sorts.
Again...I didn't know that. Interesting to know though ^^
6- Oh oh, the initiation ritual was this:...*drumroll* They exchanged sake cups! to symbolize the entrance into the clan. Oh the ceremony was preformend in front of a shinto altar and there were different amounts of sake in the cup depending on your status.
YES!! I am so mother-loving smart!!!! This happened in the 36 Moons!! Mistao you'll read about it later, but the whole, initiation ritual with sake was done. *claps* I'm GOOOOD XD WAH it even happened in a shinto shrine!! *does 1Tym dance*
7- During the 1800s the yakuza began to establish ties with the government so that they wouldn't get harrased and stuff.
This happens now too ^.~*
8- During the 1950s the members of the yakuza rose to more than that of the Japanese army ^^;; Hehee.
Didn't know that ^^;;;
9- Ohhh the Yamaguchi-gumi is Japan's most powerful syndicate. Wahahaha after the Japanese government passed a law against individuals in crime organizations, the Yakuza had to lay low and pretend they had legit businesses by using businesses they controlled as fronts. LOL omg they published a book, they yakuza that is, published a book entitled "How to avoid the law".
Well okay so the Yamaguchi-gumi is Japan's most powerful syndicate. That's why 36 Moons is fiction ^^b besides. Betcha my yakuza are a million times sexier XD
A few more fun tidbits of info, there is something called Yubitsume where if someone from the syndicate disrespects the oyabun, they must cut off the tip of their pinky finger and present it as an apology. >.<;;; owie...whatever happened to "I'm sorry, I'll kill someone for you"? OH and IF the disrespect continues, they have to cut off the OTHER pinky tip and so on and so on or until the oyabun just gets tired of them and kills them.
Sake-zukigoto is a pledge made over cups of sake. It's a great ceramony and the pledge is more binding then a written contract >.<;;;
"Big-brothers" exisist to show the newest one around. They are in charge of making sure the new one doesn't make any mistakes and they recieve as much respect from the new one as if they were a oyabun. (Which they're not of course but you know the respect thing..)
Yeah good times. ^.^ LOL and I love how Mistao really quoted Toki this time XD LOL *claps* he is a fiend isn't he? But he's fun ^.~* it's what makes him so loveable. And yes, yes it's true, Toki will not fuck a Japanese woman, only foreign ones. BUT, he will fuck a Japanese boy in like 2 seconds. XD U'll read about that later on though. Hm...what made write up 36 Moons...well easy. I had just gotten my hands on a new manga called Sanctuary. The more I read it, the more I loved it. And I was like, hey...with enough reasearch, I can write my own Yakuza story. So, I pulled up the research, learned a little Japanese, continued reading Sanctuary, and 36 Moons was born. ^_^
Yeah real Yakuza are so much more ickier then MY Yakuza. They old and fat...and...ew..>.< I know it's rare and kinda unheard of that a 23 year old would take over a whole syndicate, espically in Japan, but...hey damnit, that's why it's fiction. Speaking of bishie yakuza...
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Taistanding_36Moons.jpg
Mwahahha the sexy Tai pic I've been meaning to draw. ^.~* Okay...I did nothing all day I woke up at 1:30 and washed my hair YAY. LOL okay yeah...so Imma go and wait for my new layout as I write up Serve the Ego laters~
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 21, 2002
.___Upon Waiting___.
@03:16 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Muddy Blood by: Due le Quartz]
CURRENTS...
Current Clothes: Navey sweats and a black tank top. My aeropostale fleece is hanging behind me and socks.
LAST PERSON...
You Touched: My side. It's all itchy =p
FAVORITE..
Food: Pizza, bul-go-gee
ARE YOU...
Understanding: Sometimes
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
Kill: *whips out list...*
Bweee...I'm just waiting for Gab to finish up my layout. Mwhahaha Mistao, Helyane, Mifyuu, you guys will love it XD Mwhahahhaa and my daughter too. Bweeeee *dances around* Oh, ne Mistao *click* you had me dying!! LOL let me tell everyone how she really quoted Aya from 36 Moons when he first met Toki and he was offered a cigarette and he was asked if he smokes, his response: "There's a lot of things I blow" LOL And it was quoted!! LOL LOL *falls off chair* Ahh that was great. I'm glad you like Toki though. He's a horn ball, but he's got his good points ^.~* *feels proud* oh Mistao, I was gonna IM you last night but you didn't get on till like all late and I had to go =p Bweee I have a Hyde necklace! it's my pride and joy. It stabs me in the neck, and it leaves abrasions on my neck but I love it anyway!! ^.^ Bweeee but thank you for the link anyway, I'll get more stuff there watch. Mwhahhaa
Anyway, Mifyuu *click* I hope your arm is okay >.< I heard that was really painful and the cast is itchy. >.< how long you have to keep it on for? Hope it doesn't drive you insane though >.< I finally got the winmx situation fixed though. I just now remove all the paths from my files. Mwhahaha I send messages to people and be like does the word CANCELLED mean anything to you? Take a hint. I did it to 2 different people last night and they wouldn't stop so I just removed the paths mwhahahaha and kept d/ling this thingy where Hyde was being interviewed and he then worked a yo yo. LOL I also got a coffee commerical where him and Tetsu where talking to each other, then Haido turns to the camara, holds up the coffee, talks, then says thank you and so does Tetsu. LOL it was mad cute.
Okay, I'm just waiting for Gab to finish up my layout. I'll blog again laters. ^.^v
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, March 20, 2002 .___Damnit___.
[Currently Listening to: Pink Spider by: Hide]
Ugh Mistao you broke me. I wish you would have NEVER linked me to the site where that Sex Bitch picture was being sold. I'm gonna go broke there. Now I have to get 2 magazine, a plushie, and like a zillion CDs. And maybe a poster...though I shouldn't get a poster...because I have NO ROOM for posters on my walls. But yea. DAMN YOU MISTAO LOL just kidding actually thnak you. ^^ Now Imma get a bunch of crap I really don't need but want just the same. *sigh* Anyway....yeah...I got cramps. Im gonna have some more ice cream and take some pain killers. Oh yeah, you can IM me whenever you want ^^ U got my SN? I have AOL it's the same as my email addy.
I didn't go anywhere today. Emanuel hasn't called or nothing so I just slept in all day. I don't have anything to do all day though I'm suppost to go out with either Steve or Jun today. I think I'm going with Jun though I haven't them both in a equal amount of time. *sigh* I might go to the mall with Jun so...I'm not to mad about that because I really wanna see if my Tetsu boots are being sold. I have to ask my momma when I can order my Toshiya gloves and then bring up the CDs and maybe the Hide plushie. Yes I want a Hide plushie. I'm not a big fan or anything, just the plushie kicks ass ^_^ Mwhahaha *yawn*
Okay time for some ice cream and pain killers before my cramps get any worse =p plus I have to go write. Laters
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 19, 2002 .___*pout*___.
[Currently Listening to: Be Awake by: Luna Sea]
Okay so before I was pouting because I thought I didn't have my one Sugizo pic but I got it back thanks to Helyane Bweee so hopefully I'll have a new layout tomorrow. ^^ *snuggles Gab*
Anyway....people on winmx don't know the meaning of the word CANCELLED. Auwon you know how to not share files without moving everything to another folder? I must have cancelled this one bitch 2619268763 kajillion times and she kept trying and I finally sent her a message to fucking back off and she sends a message back and tells me to take them off my directory and Im like FUCK YOU it's not my fault you don't know how to take a fucking hint. I wasn't in the mood to fuck with this fucking loser tonight so after cancelling him a couple of million times, I finally gave up and I let him d/l/ God what a bunch of fucking losers live on winmx that don't know the meaning of the word CANCELLED.
Anyway, besides that I got some random small clips of Sugizo doing...random shit. I got him doing a confirmation press conference in Taiwan where he goes "Yes. Hai" and then he nods. I see Vivian Hsu's name all over the place so I can only assume they're asking about his relationship with her. >.> ew...I got Sugizo stage diving off the stage into the audience...and the audience was like an ocean that swallowed him. Like you see his body floating there then all the sudden, he's gone. LOL I WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN THERE!! OMG I would have loved to put my arms around him and hold him, catch cheap feels...I bet Sugizo loved it. I bet that's why he did it...XD I got a clip of him introducing Glay on some show and then himself. And he does this CUTE SMILE XD I got another clip of him talking on this show called The Top Talk and he's just so pretty sometimes. I was like wah...X.x But anyway yeah...I also started to d/l like 3 different clips of Sugizo playing Pink Spider for or with or something with Hide on stage. I was like WAAH my slut running around in his short shorts again!!! YES!! Plus his guitar playing was good. And I got a chance to listen to another one of Hide's songs, Pink Spider which I went and d/led the MP3 for. So I like this song. I didn't like the other one I 1st heard, and I forgot the name of the song...but anyway, I liked Pink Spider very catchy. I'm mad as hell for itbeoing called PINK Spider. Anyway I also got to see Hide in action...which I've never seen. I always saw him with his mouth open in pictures looking....foolish. So when I got to see him in action..he looked...insane. >.> Not bad insane like Kyo insane...but like...insane. Just insane. No negative undertones or nothing. Just plain freaky. Anyway I didn't get to d/l the rest of the fucking performance because I kept getting cut off so I have like 5 or 6 different versions of the same perfomance saved on my compy so far NONE of them done. -.-;;;; UGH and any one the ones I have in que are moving -.- blah and of course people STILL don't know the meaning of CANCELLED. Oi...
Okay yeah...I'm done ranting now. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 18, 2002 .___Kindness___.
[Currently Listening to: System by: Lestat]
LOL LOL LOL Okay I'm cracking up because of Mistao's blog. A few blogs back I asked what sexy Jrocker bitches would taste like. I decided that Sugizo aka the Sex God aka The Walking Porn, tastes spicy. Yummy...XD he can burn my lips anyday baby XD *clears throat* and I will have to agree with Mistao on the rest of them Hyde tastes like Honey...oh how obvious is that >.> of course he does...
"Honey is so sweet..."
Anyway, and Gackt would be Vanilla..*licks lips* can I get a bite of Ren? XD OH YEAH
Im...I'm not down for tasting Kyo...so this is me moving on.
And of course the one that cracked me up the most...
"Miyabi: I think he would taste like...well whatever his cock taste like *yum* Wohohohohooho. *clears throat* *innocent smile*"
Toshiya...as a cherry? Ne Ghost didn't we have some Kpop guy be a cherry? I can't remember...but I think Toshiya would be something sweet...like candy...like...um...something suckable XD yummy. Like a lifesaver...or hm...Gummy bears. OH or those Sweetarts. something sweet and suckable. Ooo *having naughty hentai thoughts*
All righty...so here's what happened so far. This morning, it's cold as hell and yeah it's "spring" this Weds. It's like raining/sleeting and below 40 outside. Nice fucking spring. Anyway so I bundle up this morning because I'm just not feeling frost bite right now. Sweats, sweater, my thicker coat, boots (so my feet also dont hurt) and gloves. I should have worn a hat or something because it was raining like crazy when I left my house. Of course I realize that I should have brought a hat 1/2 way to my mom's job -.- anyway, so I get to school, and battle sleep in my car because rain makes me SO SLEEPY and it didn't help I went to bed at 1:30 and woke up at 5:45 this morning. Rain makes me sooooo sleepy. So I'm parked in the parking lot, trying not to sleep, listening to my fav radio show as they dissed JLo LOL and then I was like...okay gotta get to the compy lab. So at 7:45 I get out of my car after bundling up a little better and walk to my car. The rain was no lighter. I ended feeling soaked before I even got out of the parking lot. As I'm walking on the path down towards the building I have my English class, but I'm not going there because it's not 9:30, I see this girl beside me. And she looks at me and says "You wanna get under?" she's got this huge umbrella and she leans it in my direction. I smile and say, thank you.
No one, outside of my parents and close friends have ever been so nice to me. Strangers to me are just that, strangers. I don't mind giving the time or directions if I know where I'm going, or even helping someone with a printer/compy problem like last time I was in the lab. But for someone to do a kind act towards me like keeping me out of the rain was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for me. She didn't have to, and she certainly didn't know me, so when she offered her umbrella it was the nicest thing to me. We walked down the path making small talk about the crappy weather and then I asked where she was going. I told her I was headed in a different direction. It was okay though, I didn't get to the compy lab as soaked as I would have been if she hadn't offered her umbrella. So when we part, I thank her again and I go. It was the nicest thing. That had never happened to me before. Usually people aren't nice to me. And I'm not nice to people. I usually just ignore them, they ignore me. I've been trained to react hostile towards people due to life experienace and my parents. My parents are the most antisocial people in the world. They don't believe in kindness in humanity and good will and all that crap. And frankly neither do I. The world has become so jaded and I've been taught to treat it the way it treats me. Plus, I've already blogged about how in high school how I would be nice to certain people only to be walked all over and treated like shit in return. Since them I'm like *flips off random people* fuck off, leave me alone. And I know I would NEVER offer my umbrella to someone I didn't know. Not even some really hot guy. Just my friends or something. People in high school I KNEW wouldn't even offer me their umbrella. It could hailing balls of hail the size of small human heads and people STILL wouldn't offer you shit. This girl, who's name I didn't even get, was so nice to me. It just made my day. It was the most kindest act ever done towards me (outside of friends and family of course). It made me feel nice.
But you know...it's still fucking cold and rainey and my boots are soaked through again...-.- and I have to take an English test today. But I'm pretty much well prepared for it. Also, I have to say how last night, the yakuza 5 of us anyway held a meeting due to Ghost's suggestion. Aoki, Jun, Gab, Akio, Ghost and myself all held a meeting the Dragon Leaf. But Aoki had to leave =p boo so then Jun came in later. We were dicussing how I really don't think Jose is interested and I'm starting not to care and how I should just get over him because it's kinda making it clear to me that he wants a new friend. WELL WHOOPIE...a new friend. -.- what the FUCK am I gonna do with another friend? Like I don't have any friends. I don't NEED another friend. Well I also don't NEED a man I just WANT a man. I don't want another fucking friend. Geez he might as well be female. -.- I say this because I found out he was Edison (town about 10 minutes from me) rather then South Jersey which is like 1 hr, 45 minutes from me. I was like all righty...not like I wanted to see you or nothing...so I kinda got the impression that even him KNOWING I wanted to see him, he didn't say a word. Maybe he didn't want to see me...maybe he just forgot, I don't know. Whatever. So I was saying this to my Yakuza after Ghost finished her deal, then Akio. Jun said I shouldn't over react but the problem is, with a track record like mine, I can't help it. It also brought me to the conclusion that no matter what, even if I WANT to change from my usual asshole pattern of males I usually chase, I can't because apparently, nice guys don't want me. So even if I try not to be shallow and dig someone nice, and sweet and smart and good looking but not a pretty boy, I can't get them anyway. They don't want me. So I'm stuck with the same pattern. I also said I should just break down and just tell Hye Sung to come back already because he seems to be the only fucking one that sincerly wants my sorry ass. He and I don't mesh well, he knows that already, yet he's still there and I could get him back at any given moment which makes really consider it, espically because I'm just way too fucking lonely and Jose is obviously not interested. I am doomed to live a single life until I get to Korea. -.- which totally sucks for me.
UGH like I said, Ta will definatly have a pure wifey. >.> at the rate I'm going I'll be born again everything. -.- Ugh...I hate my life. No I don't I just hate what others do to it. *whew* long rant. I always rant when I'm at school. I have nothing better to do then sit here and listen to..*checks CD player* Luna Sea as blog. I wanted to rant about something else...
I need you. Sometimes...I get so scared that I relie on you too much....End of Sorrow...I really can't see anything but you. I love you...
Dude I LOVE this song. End of Sorrow by Luna Sea. I'm ever so glad I got this from Emanuel. Speaking of which, I don't know if I'm going to his house tomorrow. I kinda have the whole week off and I'm not sure if I wanna get up all fucking early just to sleep at someone elses house. If he calls or IMs to confirm I'll go. I just hope he DOESNT FALL ASLEEP THIS TIME!! -.- like I need to be standing in the cold for 5 minutes again. Man it's still raining. My feet are cold and NUMB....omg I think my boots got soaked through seriously...even my socks. Geez. And my hair is disgusting even though I washed it YESTERDAY. Christ. What does one have to do to have a good hair day around here!?
I'm gonna write to KP oppa and then Hye Sung I think the 3 of us need to have a talk. Not together...just indiviually (wow butchered that). Yeah...so Imma go do that. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 18, 2002 .___Ooo I got Orange Juice___.
[Currently Listening to: Crazy About You by: Luna Sea]
I'm on a roll tonight with getting stuff off Winmx. I got today Requiem by Due le Quartz and FINALLY Time is Dead by Luna Sea. And I think this is a new dedication to my Ta. The chorus is like: "Crazy about you, I can't live without you, crazy about you, I can't breathe without you..." stuff in Japanese...Crazy about you... LOL yeah but it's a good song. I'm glad I finally got it. ^_^ I think I can find the lyrics for this somewhere....I'll do it tomorrow. Or something...OMG I WANT ICE CREAM. I got orange juice instead -.- but I just filled up on cream puffs =p covered in conferate sugar which I almost ended up snorting because I ended up pinching some and putting it in my mouth but I got some one my lip and I breathed and some tickled my nose...-.-v faboo but I didn't snort which is good.
I'm finally getting a little more of the 4AM perfomance. Just a little...not a lot because it took me forever to find it. Anyway I went to see Ice Age today with my parents and I was like FABOO. But what sucked was, I was sleeping *my rare and special moments* and my dad bursts into my room and whistles and I sit up all startled and scared and I'm like what? What's happening? What's going on? Blind as hell because I didn't put on my contacts, groggy from being torn from my sleep and scared because of the sudden shattered peace. And I hear my dad going, why are you waking up scared? And my mom is like you just scared the child what do you expect? And I'm scared because I was snatched from my sleep. So my dad goes and hugs me and he's like you okay? I'm like dude I'm tired...I went to bed at 2 in the morning...what time is it? And it's like 11:30. So I get up and take a shower, wash my dirty hair FINALLY and then go see Ice Age. Ahh that movie kicked so much ass. Mwhahahah I loved it.
Okay so Im gonan finish up my orange juice and have a nice yakuza chat. ^.^v laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 17, 2002 .___Randomness VIII___.
[Currently Listening to: Into the Sun by: Luna Sea]
I got that song, Vampire's Talk though I know it's not too good I just wanted it again because I wanna be sure and Be Awake FINALLY I got all the Luna Sea songs I've been wanting EXCEPT Time is Dead -.- and just because no one is letting me get it, I REALLY want it now. I'm also finally FINALLY getting Muddy Blood by Due le Quartz. Taking me forever but it's worth it. It's sexy Miyabi or how Mistao called him the Sex Bitch. XD *licks Miyabi's tummy* yummy. Tastes like cream...mmm cream...*does Homer Simpson drool* Hm...that's an interesting thought...what would yummy Jrockers taste like? I say Miyabi tastes like cream...what would Haido, Yukkie, Sugizo, Toshiya and the plethera of sexy Jrockers taste like? I already put flavors on my Kpop people (MWHAHAH Ta is peaches, Hye Sung the strawberry popsycle, Min Woo the Blowjob, Jun Jin the candy cane, Hee Jun the cake and etc...) but...hm...what would Jrockers taste like? I think Sugizo would be spicy...XD something with spice...like...jalapino (wow butchered that) or something.. YUMMY XD hey Aeris, Mistao help me out with this one. ^^
Okay...yeah...my feet are numb. It's type cold and my time on Winmx keeps going up and down. First it's 30 minutes, thn 20, then 17 and now 30 gain. Geez -.- anyway, yeah so I wrote Serve the Ego for tonight but I didn't write anything. I think I'm gonna have to rewrite Blue soon. >.< damnit. I got 81% done on my d/l. After this I'm going to bed. I talked to NO ONE online ALL NIGHT. No one IMed me and everyone was away. =P *sigh* oh well. Anyway I won't a Gir dolly. I need to go to Hot Topic. I need to go shopping period. =p I wanna go next weekend. Anyway yeah back to Blue I might have to re write that since I only have 1 chap anyway...I might have to rewrite the ONE chapter to make the rest of the fic work better. It's not a bad idea....and I like Blue so far so I have to rewrite it...but not tonight. Maybe during Spring Break since I have nothing to do during that time anyway. ^_^ 90% done so far. *yawn*
I'm so tired...plus I wanna get the rest of 4AM the performance because I have the 1st 40 seconds of it and I LOVE IT!!! because I saw Sugizo in the background and he was wearing a vest...that's enough for me damnit. Now I want the rest. Geez it's like getting Desire all over again. All righty...well Muddy Blood is almost done. FINALLY I'm getting it. Anyway I'm gonna finish that up and then get a nosh to eat...oh yeah food tally for today and it's 1:02 AM 1 glass of milk, 2 snapples, 1 steak sandwich, pasta and chicken for dinner. Am I hungry? No, just really THIRSTY!! *sob* okay forget the nosh, Im jus gonna get another snapple. All righty time to go the d/l is almost finish 2 minutes left. *yawn*
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 17, 2002 .___Owie...I hurt my foot___.
[Currently Listening to: Anubis by: Luna Sea]
It's your laidback style that everyone seems to like and it helps you enjoy life to the fullest. Many people envy your easy-going attitude, but no one can hold a grudge against such a loveable person like you!
Weee I'm Tera Panda ^_^ jjang. I love this panda. It's like...dead...LOL
I'm green ^.^
Yes...yes I should be in Aucifer. *snuggles Yuki and Makoto's leg*
Aoki-chu blogged about what was upsetting her and I already gave her my advice. She knows what I think on the whole thing but, I agree with Ghost Aoki-chu, hopefully it's just a phase your dad is going through. See my family is disfunctional enough without having all those problems...my whole fsmily basically hates each other, my parents who have been married for over 20 yrs act more like they hate each other and argue every few hours, I can't stand my own cousin who I grew up with because he's now too cool for me. (Oh yeah, so cool that he failed his senior year of high school just to stay with all his equally cool friends -.-) my aunt is a lying, gossiping heffier that talks so much shit about my cousin and swears he's the new God when he's just a scrub and shes in denial, my Grandmothers (both of them) don't like me. And I'm not just saying this because I'm an insecure child, but nope, it's true. My mom's mom doesn't like me because I'm not a whore, and my dad's mom doesn't like me because I won't give her money and call her "Mother" -.- yeah...so Aoki-chu, you're not the only family that needs to be on Jerry Springer. Only thing is, most of my family can't speak English but swear they can but call cars and carts the same things...>.>
Anyway...yeah...so Aoki-chu *snuggles* you'll be fine.
Wah...I'm bored....Imma go write up some more of Serve the Ego and then figure out what I can do for a lemon and then d/l some more Luna Sea songs...*yawn* maybe some more Due le Quartz songs...(I still want Muddy Blood) and...yeah...hm...whatelse...yeah...I need to find some more anime pics. OH YEAH...so let me tell everyone how I hurt my foot. Okay, I've always had this problem with my right foot, and I hurt a nerve, and I hurt the bones in my foot all the time. The fact I wear platforms that carry me at least 5 inches off the floor, and then I hurt my right foot all the time. I had it fixed sorta...but now I recently hurt it again. I hurt the bone near my pinky toe on the side of my foot. It hurts SO BAD when I wear shoes and on Friday, I took off my platform and saw this huge red welt on the side of my foot. I was like X.x WAAAAHHH *sob* It didn't hurt until I got home. On Thursday, the pain was so bad when I left my English class that on my way walking to the parking lot, I took off my shoes and walked barefoot to my car. People really looked at me funny and I was like fuck you my feet hurt. I got my socks all dirty, but I don't care. I even walked barefoot home after I parked my car. So I'm barefoot now and the welt has not gone down or away and I'm like...damnit >.< I'm gonna make i worse all week...>.< owie...my poor foot.
Okay yeah...I'm done. Imma go...need to write for tonight. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Saturday, March 16, 2002 .___Luna Ciel?___.
[Currently Listening to: Be in Agony by: Luna Sea]
Yes I got the song. ^_^ Weeee okay let me explain the title of this blog. You see I was talking to Gab about all the random Luna Sea songs I wanted to get and I finally got Crazy for You and Be in Agony and I was talking about how I hate J, the bassist for Luna Sea because he bothers me a lot. -.- Like he thinks he's so great and he's not...>.> so I was like yeah him, Ken the guitarist from L'arc, the I think guitarist from Pierrot, Kyo from DEG, and Gackt's drummer should all start a band. And no one would really pay them attention because...they're not that great looking so it really would be about the music. And of course because they don't look good to me, doesn't mean I'm knocking them for their skills because it's one thing U can admit is that Ken does play a killer guitar and so on and so on. So their band would be all about their music. LOL I'm so mean ^^;;;
But THEN, I started thinking, oh if I ruled the world and I could have my own way and make my own Jrock band it would be something like this:
Hyde (vocalist for L'arc~en~ciel): Vocals (except lives)
Ryuichi (vocalist for Luna Sea): Back up vocals (except in live shows where he's main vocals)
Sugizo (guitarist for Luna Sea): Guitar
Toshiya (bassist for Dir-en-grey): Bassist
Takeo/Yukkie (drummer for Pierrot, drummer for L'arc~en~ciel): Drummer
Why are their 2 drummers? Because I couldn't decide. They would have to flip a coin or do the best strip show or something...anyway, my theory is Ryuichi could do all the lives and Haido can sing back up on live shows, Sugizo would get his nice guitar solo as he did fan service with Toshiya (and which fangirl wouldn't give her left arm for THAT show XD) and Yukkie/Takeo would have the spotlight on them just for sitting behind the drums and lookin all hot. Mwhahah FUN. Their music would be all these great songs that Haido and Sugizo would collaberate on (because as we all know Haido is the bangingist song writer and so is Sugizo)and Sugizo could play violin for them because Haido does like to use those orcharstra things sometimes. That band would last in Japan for a zillion years. Imagine that, talent, good looks AND great music all rolled into one. How great would that be!? And of course the name of the band...?
Luna Ciel XD
I k now I should have thought more about that since DEG and Pierrot are involved but you know....More Luna Sea, and Larc refreneces are made. And I thought about it, as hot as Miyabi is and as good as he plays guitar I wouldnt want him in Luna Ciel because you know, then attention would have to be diverted in 2 ways and that wouldn't be fair to the audience =p SO instead, on live shows, Miyabi could make cameos if his scheduale (wow butchered that) allowed it and then him, Sugizo and Toshiya could all do fan service. XD
Okay who wants to come see my show with my new band Luna Ciel? XD Tickets are....um...well depending how much I love you ^^ MWHAHHAHAHA what a fun fantasy...hm...I need to rule the world...*goes off to plot*
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 15, 2002 .___More Luna Sea___.
[Currently Listening to: Fallout by: Luna Sea]
I d/led a bunvh of new Luna Sea songs today because I'm looking for Crazy about You and Velvet Underground also Time is Dead just because the titles are so kick ass. PLUS the fact that I want them and no one is letting me get them is making me want them more. So far I only succeded in getting Anubis and Fallout and also Larc doing a cover of Shade which I was SO HAPPY to get. Mwhahaha One of my fav bands, doing a cover of my OTHER fav band. ^_^ Bweeeeee
I HATE those people on Winmx that no matter HOW MANY TIME YOU CANCEL THEM, they ALWAYS try again. I once cancelled the same person nine times before I sent them a message and was like so pissed off I was like STOP FUCKING D/LING OFF ME I HAVE DIAL UP. Before I sent that out, I use to send those I cancelled you 8, 9, 10 times already take a hint. If they wouldn't I'd get bitchy. I'm haviing that problem now. Damnit it only takes 1 time for me to get cancelled before I move on. PLUS I'm so conciderate because I d/l one song per person. Some people just wanna d/l everything you have off you at the same time. This one guy wants to d/l Angel's Tale off me and usually I wouldn't have a problem with that...(well I'd cancel him anyway because I'm d/ling Be in Agony right now) but he's trying to d/l BOTH versions off me at once. I'm like UGH WTF. 8 cancelations so far. Blah...I hate them all. I hope they all stub their toes and hit their shins.
Anyway...yeah...I did nothing all day after school. I'm sitting here, still feeling fat after that bowl of ramyun. Blah...evilness. Also no plans for the weekend...blah. Oh well at least I get to sleep. Speaking of which, next week my classes are all cancelled except for Monday which I have to take an English test and then that's it. Tuesday I have no class, Weds. no class, Thursday no class, Friday no class and next Monday is spring break. ^^ *does 1Tym dance*
All righty then...I finished Serve the Ego for tonight and if I can get into a nice mood to write a lemon I will. Hm...I wonder if I have enough time to do a Hee Jun tribute today...>.< man...now I gotta get my magazines out. =P oh well...laters.
Ugh 14 cancelations....time for a bitch message...-.-
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 15, 2002 .___Randomness VII___.
[Currently Listening to: We Are The Future by: H.O.T]
Kicked it back to the old school man. I love this song. I forgot how much I loved it ^^ Weee well okay....let's see. My day was okay. I took my mom to work then I sorta slept at home, then got dressed and went to class. I had to take a math test so I didn't need anything but a pen and my notes ^_^ So I carried my little cute Fendi purse ^.^ I got a 68 on my test...UGH 2 points away from a 70. But I'm getting better. The next test I take will bring my grade up to a C hopefully. Anyway then I went home. I did my chores then I drew! I drew Jun. I figured that I haven't drawn him but 2 times so I was like....hm...I should really draw Jun. There's so few pics of him. So, here it is
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Junstanding_36Moons.jpg
So yeah I think he looks really sexy ^^ He doesn't show any skin, well hardly but he still looks all hot ^^ mwhahaha so anyway....what else...oh yeah Auwon, I know that my pouch won't go away anytime soon, unless I really work on it. Buuut as lazy as I am, I'm just gonna buy one of those electric belt things that make ur stomach contract and relax I think its great. Ahh the lazy person's work out.
Anyway...besides that, I'm about to make some ramyun...well actually I did and I'm gonna eat it. Mwhahahha
Ooo Misato I dooo love that pic XD WAH FUN FUN FUN *licks Miyabi's exposed tummy* Oh speaking of sexy bitches, I watched what I had of Mechanical Dance and I only watched the 1st 10 seconds of it before stopping it and deleting it because it was VISUAL KEI LUNA SEA!! UGH >.< I hate visual kei Luna Sea...so I was upset with that. Oh well...anyways...yeah...I guess that's it. I have to get a envelope and video tape packaging so I can mail my stuff to THAILAND for my worlds most expensive Luna Sea poster and a tape to my dongsang. *yawn* okay Imma go eat my ramyun. I'll blog again later.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 15, 2002 .___It's Hee Jun's birthday!___.
[Currently Listening to: Paradox by: Pierrot]
Last time I made a mistake I said Haken Kruz was perfomed by Due le Quartz...it wasn't my bad. It was Pierrot. Okay anway HOW EXTREMLY fucking late am I.
Today is Moon Hee Jun's 24th (25th in Korean age) birthday. -.- I feel so bad because I don't have time to pay tribute because I can't go through all my pics and scan them and stuff now because it's too late. I feel bad I 4got about his bday. Aww I'm sorry Junie *glomp* I'll do it 2morrow as a late tribute. Because I do respect him for his work and stuff...so I'm pretty mad at myself for forgetting. Blah...some Yakuza I am. AND NO ONE REMINDED ME. I went to the H5T just to post up a message, I didn't bother reading anything, I just wanted to find out if JTL was coming to the states and if they were what fuckin city because if it's in NY I'mma call up Minni unni and at least that way, I can have a translater. Mwhaha fun fun fun. I think it would be cool if I could meet JTL. I mean not like it's Ta or nothing, but still, part of H.O.T man. ^^ Anyway, so yeah it's Hee Jun's birthday. I feel hella bad I 4got. I'll make it up 2morrow though.
But when I did go to the H5T I found some caps of my baby ^^
My Ta doing some news thing *click*
Riight...so....okay...Jose IMed me today. Just a few minute convo. It was okay. I'm not as hyped as I use to be about him talking to me. Wow that lasted for like 3 days. -.-v
OH...okay impulse buying. I'm not usually an impulse buyer but today I was going through ebay as it is my habit to do so. And I stumbled across POSTERS X.x My weakness is posters. I LOVE posters though I have no room on my walls or ceiling to put anymore up. So I came across this poster:
http://www.geocities.com/adkinson01/poster/posterlunarsea.jpg
That was being auctioned at 6$ something. BUT if you bought it NOW, you could get it for 10$ plus 2$ for shipping and handling. Okay...I was stupid and I fell for it. So I bought it. Now I got this huge Luna Sea poster with my sexy slut on it, and I have to figure out how to pay for it. So, I fill out the stuff I'm suppost to, then suddenly I get this notice that says it's 18$ not 10$ plus something else as I thought it would be and I'm like GOD DAMN!! X.x I never even paid that much for a H.O.T poster!! Several YES but NOT ONE!! I'm like GOD DAMN I'm being jacked here!! So I emailed the seller to see what was up with that price. And we learned a lesson here. Never ever buy anything off ebay. I'll stick to lusting after it and hoping to find sellers that won't rip me off. Not only that but I have to send cash because my moher would cruixfiy me if she found I out I used my bank card to pay for a 18$ poster so I now have to risk sending cash to BANGKOK THAILAND -.-;;; aiya. The shit I get myself into because of my damn hormones and the need to see Sugizo upclose and in huge poster form. This is the first and only Luna Sea poster I'm getting...unless my dongsang in Mayalsia can hook it up with some Luna Sea stuff as well as Larc. *sigh* aiya...
So...yeah okay I blogged like 3 times 2day for no reason whatsoever. I'm so random. *yawn* I'm also d/ling a perforamnce of Luna Sea doing Mechanical Dance which I heard of, but I just wanna see what it is and how good Sugizo looks in it. I also d/led some of the In Silence video which I LOVED because Sugizo was just looking really hot in it. I won't get all of this tonight, but hey if it's good then I'll continue seeking it out until I have it all just like I did with that Desire perfomance LOL okay my eyes are drying out. I'm tired...*yawn* OH yeah one more thing...I wrote out six chapters of Blue only to delete all but 1 because I don't like the way it was forming. So I'm starting again. Hopefully Blue will be up sometime soon. Okay now Imma go. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___I forgot___.
[Currently Listening to: Haken Kruz by: Due le Quartz]
I forgot to post up Akio's side story before when I blogged..so...here it is:
All righty...back to writing. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___Throughly Annoyed___.
[Currently Listening to: Purple Sky by: Pierrot]
Ugh toay was one of those were everything annoyed me after I got home from school. Oh, I watched Company of Wolves but I didn't like it near the end. One thing I noticed about Neil Jorden besides the fact that Stephen Rea is ALWAYS in his movies (I saw 4 Neil Jorden movies, Company of Wolves, The Crying Game, Interview with a Vampire and In Dreams, Stephen Rea in all of them) was that he has this dark eerie type of surrounding. His camara angles are also amazing. I loved how in Company there was this one scene where the girl was up a tree and she was looking down and you don't see her, you see like her red shawl on a tree branch on a downward angle as this boy was chasing her, you see him running by. It was so cool it reminded me of Interview when Santiago was upside down the first time he met Louis in Paris and they were under a bridge and Santiago walked up the wall and suspended himself upside down and as he looked down, Louis looked up and you see Louis looking up and the foreground of Santiago's shoulder. It was so cool to see the layout of Neil Jorden's early work for his later movies. I love Neil Jorden movies *clap*
Anyway, afterwards, I went home and my daddy was on the phone =p which is rare and I was like wah....but then it was okay. I did my chores and started to draw for today and then I was annoyed. One phone call after another and I was like UGH -.-;;; one of them was what I call m,y gay stalker where this guy just KEEPS CALLING. I'm doing everything in my power to keep him a school friend not a forever friend. I already have 1 gay guy in my life (not counting his wifey) and he's pretty. *snuggles Sunnie*
Ugh then I was randomly IMed by this person I wish I never knew and I wish would forget about me. -.-;;; It's like geez she popped so much shit in that bopper way that pissed me off and then became a hoe much later on. Blah...I wish annoying people would forget me sometimes...no not sometimes ALWAYS. *sigh* someone shoot them. -.-
I hate being annoyed by people. And I hate how people try to tell me I should be happy with myself. I'm like okay are YOU happy with YOURSELF? Until you are, then don't come around me popping some shit that I should love myself. I've never been so concerned with my weight or how I look, and I'm not even that concerened now, I'm just throughly annoyed with my pouch. And people are like, Oh ur a stick, your aneroxie (wow butchered that), you're so skinny. And I'm thinking, okay 1. I didn't say I was fat, I said I felt fat 2. I said I didn't like the way my STOMACH looked not my whole person 3. I'm NOT anorexic because I EAT. Very little but it happens. I'm not throughly obessed about my weight that I feel the need to diet and excerise intesivly. I'm a little self concious, who isn't but damn...the way people tell me I'm skinny right away is like damn you're getting so defensive about my weight that it makes me think twice. UGH....I KNOW I'm not fat I just hate my stomach geez. People bother me today.
Lately more and more I've been not wanting to talk to people just a few select. I love my Aoki-chu who was feeling upset yesterday and shes one of those select I only wanted to talk to. Blah...just feeling annoyed now. =p I'll be fine. Oh okay so back to this drawing I did. I've been wanting to do a Jia x Tsubasa drawing for a while mostly because you...I like yaoi...and I like Tsu ^^ LOL Gijimo might not like this pic because it's Jia, not her holding Tsubasa up and it's Jia's hands not her's holding Tsu's ass LOL well you have to see what I mean. Geocities. Copy and paste. You know the deal.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/JiaxTsubasa_36MoonsxYami.jpg
My insperation for this pic was those yaoi pics I found on Auwon's blog the other day. Hehehhee. Okay. I'm off to write Serve the Ego I need to get into the good stuff before it starts dragging out and people think this is gonna be a happy fic. LOL Well actually I'm not even sure what it's gonna be....depends on my mood. X.x lol laters. Will my toil never seize? LOL I'm watching Hey Arnold...I love cartoons...laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___I got a Pouch...>.<___.
[Currently Listening to: Loveless by: Luna Sea]
DESPITE MY BEST EFFORTS TO FAST AND CUT BACK ON FOOD I HAVE A POUCH -.-;;;;;;;;;;;;
What's a pouch you ask? It's that liiiiitle bit of tummy that no matter HOW MUCH you suck in, it ALWAYS sticks out and hangs slightly over your low rise jeans. -.- I hate my stomach. I hate it so much, I'm reeeeeally considering talking to my mom about surgery. And WHY NOT I once considered plastic surgery for the "button" I have on my face which my mom thinks is cute but I think goes WIDER when I smile. I hate my nose too. But I rather leave that alone and attack the fucking pouch I can not seem to get rid of no matter what. I do sit ups, I cut soda out of my diet, hell I cut FOOD out of my diet, I stopped chewing as much gum and I walk a lot and YET STILL there's that fucking pouch just hanging there, mocking me and making me feel like a pregnat cow. -.-
I noticed it this morning when I was getting dressed. I was pulling up my very proud size 5 low rise frayed top jeans and when I buttoned them I looked down and saw my tummy hanging over it slightly. So I stood up straight and sucked it in slightly....and it was STILL there. I was like WTF!! X.x after that I've been really pissed off because my body hates me and I'm really starting to hate it right back. *harrasses body* don't make me surgically alter you God damnit...I WILL do it if I have to. -.- I'm THAT vain and self absoarbed that if I HAVE TO I will. And my momma won't say no. What's she gonna say? No? Yeah right. If I hadn't really thought the whole nose job thing through I would have gotten a nose job. The only thing my mom said to me when I mentioned it was, think about it really carefully. Give it a week, if you really want to by the end of the week no doubts or nothing, then we'll get it done for you. Hm...what's a little lipo compared to that. Am I that vain and arrogant? You damn right. -.-
Anyway, yeah...besides my kangaroo like torso, I'm at school now. It's such a nice day. Today in English we're gonna watch this movie directed by my FAV DIRECTOR, Neil Jorden. I LOVE HIM. He did Interview ^^ *claps* so we're gonna watch this other movie called Company of Wolves since we read this short story about it. It's like a horror version of Red Riding Hood, I mentioned it before how the wolf sounds sorta hot LOL I'm so weird I know.
Auwon, man everyone is having funky dreams only mine wasn't bad just scary like when I couldn't move X.x so I get what ur saying. I once had this really werid dream where like I was watching this plane fall from the sky (this was a long time ago) and it wasn't on fire or anything, it was just falling. And I was like watching it fall and it crashed like...maybe a good 100 feet from me and like I could hear the people inside screaming and like shouting to get out. It was awful hearing all those people, like having a million voices in your head or something. X.x I know weird dream. I don't remember what happened after that though. I usually don't have long dreams...I use to a lot but then recently I don't have the time to anymore except maybe random flashes of people's faces, or someone talking to me for a minute and it goes off into some haze. My head is weird. LOL It's why I tell people to get out of my head, they might like it in there. LOL
*yawn* I want a cup of coffee. Before I got to English today I'll go buy one. *stretch*
I was going through Mifyuu's blog *click* and she was having a weird dream too. Hehehehe her's made me laugh a little. Oh and she posted up this pic of Haido where he looks all sexy XD
The top left hand pic is my fav *click* I love this pic. He looks all...rough XD showing a nipple there XD I love when he shows his scrawny body. Yeah it's scrawny admit it. =P LOL but still fun to look at! And I'm not complaining. Mwhahahah *big yawn* man I still got an hour to go before I have to go to class. X.x like at 9:10 I'm gonna go buy my coffee...hm something smells like incense here...weird. Some people just OD on perfume man...X.x it's too much. It also hurts my sinus because my sinus is oh so delicate. LOL...ahhh now I'm rambling because I have nothing better to do. OH yesterday I finished Akio's side story but I didn't have the chance to upload it. I was like -.- arg..mother of God. But it's all saved so after I do a quick spell check again this afternoon, I'll post it up. Also I might have a nice Jia x Tsu pic. Mwhahahah I always wanted to draw one of those. And I still have to write up a Tsu x Aya fic. Shit...I forgot who was gonna be the seme...X.x damnit they're both such ukes!!! This, Gijimo is why I was hesistating writing a Tsu x Aya fic because they're both too pretty and they're both BORN to be ukes. -.- Quick vocab for everyone that doesn't know..
Uke: Bottom in a male x male relationship. In Japanese uke means to recieve.
Seme: Top in a male x male relationship. In Japanese, seme means to attack.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___Randomness VI (I think)___.
[Currently Listening to: Manjii Karame by: Due le Quartz]
I have like so much random to say I hope I remember it all. Okay 1st off, Misato your fic was yummy XD very porno movie-ish though. LOL Anyone intrested go to Misato's blog *click* and read her Toshiya x Miyabi lemon 1 shot. Like I said, very porn movie-ish. LOL but throughly enjoyed. Hehehehe Anyway...Ooo yeah I also stole this from her blog ^^b
LOL That's the face Miyabi has there. LOL Anyway I'm eating pasta Alfredo and steak. My 1st meal of the day. I think I ate less then half and I'm already starting to feel full X.x which sucks for me. I realized I haven't been keeping my food tally lately so I guess I'll do it today. Food talley as of now and it's 8:10 PM: 1 cup of milk, 1 cup of coffee, a steak sandwhich, pasta alfredo and steak, 2 snapples. Am I hungry? No...-.- I feel full and fat X.x Anyway let me also rant about Jose and how I really think he's not as intrested as maybe I thought he was...maybe as friends sure...but as anything more? I doubt it. He seems like...not intrested. Not like that anyway and I'm like...all righty. I guess I could always say, yay I have another friend but you know what I have enough fucking friends. What the hell would I do with another one? Geez...>.> it's like what a waste of time. And THIS, Aoki-chu is why I don't like getting all happy and giddy about guys. -.-
Speaking of being anti-happy/giddy, I got my yakuza pics today. Let me post before I 4get. I uploaded them on geocities because my personal.buildpage thingy is kinda err about how much space I have. So copy and paste you know the drill
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/AkioandGhost.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/AkioandToki.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostJunTokiandAkio.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostandToki.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Tokismoking.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/DragonLeaf.jpg
I have more pics but the rest came out sorta dark and didn't scan well which pissed me off =P But on the upside, Ghost finally finished reading of 36 Moons and what was scary during the conversation Mikkie was having with Jia about Toki, he said the same exact thing Ghost was saying at the time. I was like whoa...cool. Hehehhee. Oh I got my film developed this morning and picked it up before my dad left for work. Heheh I had to hide the smoking pics because if my mom saw those she'd kill me. LOL
I just got this forward from Gab and some of it is pretty funny like this one:
Why is it so hard for women to find men that are sensitive, caring, andgood looking?
What makes men chase women they have no intention of marrying?
Why does Mike Tyson cry during sex?
What's the Cuban National Anthem?
And now for some useless trival...
Fish have eyelids.
The average person will spend 2 years of their life on the phone.
Despite it's hump, a camel has a straight spine
A cat's lower jaw cannot move side to side.
I got those off snapple caps. See it just shows how much fucking snapple I drink. It's what I practically live on. Anyway....yeah...so I should be writing Serve the Ego I'm almost done with my pasta and steak. UGH thank God. Now I feel fat...X.x Oh yeah also I didn't have the chance to properly label the Aoki x Aya fic...and also warn everyone I just uploaded it only after spell checking once. I usually do it twice but this time I didn't have enough time so it only happened once. *sigh* Anyway Aoki-chu you need to tell me what you think kay? All righty...Imma finish up my dinner and then go write. I still have a Aya x Tsubasa fic to write and also Akio's side story. *sigh* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, March 13, 2002 .___Okay so..___.
[Currently Listening to: Nothing]
Satisfied Curiosity Aoki x Aya 1 Shot
So I lied I did finish gotta gooooo
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, March 13, 2002 .___*big sigh*___.
[Currently Listening to: Luna by: Sugizo]
I 4got where I stole that from...I did such a long time ago. Anyway....I'm talking to Jose again. And because Sunnie is having his Hye Sung moment, I'm not speaking to him. I'm d/ling my Desire video again and this has to be the best luck I've had d/ling stuff because when I d/led it the 1st time, it took me almost 3 days. Tonight I have up to 40% done and I may get 1/2 before I have to go. I'm kinda happy considering it's evil dial up. However, I still have yet to complete work on my AokixAya fic. I'm more then 1/2 way done but I doubt I'll finish it before tonight. I gotta add a new blog to this thing...
I want a new layout -.- Gab will be busy and I'm being fussy and I want a new layout. *pout* I should employ someone else to do this while Gab is busy...cuz I really really want a new layout damnit. LOL I know I'm so fussy. I figured out how to say both Emperor and Empress in Japanese. *beams* I should have done so sooner but you know...I forgot. Let's see in Japanese Ta is a kotei and I am a kogo. So easy. The kanjii to this is pretty. ^^ anyway, I love my little handy dandy Japanese/English Dictionary. ^^b
I got math 2morrow. *yawn* man...but I got money so Imma go develope my pictures of the yakuza tomorrow. Ghost gave me this one:
Jun, Ghost Toki and Akio *click*
I showed Jose and I had to quickly explain the whole "we're yakuza" thing and then he gave me a pic he took of Daniel and this other guy. I was like X.@;;; he looks like the Daniel in 36 Moons lookin all yakuza-ish. See:
Daniel from 36 Moons
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 12, 2002 .___Damnit Emanuel...___.
[Currently Listening to: Sel-fish by: Due le Quartz]
DAMNIT. Okay....I woke up today and dropped my mom off at work after I dressed in my sweats and my white shirt. I stuck my sneakers on and then grabbed my jean coat and went to her job to drop her off. I had stomach pressure not cramps but it felt like someone was pressing down on my abdomen and it wasn't fun -.-;;; but anyway I figured I could sleep at Emanuel's house. At 7:30 I get to his house and I knock on the door because usually he leaves it open, and then I rang the door bell, and then I called him on my cell phone....nothing. -.- He didn't answer! I was like NOOOOO and I didn't see his car and I was like UGH u loser. So I turn and go back to my car. I prep a story in case my dad asked and I went back home. I snuck in, took my contacts out and went back to bed. It was only a little past 7:30 because Emanuel literally lives down the street from me. So I was sleeping, trying to stay asleep because I kept having these weird, flashy thoughts that woke me. Anyway, my cell phone goes off and I answer without even looking at who's answering and it's Emanuel. He's like I'm here! I'm like where? He's like at my house. I'm like, well where were you before? So he explained he had accidently fallen asleep after his parents left for work. Then he was like you still wanna come by? I'm like what time is it? He's like 8:30. I'm like hell no I'm tired. So I'll call you later and I'll see you next week. I think he was mad/upset but damnit I was pretty pissed off too since I was like calling and ringing his door bell for like 5 minutes, standing in the cold waiting for him. So I went back to bed.
My dreams/images/flashing thoughts where so weird. Like...um...let me see if I can explain this. Maybe ravers know what I mean, like you know those strobe lights I think they called where like the room goes from light to dark in like 1 second and it's like a flashing seen and everything looks like its going in slow motion? That's what I had. I kept seeing random people like real people I know and like gasoo and J-rockers all sorta of like...moving slowly, but that's because of the light making it seem like they were. I at one point saw Jose, his head was sorta thrown back his arms in the air, then I saw Sugizo and he was moving his head up and down, more or less headbanging, his hair flying up but again looking like it was slow mo. Then I saw my Ta and he was like moving his body really slowly, but it wasn't pleasent, I kept moving my arms and like almost felt like I was panicking and I kept waking up. At one point I felt like I couldn't move though I was like oh my God, I wanna turn around but my arms and legs wouldn't move no matter what I tried. I started to get real edgy and scared and I finally opened my eyes, but it felt like I didn't open them...it was really weird.
Ne, Aoki-chu I know Jose is cute. He's mad adorable. Mwhahaha I can't wait to see him again. He's really looking forward to the snowboarding season and I think that's one of the things that scares me about him...he'll prolly want me to try it with him eventually. Ugh that scares me X.x. *ducks Auwon's blade* Sorry sorry! I know just how Gackt will be beautiful to you always, so will Ta to me, no matter what he does to himself. Weee Misato, so glad you agree. ^^ Oo oand thanks for all the new info on Miyabi. ^^ Ur right though he is a sexy sexy bitch XD *cops cheap feel off Miyabi* Yum...Oh yeah so I got this info from Misato's blog:
-Shoe size: 'The size of my feet is the size of my heart.'
How cute is that ^.^ *claps* anyway Imma go write before I have to pick up my mom. *yawn* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 12, 2002 .___See Man...___.
[Currently Listening to: Sweetest Coma Again by: Luna Sea]
I still think it should be COME again not COMA again...ahh gotta love that. OKAY see I was gonna write up the last of the AokixAya lemon but my DAMN curiosity lead me to start a rant I HAVE to get out of my system. See I just did a little upgrade on my links and blogs. I recently just linked Xio Mei and added a few more links of stuff I like. So I was going through Xio Mei's blog and I see Yumiko *click* has a blog, so out of my DAMN CURIOSITY *shoots curiosity point blank in the face* I go and see. I shouldn't really be ranting about this, but it just REALLY pissed me off.
I for one think Anne Rice writes like a man and is in desperate need for serious adjustment. Also, Anne Rice novels require no brain work. It's all just plot, plot, plot, plot, angst. I go out and read fics if I want to have a fun plot-filled, no-brainer read.
Well basically right now she called me an idiot. And DUH YES she writes like a man...what the hell do you think Lestat is? *rolls eyes* And...how is she in need of serious adjustment? And plot, plot, plot, angst...um what is a book suppost to have other then a plot? -.-;;; She goes out and reads fics for no brainers...she's on my ML...
Even in fics, at least they have some kind of development in characters whereas Anne Rice novels have jack squat. I think Anne Rice novels are the equivalent of Goosebumps paperbacks. Cheap, churned out quickly, and stupid.
Oh I see...she compares her work to GOOSEBUMPS? WTF Cheap churned out quickly and stupid? Okay 1st off, unlike Goosebumps which range from...what 5-7 bucks? Anne Rice novels are more then that IF we're comparing price here. Plot wise I think they have jus a little more depth then fucking GOOSEBUMPS. Churned out quickly?? HELLO it took her like almost 2 yrs to come out with Blood and Gold and from 1996 or 98 I can't remember she finished Memnoch the Devil and the next one didn't come out till like late 99 almost 2000. Stupid? Hardly. If you even read the first couple of pages of her books they're filled with religious, realistic and these extremly deep connections with really small details that later blow up into something else.
I still wonder why she appeals to so many with such garbage, yet some of the most brilliant authors I have ever read are ignored and pushed aside? I love Davies with his Jungian psychology embedded in each book. I love P.J. O'Rourke whose 'The CEO of the Sofa' is such a great laugh. I also love Douglas Adams, whose 'Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy' I have regarded to as almost a bible. Zaphod Beeblebrox is my hero. Last, but not least, Salinger with his 'Catcher in the Rye' filled with teen angst was insane and awesome. The four aforementioned authors are brilliant in every sense of the word. They cover plot and angst so much better than Anne Rice, and bring so much more than just plot and angst to their stories.
I really hate the fact that she's trashing Anne Rice's novels when it's so fuckin clear she hardly even read one becuase if you even read Interview, you see the depth and the angst in each page that could bring you to tears. Lestat's torment to Louis, the pain Louis brings upon himself, complex situations like Lestat's so called death and the trial brought upon Claudia. UGH it's so clear she never read one, not ONE single one of the Vampire Chronicals and if she did, then MAN did she NOT pay attention. BET, Memnoch WAS the freakin bible just written from the Devil's point of view and it's not even EVIL geez...
Hell, even Anne Rice's brother writes better stuff than her, yet he is still overshadowed by the crap she writes and calls literature. Bull-fucking-crap!
Uh duh....she has a husband Stan Rice, and a SON Christopher Rice. Yeah...and last to date, Stan Rice wrote poetry, Chrisopher Rice wrote ONE BOOK. JUST ONE. GEEZ don't even got her facts straight on THAT! And how could poetry or one single book overshadow like the Chronicals? Okay geez...>.>
*sigh* everyone is entiled to opioions....just...not everyone should have the right to express them without having their vocal cords torn out or shot point blank in their face. It gets me so mad because like...she talks about it like she knows all and whatnot...UGH makes me wanna bust 2 shots off...ugh Akio...I'm with you man...I need a cigarette....-.- Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 11, 2002 .___Jose II___.
[Currently Listening to: Dearest Love by: L'arc~en~ciel]
Eeeeeee I got pictures of Jose! ^^ I prolly shouldn't be sharing them on my blog...sine they were kinda meant for me...but I really wanna show them off anyway ^^v
I think he's so kawaii...Gab's got this whole thing on his facial hair but hey...I really don't care. He's too cute ^^
Thats him smiling after I told him I didn't smile in pics because I don't like to. So he took that. He was looking for his web cam before. Damn he's so cute. ^^ He IMed me twice today! I was all happy because the first time he did he was at work. ^_^ Then he IMed a little while ago...like around 8. ^.^
Aoki-chu called me before after I finished talking to Jose in the afternoon and I was being very female and giggly. I was like UGH I hate when I get like that. I get all stupid and all...girly. -.-v
Toki does NOT get girly and giggly. -.-
Aoki-chu said it was cute...which I don't. I HATE when I get like that. Then she was like if you get with him, I hope you get all stupid like that. I'm like PLEASE...I will never. It's not that serious. I'll get like that when I'm engaged to Ta thank you very much. Like I need to get all stupid and have some guy revolve around my whole world. Please...that's Ta's job. LOL
Riiite...so Misato got on this whole which J-rocker has an ass and which don't and sad to say not many (if any) have an ass...which is sad. LOL Of course this is my fav quote from her blog:
Although Haido doesn't have that much, he does have a cute leather clad ass, I think he has more ass than Gackt and definitely more than Toshiya and Miyabi. Wahhh Miyabi why don't you have an ass?! ;_;
LOL LOL LOL I don't think he can help that Misato! LOL But that was great ^^
Ooo Speaking of Haido (all of him not just his ass)I went to Route 666 *click* and found some recent Haido pics. Looking like the sexy bitch he is. I got the following pic from there, April issue of Pati-Pati
Haido black and white looking up *click*
This one is from the March CD Data:
Haido's droopy lid *click*
Haido's profile *click*
Riight...so I'm still talking to Jose. ^^ *dances around* All righty...Imma go work on my AokixAya fic and still bitch and moan about not having a new layout since everyone else has one *pout* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 11, 2002 .___I wanna wriiiite *pout*___.
[Currently Listening to: More then a Woman by: Aaliyah the Queen]
Riiite.....so I'm bored off my ass so much so that you would not believe. I'm online much earlier then expected because I don't have English homework to do this morning. *yawn* Toki-chu needs a cigarette...or some coffee or a hot guy to walk by and wake my sorry looking ass up right now. -.- I put no effort into getting ready this morning because it was gonna be cold as hell. Sure they say it'll be 44 or more degrees today but what they don't tell you how cold it's gonna be in the morning (its like 27 degrees) and anyway, having learned my lesson all through winter, I put on my blue bell bottoms, my black long sleeved shirt and even threw my black hoodie over it with my black knee length coat over it. I couldn't find my gloves in my room, or in my bag so I figured I left them in my car. Uh..nope I didn't -.-;;; so my hands started shaking. I was pretty cold. Then I got to school and sat in my car for 1/2 an hour just chillen, until I decided to go to the compy lab. So I'm walking across the parking lot, my arms crossed in front of me as I start shivering. The more I walk however, the wind starts getting hard and since I have to walk down this hill thingy, the buildings next to me rise up and block the sun. Usually that's a good thing, but when it's 27 degrees out and there is harsh wind blowing, you kind want some sun to keep you warm. So I start shaking...violently. It almost came to the point where I couldn't walk because I was so cold. It was not fun. So I finally get to the compy lab and here I am...
Mornings are evil. -.-
I didn't get to talk to Jose last night because I didn't wanna be annoying and keep IMing him...so I kinda left him alone for yesterday, just so he wouldn't get the idea I was stalking him...which I'm NOT because I do not go out of my way to see/talk to him. I'm too lazy -.-v *yawn*
Anyway, a few days ago I got a envelope from Helayne being a tape of Larc videos ^^ I got Dive to Blue, Nijii, Winterfall and 2 live performances of Haido doing Nijii and Shout at the Devil. I know I was about to start writhing in pain too just hearing him do a live but it was not so bad. hm...maybe he was lip syncing...LOL because he really does NOT sound that good usually. It was creepy. But I liked Shout at the Devil because he looked really good. And Yukkie had short hair! *glomp* looking all like Bruce Lee and whatnot. LOL It was hella cute. *sigh*
Yesterday when I should have been writing, I was fucking off (as usual) and went through some of the links on Auwon's blog. So I came across this blog *click* and I was like hm...so I skimmed through some of it and then I found the blog entry dated 2-25-02 8:42PM where she was talking about Hide and Kurt Cobain's death. And I was like OMG I AGREE...uh...except near the end but I'll get to that in a minute. Let me copy and paste what she wrote:
If you love Kurt Cobain and Hide, turn away lol.
Alright, i've been to alot of sites that say that Hide was the greatest Jrocker ever and he's a god... *sweatdrops* Ok, he was talented, i'll give him that. He looked cool too. But besides that... he was just another Jrocker... And I really don't see his death as some huge blow to the Jrock world.
I really don't! From the songs of his that i've heard, they're really lacking lyrical and emotional value... he just seemed like a good guitarist who was in a band. That's it. People compare his death to Cobain, but that Hide was much better. I agree that he was, but c'mon, that's not saying much. Cobain was a drugged out loser alright? Well he was. I don't see his death as ANY loss to the music world. None at all.
You want a loss to the Jrock world? Kami. THAT was a loss. It was a loss because he...
1. Died naturally at 26 (I think), people just fucking glorify suicide, I hate it, it's the 'easy' way out and trust me, people'll hate you for it
2. He had actual talent, whereas Cobain had none and Hide's was just... ok.
I've had friends try to kill themselves and trust me, it's NOTHING great, and I get really angry at people who bow at the feet of some celebrities that offed themselves.
What is up with Sugizo? The only thing about him I like is his hair and the fact that he looks like that but is a father. That's it. I don't see him as some sex God and I really don't think he's all that attractive. The first time I saw a pic of him I couldn't believe that THAT was who Sugizo was. *twitch* And don't even get me started about WHY he dyed his hair pink.
You want a sex God worthy of worship? Try Gackt or Masa!
Or even Chacha lol, hey, he's the only one in Gackt Job with an ass, and I generally don't look at guy's asses... but Chacha's *cackles* lol.
Okay...I'm all done with my J-rocker/K-pop ass rant. I completly wandered off track too...*train wreck* right...so anyway I wanna write. I wanna write SO BAD I wanna work on my Aoki x Aya lemon but as I started it, I realized...wait...Aoki isn't all...gentle and romantic and caring. He's all about stickin' and walkin'. There aint no romance here....but you know...it's pretty Aya. Not like he would jus rip his clothes off, throw him down and fuck him raw then walk away. LOL God that sounded like a porno. LOL I need to conference with mah Yakuza to see if I can do the semi-vulgar lemon, a lemon with a touch of romance or a combo of the 2. Because I really dunno what to do.
Mwhahaha *dances around* I'm an only child, I'm an only child I'm an only child. I LOVE being the only child. No siblings, no one to bust you when your people come over, no one snooping through your shit and fucking it up later....Ah yes...Auwon envy me. LOL Am I lonely? HELL NO. That's why I got friends damnit. I adopted all my siblings. ^.^b mwhahahah being the only child rules so much. XD Okay Imma go do something else as I wait for my English class to start...wah...X.x laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 11, 2002 .___Jose! *bounce*___.
[Currently Listening to: Oni to Sakura by: Pierrot]
You are Lestat. The Brat Prince of Vampires. You're great and you know it.
WOOO *flashes victory sign ^.~*V* YOU DAMN RIGHT! *flashes sign that says BRAT PRINCE*
I stole those off Aeris's blog hehehe. Riiiiiiight...okay so yesterday Jose finally came online. Aftr running around screaming in my living room and conferencing with Ghost and Akio, I grew some balls and IMed Jose. I was being SO UNTOKI...-.- but hey afterwards I got all bold with him and asked when I was gonna see him again. ^.^ He's SO CUTE!! And he's 23 XD Or gonna b anyway in April. I was like jjang...he's so cute!! I was telling Akio and Ghost the 2 cutest thing he was saying like how he was like weee I got a new buddy to put on my buddy list LOL and how he said howdy LOL it was just all too cute. We have some stuff in common...like we both like peach snapple and we like video games. ^^ He wanted me to try snowboarding next session...and I was like uh...>.>;;;;
No....Toki doesn't move -.-v
But...at any rate, he was sweet and he was nice and he was tired so at 2 AM after about 1 hr and 1/2 of talking he went to bed. ^^ He was so cuuuute. hehehehe he made me all happy. Me and Jun then talked afterwards and she was like yay you got brave, u grew some balls Im glad. LOL And I was...so hopefully I'll be able to see Jose before the end of March. *does 1Tym dance*
I went to see The Time Machine today with my parents. It was okay. The special effects were cool. Then I went home. I had dinner mad early today and now I'm chillen. I was watching the anime Haunted Junction which is like the funniest anime I had ever seen. It was great ^.^b Weee good times. I decided to start watching Queer as Folk on Tuesdays at 11 rather then Sundays at 10. I think it ended anyway. I'm not sure but I missed last weeks episode which pisses me off. =P Stinky -.-
*yawn* Oh yeah, Auwon I looove your new layout. And you know, Mifyuu has a new Honey layout, and *waves to Misato* just because she said hi and she knew I was reading her blog. Hehehehe but I want a new layout! *sigh* I want my slut Sugizo sitting on the side of my blog for now...but Gab is sick and she's not gonna be able to do it anytime soon. *sigh* Damnit...I want a new layout. LOL I'm so impatient. Anyway I finally started sending out my new fic called Serve the Ego. I hope it goes well. It's starting off slow...but it'll pick up I prooomise. ^^v well OH YEAH...I stole these from Auwon's blog ^^b
http://www.angelfire.com/art/spoon/images/eveangelion.jpg
http://www.angelfire.com/weird/fux/images/lickneck.jpg
Okay now Imma go write...laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 10, 2002 .___Not Nice___.
[Currently Listening to: Luna E by: Due le Quartz]
I just wanna know how the fuck plastic can be evil....unless your sufficating someone...>.>
I didn't have the time to blog last night, but basically, here's how yesterday went. After 3, I was waiting for Ghost to come to my house. She had to be here before 4:40 because I had to go pay the cable bill. She got here at 4:35 -.-v late as always. We ended up talking and I was showing her my drawing folder where the pics of the 36 Moons yakuza was and we got side tracked. When we left it was 4:45. We drove to the cable company and it was closed...>.> So I had to slip the bill through the slot ^^;;; I'm hoping for the best otherwise I'm in big trouble. Anyway, then we went to pick up my mom. I gave her my car keys and my house keys and me and Ghost went to Pines where we play pool. I called Akio to check if she was leaving yet because it was 6 when we got there. So we decided to wait for Akio before we went to play pool. So went to the Korean bakery beside the PC Bang there and Ghost had her sushi and I bought this green icy that was flavored to be melon. It really tasted like milk and they were good. So God damn addicting. So...I had another one. They cost like 1$ each. Then Aoki called *jjang* And I talked to her for a while then Akio showed up so we hung up. So then we got Akio in the Korean bakery (there was like a long table and stools to sit down at) and we sat down and talked and Akio bought an icy too. She bought a strawberry one. LOL HYE SUNG LOL and she was like....*looks at icy* ew...LOL then we went to play pool. Jun was suppost to be there at 7:30 the latest, but of course she has no concept of time so she didn't show up till 8:30. Meanwhile Ghost, Akio and I played pool. We were all dressed in black, me and Akio smoking, taking pictures and shooting pool, all while cracking up. Lots of comments and pervert jokes were passed, like my fav when Ghost scratched (meaning she sunk the white ball in the pocket) she picked it up from the little container where the balls go when they fall in the pockets, and shes like "here, you can put it anywhere you want" I look at her like >) "really Ghost? Thanks for the offer." Akio starts cracking up and laughes for like 3 years and then I start laughing and Ghost is like -.-;;;; LOL Ahh then I said, U don't make comments like that to Toki. So basically we had fun. We didn't want to stay at the pool hall too long because it was 1 hr and 1/2 into the game and Jun still wasn't there. So we decided to pay and leave. We went to the pizza place next door and had a calzone and then Jun showed up. We lingered around eating, then we went to the pool hall again because Ghost's cousin showed up. We chilled with them, taking more pictures of us in the dark, all 4 of us 2gether, then a pic of 3 of us smoking, then we left the pool hall again.
We ended up going to the sushi place next to the pool hall because just had to have more sushi. They ate. I couldn't because I'm allergic to sea food and I'll uh...die if I eat it. So I just watched them eat and took another picture of them 3 eating. I was like EE make shift Dragon Leaf! LOL so then we chilled in the pool hall AGAIN and EW Te was there and Jun saw him and she was like OMG I have been visually raped. LOL Then me and Jun left after 1 more picture and then we went to her dorm because she had to get me the disk for Windows ME so when I got home I finally upgraded my Windows. Meaning I have a Windows Media player again WOOO! *celebrates*
Later on I got into a convo with Gab and she was like...being too nice to her dongsang. I expressed the fact that I really didn't like that she was being such a doormat. And I was annoyed. But she explained that she wanted closure if she stopped talking to him and I didn't understand that. It left me thinking damn I'm so mean....so I had to ask the 3rd most brutel person I know, Jun. See Sunnie is 1st, then Pookie, then Jun when it comes to brutel honesty. I know I can't possibly be that mean otherwise I wouldn't have any friends. But then again, I don't have that MANY friends. So I asked Jun, am I a nice person in general. And she said no. I'm not. Okay so my own suspsions where right. I'm not a nice person. She said I'm not because once I have my mind set on not liking someone, it takes a long time for me to change my mind. My opionions don't change very quickly and I hold grudges forever...which I do. It doesn't take much to get me to hate someone I hate perfect strangers for liking my man. Outside the real world, on the internet I've even made grudges that so much time has passed and I still haven't let them go. I don't dislike Nozomi as much as I once did a whle ago, but it's not like I'm all like oohh ohh shes my new best friend. She's okay. And I've almost sorta been ready to let that whole reason I didn't like her from jump slide. But you know...it takes a while. Mako is another I havent even begun about thinking about letting that grudge go. I'm still bitter about it. There are so many more but I can't sit here and list all the people that have pissed me off and done me wrong because I might as well write a novel.
Another thing...I realized how much I hate extremly nice people. They're so easy to take advantage of and since I like some extremly nice people I hate them at the same time for being so soft and allowing anybody even me to take advantage of them. Espically because I've grown to love them and it pisses me off when they're hurt. My best friend D was a doormat in middle school. But by High School she snapped out of that shit mostly because if you hang around me long enough I will rub off on you. I'm just thinking how wrong that sounds...and how amazing it is that people think I'm this sweet nice person and love me for it but in reality the moment you piss me off, I'm a true to life Toki.
I kept saying it last night without realizing it, but I said, I embody Toki way too much sometimes.
And I do. But not because I wanna be like him, it's because I really am him. As weird as that sounds. So I'm not nice...I'm sorta nice...just...I dunno...I'm nice to degrees.
Yeah...I'm done ranting. I gotta write before I get back tracked anymore. It's almost time to send out the new fic. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Saturday, March 9, 2002 .___The Yakuza Step Out___.
[Currently Listening to: Due le Quartz: Sel-fish]
I'm waiting for Ghost to come to my house. =p
I'm all impatient. I'm just waiting for Ghost. La la la la la....me and Ghost are gonna go meet up with Jun and Akio at the pool hall. We're gonna take ghetto style pics LOL I'm excited. Hehehehe okay...2day I cut math because it was just a review, so then me and my friend Matt (who's gay) chilled at a study center for a minute then we chilled until I went home. Then I chilled and had lunch. So..
Food tally for today and it's 4:00 PM: 1 glass of milk, 1 cigarette, 1 steak sandwhich, 1 snapple. Am I hungry? No...just normally filled.
But I ate and that's so bad X.x UGH I hate that. I'm mad at Sunnie...plus I'm arguing with him at the moment....so...yeah...I'll blog again after I get home. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 8, 2002 .___Shallow Sleep___.
[Currently Listening to: Dear from xxx by: Due le Quartz]
That's so funny that I would talk about another band then talk about Haido....LOL but I just have to say, I got 3 Due le Quartz songs so far. Dear from xxx, Replica and Warning all which I like. ^^ Aeris I like them! I think that what's his face can sing! And nevermind that Mayabi can play a mean riff XD Woooooo thas my ningyo *glomps Miyabi's leg* anyway, oh Aeris, thanks for the pic! It was what I was looking for. Got anymore? XD Miyabi is so hot. Mwhahhaa OKAY so back to my point at hand, I got the English Lyrics for Shallow Sleep!! WOOO FINALLY I understood bits and pieces of Haido's fobalicious "engrish" but he lost me here and there. SO I finally got the lyrics.
Thankies to L'arc~en~ciel: My Neo Universe *click* they are also linked on the side.
Shallow Sleep
I just saw you
I gently held out my hand
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
I just saw you
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
I see you -- untill I wake from shallow sleep
An artist without a brush
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
I see you -- shallow sleep
*sigh* I love this song. Now Sunnie can stop bitching at me and write down the rest of the lyrics to this in his profile. He's mean! He called me liking Jose my "flavor of the month" because I'm fickle! Granted I AM fickle, but that's mostly because it doesn't work out and I move on! Stupid Sunnie. I hate you right now you big loser. ANYWAY, right, so I wrote a 1 shot AU (Alternate Universe) fic of 36 Moons this NEVER happened it's just something I wrote for Gab. OH and some warnings:
LEMON WARNING. For those that don't know what a lemon is it's SEX. Nice and graphic there for ya. AND it's between 2 guys so yeah...also another warning. For those fans of 36 Moons that don't like that, relax, this is a AU fic. This never really happened in the fic. It's just some random out take I wrote out for Gab to enjoy.
Okay...that's all I wanted to for tonight. I have to go write my other fic now. Oh and...food tally for now, it being 10:09 PM: 1 glass of milk, 1 cup of coffee, 1 pudding snack, 1 Wendy's spicy chicken sandwich, 1 order of 99 cent nuggets, 1 order of fries, 1 large coke. Am I hungry now? NO. But I feel like a big fat glutton. And I'm thirsty...*sniffle* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 7, 2002 .___Miyabi___.
[Currently Listening to: Le Fou by: Sugizo]
So how late am I? Why didn't someone TELL me about Miyabi from Due le Quartz? *is so extremly late* Okay so Miyabi is fucking hot. I've heard of him before because he was on Kara's layout once upon a time. I just didn't like the way he looked in his visual kei stuff. I thought it was too much so I didn't pay too much attention to him or his band. So I kind neglected it. But then, I went to Raison d'etre *click* and at this blog, there was this pic of Miyabi. I liked it. ^^ I also have to link her back because I didn't know she had linked me. *feels special* this is what I was talking about earlier. Anyway, so she linked this site in her recent blog so I was like hm...so I go to Miyabi no heya *click* and get some NICE pictures of SEXY ass Miyabi.*drool*
That's one of them XD *drool* I WANT THE BIGGER VERSION! That's the thumbnail from the aformentioned site, so I just took the thumbnail because the bigger pic doesn't work!! *SOB* So if someone, ANYONE can hook it up with the bigger version of that pic I'd love you forever! Aeris? *since shes the one with the in on where I can find great J-rock pics* you know where I can find a bigger version of that pic? *wants so bad* Anyway, moving on...
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So...when I get home from picking up my mom today, I'm gonna d/l some songs, see if they're any good or just a pretty face. Miyabi is the guitarist...XD he's also 20 years old!! He's a baby!!! *squeal* And he's about 6 feet tall but weighs about 126 pounds! X.@;;; even less then Sunnie....geez...he also smokes 6 Star cigarettes, same as Yukkie *^^* and his name translates into Elegance which is just some dope shit right there. Okay...so I have another lust on the list. >.>
Okay total food tally and it's now 3:30 PM: 1 glass of milk, 1 cup of coffee, 1 pudding snack. Am I hungry? You betcha...-.-v
So...yeah....um...what was I gonna say? Oh yeah, I gotta find out if I'm gonna play pool with Akio for sure 2morrow so I can ask my mom already. Plus I wanna see Jun and my boy Paulo tomorrow too. I jus hope Akio says yes ^^ yeah I had a pretty good day today in English. I actually spoke a lot to my proffesser because we read this twisted ass version of Red Riding Hood which was made into a horror story from a fairy tale. And the wolf, the way he was described, he was like a man, with tan skin, dark nipples, a happy trail, thin but strong with hunge...*clears throat* yeah....they actually said that. "huge" was the word they used to describe his package. XD Made for a great story because he got to fuck Red Riding Hood at the end. LOL So I was saying how this was a horror story because of the violence and how the wolf was more like a man then a wolf, the only ewwy thing was like that the wolf had lice X.x ew. LOL but it was a good story. We also talked about Interview!! Jjang. *^^* we talked about Lestat an I was like OOO I KNOW I KNOW!! Mwhahaha~
Okay...so...oh yeah...
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Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 7, 2002 .___*bounce*___.
[Currently Listening to: Is it Love by: J]
Yesterday I couldn't blog because pitas was moving to a new server -.-;;; which left me blogless for like the whole day. Boo.
I'm Teru. LOL I'm damn sexy? LOL What am I Sunnie??
> You're Shirou Kamui!
Boo...I wanted to be Subaru. But hey Kamui's fine too XD
Okay well anyway....let's see I'm gonna tally my total gluttoness yesterday. I had 2 snapples, 1 orange, a bowl of ramyun, a pudding snack and some roasted potatoes. -.- so much for fasting. UGH I made a glutton of myself, now I'm pissed. I'm gonna eat less 2day. I can't believe I ate so much yesterday. OH and while making my stupid ramyun, the water started over boiling, I scaleded myself and I spilled ramyun all over the stove and Sunnie LAUGHED at me. -.- Just because I can't cook for beans and neither can he but at least he never tried. -.- I am never cooking again.
I also found out I'm completly pissed off because I talked to Jun last night and I found out she's going to Korea THIS summer. I was like -.-;; I wanna go. SO, rather then go shopping with my mom's tax refund money, I'm gonna try and con her into letting me to go to Korea too. Damnit I wanna get married this year. It would be nice to be inengaged before my 21st birthday ^.^b I told her it was my mission, my life goal. I don't strive for much. I'm like a man, very simple to please. ^.^b And like I said a million times, I'm going to Korea and I'm not coming back without him or his last name. Gotta be one or the other damnit. Anyway, I have till like...late May early June to accomplish this...so hopefully I will be able to. ^^ jjang
Okay...so...yeah. I was talking to Sunnie last night, as usually do sometimes. He was cracking me up sometimes and then just plain pissing me off as usual -.-v he was on his great "I must learn to give better head" conquest. Since he dropped so much freaking weight, in an unhealthy manner I pulled him to the side and all joking aside told him it wasn't sexy. Which is why he's eating more often. Of course he feels full more often which is a new feeling to him. So since he's too skinny, he's not sleeping with wifey as often as he'd like. So he's set on just doing the oral thing until his weight comes back up. Of course...he's not USE to doing the oral thing, so he thinks he's not good at it. He's also not sure if it's him giving good head or is it just wifey's sensativaty. So....he's kinda stuck. Oh and yesterday he was busted for smoking in his house with Woo. Woo smokes so Sunnie was smoking too. *social smoker XD* And Wifey got home and instead of yelling at Sunnie, he yelled at Woo for being a bad influence. Of course Sunnie got his punishment too because he wasn't kissed until he brushed his teeth. LOL Ah...
Speaking of which, March seems to be the time of month for everyone smoking up now. I quit for this month though I'm sensing that's gonna b hella hard to do. Akio picked it up, so did Jun, Sunnie is smoking again now and...you know, that's not helping. I'm getting major nicotine craving already but I refuse to buy another pack of cigarettes considering I FINALLY have the money to pay off the last of my debt and I have to pay for my dongsang's package since she bought me all these J-rock CDs. The most I can do for her is buy her stuff for her in return. So anyway, so I'm not smoking, but....ugh...everyone around me is. -.-
Gab was scolding Sunnie and me about smoking...well more Sunnie then me saying it was nasty. Well of course it is. We're inhaling carbon monxiod (wow butchered that), anmoinia, a type of rat poison, anti freeze and a million other kinds of chemicals. Of course it's nasty. But you know, we're gonna do it anyway. Something that made me look off to the side was how when Sunnie was telling me that he was saying that everyone he knows smokes or did for long periods of time, and they're fine. Like Chun Hae (my other oppa!! He scares me though X.x he looks like a killer >.<) he use to smoke from the time he was 12 till he was about 19 almost 20. He quit recently because he saw the effects of being on a resperater. He found out, they don't kill you once ur lungs are shot to hell, they keep you living. And he was like ew...>.< I jus wanna die when my lungs cave in on each other. So he quit...and he's okay now. Sorta. He still scares me though. He's a future doctor. Scary thought huh? Anyway, he also mentioned how Tony (from H.O.T/JTL) smokes, how my Ta smokes, and how WOO HYUK (though he stupidly has asthma and is just BEGGING to be on a oxygen tank) smokes too. Gab's response: "There are exceptions" *everyone looks off to the side* Not knocking my dongsang or nothing because she knows I love her *huggles Gab* but you know...that was....cute. Leave us not continue touching down on that. But Sunnie's response to me was funny. I won't say it because as well all know Sunnie is a mean bastard, but it was more then my quiet "looking off to the side" thing.
I have English today. -.-;;; I desperatly want a cup of coffee. I need a stimulate. I always feel like such a loser in that class. I don't talk to anyone, and I never partner up with anyone. I do my OWN fucking work. Not that I wanna have a partner because I hate talking to people, but it still sucks being the only soul in the class without a partner. Last time I was ASSIGNED a partner and the asshole wouldn't even acknowledge it. He did his own work. But I shouldn't exactly talk because I made no notion to go work with him either. But still. That's some sad sorry shit when even your assigned partner won't work with you. >.> that's okay. I hate everyone and I hope they all stub their toes and hit their shins and loose their car keys. ^.^
SES IS BREAKING UP *throws confetti in the air while busting out the 1Tym dance* Downside, Eugene is getting her own deal. >.> like I said, she must be giving LSM some good head for that to happen because she can't sing for beans. 31 one times my friends, 31 times. >.> Hm, SM is just fuckin up all over the place aint he? Next up is Shinhwa then Fly to the Sky. Not that I care for FTTS but...yeah...they next up in line after Shinhwa because SM just can't seem to do jack shit. Someone else in Korea is gonna make a whole shit load of money once H.O.T reunites. MWHAHAHHAA Sm will be kicking himself in the ass for that one.
Oh yesterday I found out I was linked to this other blog (I'm at school I don't have the link on me now) and I was like oh wow....I dunno this girl but she has sexy ass Miyabi on her layout and she linked me so I'll link her back. ^^ I love being unknowningly linked and then I find out. I feel so special. ^.^ I know I'm a dork leave me alone. Ugh my back hurts. This stupid chair is like making my spine press against the plastic of this chair.
Annnd a little pow wow just started next to me -.- why? like the bitch can't stand on her OTHER side, no she has to stand RIGHT fucking here. I hate not being home when I blog. =P but I have much time to kill. I think I will get a cup of coffee...I have a single today. Jjang. Okay...food tally so far and it's 9 in the morning: 1 cup of milk. Am I hungry? You betcha....-.- laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 7, 2002 .___The Final Part___.
[Currently Listening to: Vanity Dance by: Pierrot]
*sob* I'm gonna have to post the last chap of 36 Moons now. I've been working on this for almost a year. This is my pride and joy and something I've been really proud of. I'm almost sad to finish it but the last time I didn't finish it, and kept it going I ended up writing 2 more parts. I don't wanna drag it out and make it boring because there's gotta be an ending somewhere...all good stories come to an end...sooner or later. =P I really loved working on this. But hey, I'll never really be done because I will accept requests for side fics, and fan fics are allowed (if there are any fans X.x) and I'll still draw for it, and the Yakuza will always be around to carry the names of those in the fics. ^.^ Parts 1-90 are posted at my FAQ (link on the side) and I'll post up more of it eventually. All art work is there too. So...I guess it's time for the final chapter of 36 Moons
*sigh*....I know that I won't love a fic as much as I loved 36 Moons and I know whatever OC fic I post up next it won't be as popular as 36 Moons I copped out on Petals Black but I won't for Blue, which will be the next thing I post up here. *sigh* Maaan...I miss it already.
I don't really have much to ramble on now...other then I HATE BOPPERS.....Yakuza I'll tell you all why later but Gab knows why...ugh....OH YEAH damnit in Jun's away message, she wrote IM Jose and she told me his SN before...and I totally forgot it though its like the easiest thing inthe world -.-v so I started daming my brain...and something was seriously wrong with that. But I was mad because I would have IMed him too..*sigh* maybe next time. Anyway yeah...that's all for now. Imma go work on Blue AND I have passed the 1/2 way mark on my new fic. ^_^ so I'll be sending that out soon ^^ bweee....laters~
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 5, 2002 .___Lazy___.
[Currently Listening to: DT G Magazine by: Eun Ji Won featuring Drunken Tiger]
I don't know who Silver Ash is...Aeris are they any good? Can someone recommend some songs to me? Cuz if they're good I'll give them a try ^.^b Well anyway, today, I woke up and I was too exhausted to get up. Since I don't have class 2day anyway and I was going to Emanuel's house anyway, I was like blah...going to bed. So I told my mom that I had 1 class today because the other one was canceled and the one class I had wasn't going to do anything important. So I slept in today ^^b jjang. Hehehehe
OKAY more pics~ 2day I got more pics of my beautiful Ta in black and white XD *sigh*
Ta looking down *click*
Ta looking ahead *click*
That beautiful profile again *click*
I got those from the H.5.T link on the left. *clap* Jjang.
OH OH OH annnnnd.....now we shift the spotlight from my beautiful sexy, most perfect Ta to Apolo Anton Ohno. I found this site yesterday called Ohno Zone *click* which is where I got these pics from. ^.^
Apolo Anton Ohno lacing his skates *click*
Oo oo oo okay, the other day, I heard about Haido posing nakked in H magazine XD which I of course was extremly curious about getting. Which it turned out I could. So I'm in the process of getting it. Well anyway thanks to reincarnation *click* I got some pics of Haido "naked" which it turned out he wasn't *is dissapointed* but he took some nice pictures nonetheless. ^^
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Weeee I'm such a dork. LOL OH MAN Akio, I LOVE your closing in your blog. ^^ It's so dope. It says "Akio placed his glock smack against ur forehead. think fast. *BANG* not fast enough." WEEE THAS DOPE! *claps* I looooved. Heheheh well I also wanna say sorry to Helyane, Akio and Gab for suddenly leaving. My AOL froze and I had to go anyway...=p sorry about that. Anyway OH YEAH AUWON *shrivals up and dies* don't talk about THAT BOI X.x EW EW EW EW it's bad enough I have to see him on Cathy's blog but that doesn't mean I should subject myself to having you dig on some guy that LOOKS LIKE HIM EW EW EW EW EW EW *dies* vileness...ew...*shutters violently* ew...THAT BOI...
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 5, 2002 .___More Tests___.
[Currently Listening to: Dramatic Neo Anniversery by: Pierrot]
Got them pff Aeris's blog ^^b Weeee okay....so...right. Gab finally got around to posting up our tags. ^^ I saved all the tags except Gab's to my own server ^^b so here they are ^^
I posted Gab's Tag before hehe. Okay..so...right so I started my fast...sorta. I had 2 slices of pizza besides the fruit I ate. =P I have to eat that pizza because otherwise my mom will get all mad. So after that pizza, I have to eat my fat free pudding and then I'm done. Mwhahah after that I won't eat anymore junk. Bweee so anyway I got new pictures of Haido!! All from Route 666 on the left. I just snatched some of my favs.
Sexy Haido sitting in a chair
Want my Blood?
The Beautiful One
OH and then 2day from the H.5.T *link on the left* I got new pictures of Hee Jun looking very, very Japanese *at least to me* because of the make up and the hair. He looks like he should be holding a guitar and chillin with Sugizo *except his outfit, still too baggy to be a rocker* But this is one of them
Where the J-rock thing kicks in *click*
A mix of Sugizo and Haido *click*
Bweee there's more at the H.5.T I think Junie is looking so so pretty now a days. And my Ta is getting thick. But thas sorta good. The weight is fine, but...it's not distibuting correctly...which is like...um...his face is getting fuller. His once high cheek bones are becoming...none existant because of the weight. But it's okay ^^ I still lub him. *snuggles Ta*
Wah...Sunnie's on. Imma tell him about my own fast. Oh but before I go...
WAH 1 more chapter left!! *sob* I think I'm gonna start writing side fics for this thing. Plus I'll take requests. -.-v Also, I'm working on Blue even if it is just for 2 people and myself, and I'm more then half way done on my new g-fic *claps* Jjang!! Okay now to talk to Sunnie. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 4, 2002 .___*scream* SCHOOL!! *sob*___.
[Currently Listening to: Faith (Remix) by: J]
I'm so incrediably tired...I have no idea how I managed to get up this morning, let alone DRIVE to school. X.x *yawn* I'm listening to my J's Greatest Hits album. A lot of the songs on the Dance + Remix CD ARE remixes. But hey, no qualms with that.
Ugh sorry I didn't post up 36 Moons Jun called me at 11 totally screwing me up for finishing anything. I was in the beginning of my fic, and I had just finished blogging, with 3 IMs up one of them being Ghost, when she called. Since I hardly get to talk to her, I was like *sigh* let me get off online. I saved everything told everyone bye and bizounced. So..that's that. She told me about Jose and how she gets to touch him >.< *is envious* but it's not even like that because she don't like him, she thinks he's goofy. I think he's sexy. LOL HE think's he's goofy yet I still think he's sexy. When she was hanging with him, she was like here say hi cuz she called me on her cell and she put Jose on XD *giggle* I got happy to hear his voice. He thinks I'm cute!! *beams* ^___^ but I have to make the 1st move cuz uh...duh, I like him. And he says something could happen XD considering the fact that I have to understand a couple things.
1. He doesn't drive. Him an his brothers fucked with something they shouldnt have and it permmataly ruined his chances of ever getting a lisence. Which brings me to my next reason of understanding..
2. He's a total compy genius. Yes ladies and the few gentlemen reading this, he's a compy genius and a hacker XD he's a smart smart smart man. *beams* but...
3. He's always busy. His job requires him to travel (he's going to Vegas this week) and he's only free during the weekends. =( I must understand that he's busy....not always time for me.
The empress is not pleased with that last term of Jose. -.- I like attention. *is an affection junkie* for someone not to be there when I need them is kinda like....now. >.> might as well remain alone. -.-v but I guess if I like the guy I'm willing to compromise a little here. Okay so it's not like I go out during the week anyway. And if I do, I'm chillen with Jun or...I just go with my mom somewhere OR I'm at Emanuel's house. SO...whatever no big deal. So...yeah. I have to IM him sometime soon...maybe get a convo going because he's...like not all over enthuastic (wow butchered that) about it, but he's interested. *claps* I got a boy interested in me!! LOL
Ah, he's Flipinio (wow butchered that) but he's SOOOO not that typical stereotype of a flip, I.E doesn't rock designer, doesn't drive an Accura or a Civic, and his hair is black. He's also not cliquey but he smokes, which is okay because I can live with that. UGH I quit smoking for this month and it turns out that I may be addicted. I keep wanting a cigarette but not in that "Imma die if I don't get one now" kinda way. Just kinda like longingly lookin at my bag wishing I had at least one. Anyway back to Jose...he's so cute. I wish I had a pic of him. I think Jun does...let's see if I can get her to scan it. ^.^
I'm so tired....*yawn* ohh Auwon ur so sweet ^.^ thanks for the offer...though...it kinda defeats the purpose if your ghosting all the time! LOL oh man it's cold as hell outside today. >.< I thought the source of my coldness where my hands so I wore my gloves...and it helped...sorta except that I'm wearing my J-rocker jeans with the open sides (not the ones all the way down just the ones the open a little) which I shouldn't have wore because that's where all the cold air is coming in. LOL plus they split open when I sit making me even colder. >.< I'm so dumb.
I have to call my boy Paulo later....yeah....I promised I would. OMG I have like the worse memory when it comes to calling people...I'm surprised I remembered in the state I'm in now. Oh...I talked to Sunnie. He's good. He was like listening to my J CD in the background and he's like I don't like her. I'm like EW WHY NOT? And he's like she's like too romantic. *this coming from someone who planned Valentine's Day around red roses and making wifey cry and who's pressuring me to find the lyrics to Shallow Sleep* and I'm like....well I love her. She's great. I love her songs and her voice. And he's like...yeah thas all you. I'm like...-.- go to hell Sunnie. LOL and he laughed. Ah he's a big dork. He also got a call from Korea. Hye Sung, my now beloved ex, is being such a sweetie. He said hi to me which I was like aww. Well he said more then hi, but leave us not get into that personal message. He called to let Sunnie know about KP. How KP is gradually doing better. He dropped a LOT of weight before becoming disgustingly skinny (like Sunnie who is 5'10 almost 6 feet tall and only weighs 135 pounds. He weighs less then Mikey! X.@) anyway, KP dropped a lot of weight but he's slowly gaining it all back and also, he's gonna go out soon. KP hasn't left his house since his Halmunni passed away which was in late December, so he's gonna go out soon, it's a step to gradually getting better.
OKAY so lets talk about disgustingly skinny Sunnie who weighs 135 pounds which at his height and age is nasty. I told him this to face, that it was nasty and he kinda shrugged me off. He doesn't eat which is his problem. And it's not that he's straving himself, it's that he's LAZY. Usually Mikey or Woo bring him food. BUT Mikey's at school and Woo's got a job, so Sunnie is usually alone sleeping or watching TV until Woo gets out of work. Woo usually goes over there to get him up and take him out somewhere, or just to bring him food. BUT if the phone is not close by Sunnie's head, he will not get up to call him if Woo doesn't come over. Mikey doesn't get home until later and by then he's got homework to do and can't always cook, plus Sunnie LIES and tells him he ate when he didn't just so he won't worry him. -.-;;; sweet but so not cool. So, recently Sunnie who already IS SKINNY as sin, who use to weigh 140, 145 somewhere around there, has dropped to 135. It doesn't look good either. When I poked his side, it was like poking air. I just felt skin. I was like OMG X.x I didn't even wanna see what his body looked like because his ribs prolly stick out now. Sunnie, sweetie, being a stick is not sexy. You need some meat on you boy! OMG it's really bad...I mean I wish I had a flat tummy but...hey I eat. THOUGH OTHERS SAY I DON'T which I do. =P so there. How you like that!? Which is why I have flub now...>.< okay thas it no more eating. Me and Sunnie are fasting now. LOL Ah...we're pulling a Toki here. No seriously, after I finish my pudding at home, no more eating. I can't keep gaining weight like I have....it's gettin gross. Having meat yeah! but not FAT....ugh the rolls are gettin fuller and now is not the time of year to be soft. =P Anyway, imma go do something else while I wait for my English class to start. I rambled long enough. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 4, 2002 .___And here I am___.
[Currently Listening to: Way of Difference by: Glay]
A survey first. Stole from Aeris's blog (who I lub very much right now)
1. What is your full name? Thas none of ur concern
I'm lonely again ;.; no one is on and actually Aoki-chu and Ghost are on, but they're prolly busy...no one else is on, so this is me, being alone and pitiful. ;.; Today I did jack shit. I got a call from my friend Kelly, and Jun. Jun was hanging out with Jose XD and she put him on the phone for me and when she got back on I was like you made my day LOL and she called me corny. I said I wasn't Sunnie. She also bought a Gir dolly!! *is jealous* I want a Gir ;.; *sniffies* anyway, I decided that I wanna kill my stereo. It's being a piece of shit. =P
On the upside I got to watch Invader Zim this afternoon. After spending countless boring hours, I got my contacts in, and decided to watch my Vampire Hunter D DVD. Which I throughly enjoyed. ^.^b I love that movie. Right...so anyway...after that, I watched a little TV, then I had dinner and sat here where I am once again ALL ALONE online. -.- I hate being alone.
OH but then I was (sorta) cheered up. I went to the H.5.T where I found recent Ta pics (link is on the side)
My baby in gray *click*
Ta in black and white *click*
Another black and white pic *click
He looks so much more grown up. His face also looks a little fuller, like he gained weight >.< my baby is getting...thick. Sawl good though he's still sexy *snuggles Ta*
Oh, and the reasons I love Aeris right now is because she sent me Haido caps from this show he was on. *bounce* he looks so so cute and smooshie ^^ I didn't upload them because they're kinda big so I jus got them from Mifyuu's blog *click* her's are different from the ones I got but the same show ^^
And the cutest one:
This is One of the ones I got *click* I'll upload the others laters. Anyway I keep thinking about FFX because has anyone else besides me noticed that Tidus (the main guy from FFX) looks like Tetsu from L'arc? Seriously...here's a example:
Uh huh...yeah...look at that. That's creepy. >.< Tetsu is in a video game!! LOL okay well Imma add a new clique on this and post up a new chap of 36 Moons so...yeah..laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 3, 2002 .___Alone___.
[Currently Listening to: Regret by: Aucifer]
Aucifer's got a new single out. I d/led it from Shiroi Heya (link on the left) also I got Glay's Way of Difference and I already have Shallow Sleep and I dunno who Fake is...so...yeah...
I spent almost all my online time all alone. I talked to Helayne for maybe....10-20 minutes. She showed me a site where I could get Toshiya gloves for like 25$ but my poor ass can't afford 25$ gloves right now, so I look at them longingly. These are it:
I'm so lonely...I was lonely all night...*sigh* I hate being alone...
Oh, Auwon, yeah..okay I'll read Joy Luck Club. Thanks for the urge. I need something to read anyway.
Okay...my lonely self is going to bed. I have nothing to do anyway...no one to talk to...later.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 3, 2002 .___More Tests Stolen from Aeris and Auwon___.
[Currently Listening to: Domestic Violence by: Pierrot]
You're Aya.
I totally killed the html for a lot of this LOL ^^b I'm SUGIZO WOOO *claps* U damn right. I recently bought a pair of jeans that lace on the side an only go down from my hip maybe...like...3-5 inches at the most showing a little skin. I loved these jeans. They are skin tight and fit me so damn tightly I can barely breathe when I sit. But....I just topped that. I bought ANOTHER pair of jeans that do the same thing, but only this time...they lace down from my hip, down to my ankle XD and they show MORE skin as I walk, sit, stand whatever. Mwhahaha I haven't worn them yet, I kinda wanna wear them when I go to the mall or go play pool or something...a little attention getting for me. MWhahah OH and the shirt I bought with it, as I tried it on, made me start playing Gravity in my head. Mwhaha it's a tan/cream whatever you wanna call it lace button down shirt. Of course, I have to wear a shirt underneath, but if it was Sugizo, he'd so wear it...just like that. And open too. Mwhahaha~ It's just so me....
Anyway....yeah I didn't do anything all day. Actually I did laundry early this morning, my mom wakin me up at 5 AM so I can go with her. *ahh the luxery of living in an apartment -.-* Anyway, so I go and I'm falling asleep cuz I'm tired as hell, and after sitting there for like an hour my mom is like go buy a magazine. So I'm like fine. So I go, then I start reading it and every couple of pages my mom taps my shoulder and tells me to help her. I'm like WTF then WHY did you tell me to go get a magazine when I wans't doing JACK SHIT BEFORE? So I got pissed and she got mad at me for getting mad -.- ugh...I hate what others do to my life.
So then I went back home, and went to bed from 9 till like 2. I woke up had 2 slices of pizza then watched TV, turned it off, listened to J, turned it back on and I realized something is wrong with my stereo...-.- UGH it's being all stupid so I'm gonna have to kill it. That pisses me off. Anyway, during dinner my mom lets me know accidently that I have a blood test this coming weekend. And I'm bitching and moaning becauyse I HATE BLOOD TESTS. So I told her then you're buying me something and breakfast. Because not only is my weekend gonna be shot to hell AGAIN from lack of sleep, but I'm gonna get stabbed and robbed of my own fucking blood so I'll freeze to death even further. So I decided what I'm gonan get out of my mom as a bribe. My Steve Madden Tetsu Boots ^_^b mwhahahaha
Okay...must write....I'm bored. And Gab isn't talking because her friend is over...and this is me...being alone. *clicks away message on* everyone, leave me alone. Later.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Saturday, March 2, 2002 .___Woooooork___.
[Currently Listening to: Haken Kruez by: Pierrot]
Ugh....I spent almost 3 hours or so drawing up the new layout for the Yakuza blog. X.x now my back hurts from slouching over for so long...and...yeah. -.- *yawn*
I forgot to post that last time I blogged. *yawn* well okay today, after I picked up my mom from work, we went to Friendly's for dinner. ^^ jjang. No brownie sundae this time. I felt full =p Then I came home and started work on the new H.O.T fic which is still currently under work, and then Aoki-chu called me. We talked about her Sean Biggerstaff with his oblong head and how he's cute to her yet sexy Apolo Anton Ohno isn't that hot to her, because he's quote: "Scruffy looking". -.-b Yet Oblong headed Sean Biggerstaff (what a name) is a hottie....weeeeell okay...she's on her own there. And even though Apolo Anton Ohno isn't her cup of tea......good. More for me XD Mwhahahah
I lub my Ta *snuggles Ta*
Anyway, then we got Gab into the convo. Gab sided with me on this one about Sean Oblong headed-staff and we laughed. LOL Aoki-chu called me horrible and said I was mean. XD which I am. LOL It's why I'm Toki damnit. Okay...so then...yeah....we laughed. Then we got online, I finished my latest chap and I did the layout drawing which looks like this:
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/TokixJia2_36Moons.jpg
It was Gab's idea for a couple, Aoki-chu's idea for them to be the couple...I'm just the artist taking requests. OH OKAY...let me tell everyone how I'm having my own pedophiladic tendancies. Every morning when I drive my mom to work, on our way, theres a street, like...of houses. And I noticed everyday a bunch of little high schoolers standing there, waiting for the bus. It wasn't until recently that I noticed a certain cutie walking there every morning that I started paying attention to the high schoolers. XD OMG there's this cuuuuuuute little Asian boy that catches my attention. I jus wanna pull over one morning and b like hey baby wanna ride? XD Mwhaha such a cutie. OH and theres a hot pharmacist at the drug store my mom gets her Rx filled. I'm like O.O WOOOO *drool* LOL yeah. I've been meaning to blog about them 2 for a while now. Tee hee
Riiite....so...okay yeah....I have no plans this weekend. -.- I hate having no plans. Jun went snow boarding with SEXY JOSE XD and...yeah...I hope she talks to him geez. It's like sitting on needles over here.
Annnd yeeeeeah the Yakuza are...sorta blogging again. ^.^b check out the link on the side. Mwhahaha Also Aya added in her little "porno" pics LOL they're not porno, you can jus see the top of Aya's almost non-exisitant pubes as his buldge shows from the fact that he's sitting on the floor with his legs open...>.> but he's fully dressed! LOL
*so thirsty* My 2nd snapple in like 1/2 hour...geez Im thirsty as hell....okay gonna go fuck off now...bug Gab to do something...LOL laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 1, 2002 .___*yawn* Stuff....___.
[Currently Listening to: Money (Part II) by: Eun Ji Won]
Woooooo I got Matthews new CD called Eun Ji Won Volume 2. ^.^v I also got J's Continue which is a 3 CD compulation 1 CD with her ballads, 1 CD with her dance tracks and the final CD with her perfomances. Weeeee I'm hyped. I got new stuff to listen to in my car mwhahahaha ^.^ Go Matthew, Go Matthew...damn he's hot XD
More tests. Mwhahahha good times. Stole them from Aeris blog. ^^b stealing is fun. LOL OH and speaking of stealing...
Isn't that the cuuuuutest thing? I got that from the H.5.T *pinchy Junie* so cute ^^ ehehehhe (link on the side)
*drinks raspberry snapple* DAMN I'm cold. >.< I was suppost to draw up a new layout for the Yakuza blog *click* but I couldn't thinkof anything cool >.< I'm thinking about doing a theme. Something like Sex Version 2.0 because really...if you think about it, what goes on behind the scenes in the 36 Moons, what is Toki famous for, and what is Aya, Tsu, Aoki, and just about evvvveeeeeeeeryone else in the Yakuza oozing with? Yeah...>.> my point exactly. So...Imma ponder on that for a hot minute.
Damn even my feet are cold...>.< and I'm fully dressed and in socks. I'm watching Joy Luck Club. I love this movie. It makes me wanna read the book. It's so sad. Well all righty....time to go...do something else. Oh wait....I had class 2day, but I just went to pick up my test that I got a 50 ON...thanks Sunnie -.-v so then I went to play video games with this 2 guys I know from school. Then I came home early and jjang my CDs where here. Bweeee~
Okay now time to go write....and get a fuckin sweater X.x laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 1, 2002 .___No School ^_^___.
[Currently Listening to Shallow Sleep by: Hyde]
I got the test from this blog *click* ^^ She's linked on the side of my blog. I loved her layouts hehehe ^^ shes nice ^_^b
So I joined a new clique today...^.^ jjang. I also realized why the Inner Shinya quiz didn't work =p I copy and pasted the html wrong -.-v and I can't fix it yet but I will soon.
Part 132- Breaking Point: To Cut a Deal
It's alllllmooooost dooone. =p Man anyway....what was I gonna say? OH YEAH I had no class today mwhahaha. It was good times. I slept till 12:30 today and then I chilled all day ^^ Last night was even better because I talked to Jun, I missed her lots. We caught each other up on stuff, and then we were watching Late Night with Connen O'Brian because APOLO ANTON OHNO WAS ON!!!! *bounce bounce bounce* OMG looking SO FUCKING SEXY sorry Aoki-chu I think Apolo Anton Ohno is a sexy sexy bitch. Gab doesn't think so, so you're on ur not on ur own. But me an Jun think Apolo Anton Ohno is HOT he's got the cuuutest smile ^___^ it's like perfectly straight teeth, nice lips, and he's got nice hands eeeeeeee! and he can dress himself soo nice. AND as Jun said he's got Pantene Hair XD its all pretty and soft looking....u jus wanna loose a hand in there. WAH *snuggles Apolo Anton Ohno* sexy bitch you. And I saw his drug free commerical again. Mwhahahaha *claps* sexy
Anyway...yeah...I was gonna say something else...oh yeah...I'm still writing. *sigh* hasselness of being pressured to move my ass. I only have 2 parts done so far not including the Prolouge. wah....*still has 8 parts left* okay I finished my Club crackers....=p they made my mouth all dry. I wish I had pudding...but SUNNIE ATE IT....;.; Okay I'm off to write. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, February 28, 2002 .___Sunnie Day___.
[Currently Listening to: Shallow Sleep -English Ensemble by: Hyde]
Okay so the English version of this is better....^^;;; okay 1st things first. I took a bunch of tests Hehehehe I love these things. They're addictive =p
What's Your Inner Shinya?" quiz by
Annnnnnd....
I'm all done posting hehehe. Okay...so I had Math class 2day. Before I went I got dressed and then went to the train station and picked Sunnie up. He was sleepy and he kept yawning and he was being BAD!!! LOL he was smoking. But I quit smoking for this month or until I get another pack of cigarettes whatever comes first. LOL But Anyway Sunnie hasn't been smoking since he's around Mikey...buuuuut Mikey wasn't here today he was in class, so then we went to my campus. We went in and he bought me coffee bweeee and then we went to my class. I had a math test today so I was like Sunnie, stand outside, I'll be done in 20 minutes. So I give him my CDs and my CD player and then I take my test. As I do, it's all quite then SUDDENLY a shout comes from outside. I finish my test as fast as I could and run out to see Sunnie had cracked on this girl's weave saying it was obviously fake TO HER FACE because Sunnie's blunt like that. So I was like Oi -.-;;; and the guy she was with, started goin off on Sunnie so before a fight broke out, I grabbed Sunnie and dragged him out the side door.
Anyway OMG before I left this morning, I discovered that NOW more then ever I more motivated then ever to not do drugs. ^___^ why? EASY Apolo Anton Ohno made a drug free commerical XD Weeeeeeee his anti-drug is determination. Mwhahahah sexy bitch you....*snuggles Apolo Anton Ohno* when I saw that I was like WAAAAAH HE MADE A DRUG FREE COMMERCIAL!!! *big smiles* he's so hot. LOL Okay I better go entertain Sunnie before he eats something he shouldn't. I have to take him to the train station soon anyway. Laters~
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, February 27, 2002 .___Ugh too many chips =p___.
[Currently Listening to: Sepia by: Pierrot]
I 4got to mention I added a couple of new links to the side of the page ^^ and 2 new blogs. YAY I finally got Aeris's blog up. Heehehe I kept forgetting to oh and Shiori Heya which is a J-rock blog. Faboo. Ooo but before I talk about that...
Dude I'm my favorite villain of ALL TIME XD *throws confetti* LOL okay back to this Jrock pitas. I finally decided to link because of this quote:
Oooooooooooo I must share my joy and rapture, 2 things!!
Ooo I ordered J's Greatest Hits and also Eun Ji Won's Volume 2. I don't even have his 1st 2 albums but I wasn't gonna miss out on this one. ^_^ So I ordered those 2. I'm all hyped. Hehehe I've been wanting J's Greatest Hits since Jun bought it that day we went to NY. Man I want Pierrot's new album and Haido's...and Aucifer's....and like...thas it. I think I cut my list down a lot since the last time I wanted CD's. Thankies to my dongsangs ^_^ Eeeeee I just realized I'll be 20 in almost 2 months X.x aiya...I'm gettin old. LOL Okay off to write. I wanna finish this chapter of Blue before I work on my new fic. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, February 26, 2002 .___Blood___.
[Currently Listening to: Change (In the House of Flies) by: Lestat
I got the Queen of the Damned Soundtrack and the reason I keep saying Lestat did the songs (even though he didn't duh) is because these were suppost to be his songs...you know cuz in the book he's suppost to be a rock star and all that stuff....so...I say they're his songs. ^_^ I like a lot of these other songs already. It's faboo. ^.^
So my topic of today, is mostly because I have blood on my mind. I kept listening to Nas this morning and this one song he does called I think All I Need is One I think I wouldn't know, anyway there's a part where he goes "pure, like a cup of virgin blood" and I just think that's like...that hottest line XD that I'm listening to the Queen soundtrack and in the song System he goes "You're blood and mine" and it goes on but I can't remember the rest that line just keeps sticking. Eeee Slept so Long is on. ^.^ *claps*
I see hell in your eyes...
Taken in by surprise...
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside.
Waaahhh...so morbid. Ooo Anyway, I was gonna post like a million pictures today because I got them all yesterday XD most are of Yukkie *glomps Yukkie's leg* but they're random too. But let me post this 1st...
6 more chapters left people. ^^v Anyway yesterday I found out that Pierrot AND Aucifer are coming out with new albums X.x *wants them both* and Haido's solo album tooo. So I followed a link and all I managed to get 2 new pics of Aucifer~ ^^
Makoto
Yuki from Aucifer
Toshiya without a lot of make up
A flesh and blood Tsubasa
http://www.geocities.com/kasou_hole/yukihiro/pati000801.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/kasou_hole/yukihiro/pati000803.jpg
Okay after my rambling ehehhee, I had no classes today. I went to Emanuel's house after I dropped off my mom, and I went to sleep. He was being annoying at first just getting all on my nerves, pulling up his blinds and letting the sun all in my eye, and playing with my hand when I was sleeping and then being a big dork and staring at me as I tried to sleep -.-;;; then it got all hot and I was kicking the comforter off me and I was like whinning I'm hot cuz I was wearing sweats. So he goes and opens the window and opens his bedroom door and turns off the heater. So we slept for a while. Then I got the idea to get the soundtrack so we went at 10:30 after we slept some more, but he fell asleep for real and he was all grumpy when he woke up. LOL I can only sleep for minutes at a time at his house because of my contacts so I kept waking up =p. LOL So then I woke him and dragged him out and went to buy the CD. Then we came back to his house and started watching this documentry of the Smashing Pumpkins MVs.
I happen to love Smashing Pumpkins. They and No Doubt are me 2 fav American bands, only Smashing Pumpkins broke up *sob* plus the guitarist is HOT James Iha EEEE!! So anyway, we were watching the videos and I was drooling over James, doing my best to not squeel. LOL I'm such a girl sometimes. =P but James Iha is DOPE. Plus he looks so pretty when he wears dark eye make up or when he has a suite on XD Waaah so sexy. He makes a beautiful blonde. *bounce* But anyway, we watched videos, then I went to pick up my mom and now I'm getting an ATM card *wee cash* and then I had to go drop off dry cleaning and pick some up. Wah!
I got an idea for my fiiiiiiiic *claps* I'll have to do it when I get back from picking up my mom cuz for now Imma work on Blue *hiccup* 'scuse me. Heheh okay. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, February 26, 2002 .___No Title___.
[Currently Listening to: Blue Eyes Baby by: Pierrot]
Still d/ling major stuff from Pierrot. I like the 1 song I have so far, which is Last Letter. Oooo Aoki-chu called me *bounce bounce* We talked for a while before I had to go pick up my mom. I felt so happy to talk to her. LOL I thought I was rambling but she was entertained. Hehehe ^.^ Jjang ^^
Oooo Akio, if you're still looking for But I'm a Cheerleader on DVD I found it for you. A friend of mine works at Sam Goody and I had it seperated for ya if you still want it kay? Just let me know~ I forgot to mention that before ^^;;;
BLAH Aoki-chu I also forgot to tell you I sent you part of your gift already. You have 3 parts, I'm sending the 2nd part sometime this week. Gab I'm sorry that it's all late >.< but I'm still in process of *sigh* I know I'm all late. Blaaaah...
Yes that title says Emanuel. Mwhahahah XD Emanuel read that hunnie ^.^
I'm on this major hunt for pics of sexy sexy Apolo Anton Ohno....but I just keep finding all these pics of him in that stupid outfit with the dorky yellow helmet X.x blah. That speed skater suite is mad distracting. XD annnd I found more pics of my own ningyo Takeo the drummer from Pierrot XD Oh well..for now this is the closest I can get to Mr. Apolo Anton Ohno not in that speed skater suite
Apolo Anton Ohno in a wheelchair
Apolo Anton Ohno celebrating
I wish I could find more pics. But =P those were hard enough as is. Any other pic I find, he's skating =p damnit he needs to not...be skating. He's dope as hell XD he should model after the Olympics are over XD good times ^.^b
Annnd now, my own ningyo Takeo *claps*
Takeo in black and white
Takeo as a real ningyo
Anyway....back to writing....Ooooo yeah, the girl I took the screen caps from (http://kasou.pitas.com/) her layout changed. I emailed her and asked her if I could link her...*layout is the dopeness* Hope she doesn't think I'm some weirdo.
OH OH And for Aoki-chu: Minu coping a feel off Jin's ass. *guess he missed that blow drier LOL *click* LOL laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, February 25, 2002 .___Some of the Better Things___.
[Currently Listening to: Dejavu by: Luna Sea]
I'm at school this morning....back to the grind >.< *yawn* and back to not getting enough sleep. T.T Anyway...yeah I always listen to Luna Sea first thing in the morning as I have a cigarette *because YES I STILL HAVE SOME -.-v* and walk to the compy lab from my car. I did my English homework because in college, beingabsent is no excuse for not having your shit done -.-b So I got my syllabus and did my shit in my car then came here, typed it up and printed it out. So now...I'm done ^^
Okay one of the things I love the most, is seeing little messages in other people's blogs for me ^.^ I.E Aoki-chu's blog *click* because I MISS AND LOVE YOUUUUU AOKI-CHU I'm dying for the phone call *bounce bounce* I miss mah Aoki-chu. Plus since I've been posting up 36 Moons again AND the 4 recent pics I did, I wanna know Aoki's reaction T.T *snuggles Aoki-chu* so yeah...call me when u can woman I'm sorry I can't do the same....me and my stupid phone bill *sob* I miss my cell phone!!
Blah Auwon, I knwo what you mean that Koreans are all pissed off about th Olymipics....I talked to Sunnie who has to be one of the most...not giving a damn Koreans I have ever met, considering he comes from a crew that LOVES their country so much that they went BACK to it....but not Sunnie. When Sunnie went to live in Korea, he called a 4 month stay then went back to Queens ^^;;; so much for Korean Pride huh? Well anyway, I talked to him last night and he was like...err Korea should have won, blah blah blah. The pride rant lasted for about 5 seconds until I said
"But isn't Apolo Anton Ohno hot?"
*pause for like 2 seconds...*
Sunnie: "Yeah...dude is fuckin bangin...I'd tap that."
^^;;;; so yeah...Sunnie was mad for like 5 seconds until I mentioned SEXY ASS Apolo Anton Ohno. Mwhahah I told BC I had a crush on him and she's like duh, he's hot. LOL Gab doesn't think he's hot. Thas cuz her loser friend killed him for her...>.> *hates that* But yeah I have yet to find a good pic of sexy Mr. Apolo Anton Ohno. *wishes she could* AH SUNNIE he's NOT as sexy as yooooooooou LOL *though Sugizo is* LOL~
What else was I gonna say....*thinks for a second* OH YEAH, last night I went to go watch Queer as Folk and it turns out they showed some REPEAT I was like O.O NOOOOO *falls to the ground kicking and screaming* so I watched the session finale to OZ instead, which was hella sad btw. Everything is ending man...=p I hate that. But I was also mad I left online early to go watch this when I could have been talking to Gab instead. She felt lonely =( and I left anyway...cuz I'm stupid like that. *had a Toki moment* but before I left, we talked about me getting published. I was like dude I wish. I really would LOVE to get published. The only recent amount of work I have done is 36 Moons but that has MAJOR overhaul to do before I even think of seeking out ways to get published. I need major grammer checks, because spelling isn't the problem *has spell check* but my grammer bites...but imagine if I do? Emanuel's dad works at a publishing company so Imma beg him to see if he can do anything about that...*prays* I think that would be so kick ass if my book was published. And to think, it started out as a little 36 chapter OC fic. ^.^ *is now at 136* But I'm hopeful. It never hurts to be hopeful.
My hair is out and in the way....-.-;;; the other day I saw this guy who I think likes me and he was like hugging me all the freakin time...not that I mind because he smelled good and I'm an affectionate person, but then he goes I have a riduclause *wow butchered that* amount of hair. I'm like...>.> you act like it's down to the floor or something. But it's down to my waist so...it's long. He said I should cut it and I would look good with it short. Um...no. If I did cut it, it would only serve me to 1. Get killed by Emanuel 2. Me, crying and crying and crying 3. now have short hair I could do nothing with. Plus I'd go crazy with the hair dye and definatly do some Hee Jun-esqe things...so I rather keep my long annoying locks. ^_^
It's nice outside today....*sigh* I wish I was home sleeping -.- I'm tired....need stimualate...*yawn* but I don't wanna walk to the studen center for coffee now...plus I don't wanna break any 5's or 10's I have in my wallet.
OH I almost forgot, I saw the Return of Peter Pan and Atlantis the other day. I didn't like Atlantis. It was so not in the Disney style...it was like...an animated movie. Not fun =P Disney needs some more fairy tales or something. Maybe rip off Shakespere again...*wow butchered that* OH and I was listening to my favorite radio show this morning and I was listening to how Aaliyah the Queen was doing SO WELL because of Queen of the Damned and even though that movie SUCKED so MUCH, she did her thing. Which she did ^^ *claps for the Queen* I set up my shrine to her over Kim Hwang Sung in my room a little "in memory of" kinda thing I have for them and my mom was like why u doing that? I'm like cuz I happen to like her and it's sad she died, just like it's sad he died. And my mom shakes her head at me and goes and makes fun of me with my dad...-.- Last time my dad saw me putting up my Kim Hwang Sung shrine up and he proceeded to make fun of HIM saying he died of AIDS and shit. I'm like....dad thats not even funny...get out of my room. And I shut the door behind him all loud and shit because UGH he bothers me. He's SO FUCKING IGNORANT. And the fact that I put up a shrine to Aaliyah the Queen, my mom starts popping ying yang....ugh -.- parents...
Okay I rambled long enough and I didn't even have class yet. =P Go me ^^;;; well anyway...Imma be out. Kara, Ghost, Gab, Aoki-chu, Sunnie, Emanuel, Akio....I love yoooooou guys ^.^ *snuggles all* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, February 25, 2002 .___Skin Deep___.
[Currently Listening to: Last Letter by: Pierrot]
Yeah I went out and d/led a song by Pierrot last night since I went ona major search to look for more pics of the ningyo Takeo who is the drummer btw AND he's 30 -.-v typical J-rocker. LOL Anyway, he's still a cutie though ^^ seee...
http://www.geocities.com/pleitsutakeo/phototakeo5.jpg
Copy and paste. He's pretty ^.^ I'm glad I took that test to find out who he was ^^ bweeee....anyway, I'm discussing the over all crappyness of Queen with Gab. She's like venting to me to let me know how bad it is (well duh) and I'm like ew...yeah bad movie. But the soundtrack kicks ass and Stuart Townstead was a good Lestat *though he didn't look a damn thing like him* buuut he has a nice bod XD
http://www.geocities.com/stufan99/newqueen12.jpg
Mwhahahah ^____^ Good times.
Okay...so anyway....yeah I didn't do jack shit today, I'm just blogging because I have to post up 36 Moons
I miss Aoki-chuuuuu.....
OH I spent most of today being vain and narrasistic today. I took a shower with Dove and made my skin all soft, washed my hair, had my ends cut, cleaned my face with all this different crap which made it all soft and smooth and my skin is all soft now and I smell good ^^ I jus pampared myself allll day. I also slept all day. ^^ but blah I'm dreading tomorrow...back to class. I can't wait till spring break =p. OH I also decided to kill what I had of my new fic...I decided that I hate it and it was just getting worse as I went along so I'm like ew...I can't finish this. =p
So, as I'm posting up 36 Moons I'm gonna write up Blue and thinking about a new fic. I'm just sorry I'm making everyone wait further =p *sigh* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, February 24, 2002 .___New Reason 2 watch the Olympics XD___.
[Currently Listening to: Redeemer by: Lestat]
Wow did I totally spell that wrong or just half way...O.o well anyway....yeah my title in hand, XD WAH in the Olympics speed skating part, there is a guy named Apolo Anton Ohno *drool* he's 19 years old and his birthday is a DAY after mine *^^* He's sooo hot. Anyone got a pic of him PLEASE share....*is dying to find a decent looking pic of him not in that tight, distracting speed skater suite XD* MWHAHAH Apolo Anton Ohno...I LOVE his name. Its like I can't just say "Oh the speed skater Apolo..." it's gotta be Apolo Anton Ohno...MWhahaha it rolls off the tongue so easy ^_____^
Okay ANYWAY....yeah...I took more random tests because Maki told me where they were ^^b
You are Duo
Maxwell. You strive on kicking serious ass, anytime, anywhere. However, you
aren't always out to kill, even though you consider yourself "God of Death
(Shinigami)". You have a kind, warm heart and an open personality, you are
always willing to lend a hand to a friend in need and try something new.
I'm Duuuuooooooooo How did that happen? O.o;; I guess maybe cuz I like Duo. ^.^b
And I'm Kaoru...
And I'm still Kaoru....
I dunno who he is but he's a doll. AH The doll I do like from Pierrot is Kirito...XD ningyo...*sigh* But this guy is a doll too. Look at that faaace....XD
And also because Gab said "You must write or I'll hurt you" when talking about Blue I decided that I will continue writing it. BUT, first off, I have to finish up 36 Moons
So sorry for the geocities ad thing....I'll get Maki to do this for me next time. I SUCK at html. -.-v Riiiite so anyway....yeah I was speakin to Gab at the time and she started sending me links to different blogs to check out layouts and I happened to like this one: http://kasou.pitas.com/ which is also where I got the Hyde Shallow Sleep caps from.
Right...so I don't really like Shallow Sleep as I said it reminds me of Bravery and not that I don't like Bravery I just...wasn't too fond of Shallow Sleep or maybe I need to listen to the whole thing rather then a clip. I don't get too keen off listening to people talk...just Ta. I LOVE listening to Ta talk OH and Gackt...his voice is just...WAH XD Gackt has the bizangin bedroom voice XD woooooooo not that I wanna be with him >.< but I would love to hear him talk for hours ^___^ And Ta jus cuz he's Ta...everything about him is sexy. ^.^
Ooo Auwon, you saw that little clip where Toshiya was being a dork at the arcade with DEG. LOL It was funny as hell. Toshiya has such a dorky laugh. Such a ningyo but he's got the worse laugh. It's so dorky. LOL Ooo yeah...I still love Queen of the Damned soundtrack....Im glad at least 3 good things came out of the movie. I also decided to set up a shrine to Aaliyah the Queen as I have for Kim Hwang Sung from NRG for their passing. I have a nice little wall space set up for Kim Hwang Sung and I'll make a space for the Queen. *yawn*
Okay Imma go write. I gotta finish my new G-fic before I start working on Blue ^.^ laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Saturday, February 23, 2002 .___Queen of the Damned___.
[Currently Listening to: Slept so Long by: Lestat]
Okay so...riiight....1st thing first. My family went away *throws confetti in the air* so I can blog again. Mwhahaha. All right...so I went to see Queen of the Damned which premired today *Feb 22 2002* and okay...over all, the movie SUCKED a whole lot of ass. But I already knew that before I even saw the movie. BUT *there is an upside* Lestat (played by Stuart Townstead) was actually *gasp* good. OMG he played Lestat with all the charm, the charisma, the EGO Lestat is known for *claps* He did a brillant job as Lestat (though he looked not a damn thing like him) And Aaliyah the Queen was PERFECT as Akasha the Queen. She made me hate her. Mwhahahahah~ She moved like snake, she had the whole royal heir to her and she was just BRILLANT I looooved her as the Queen. And then the rest of the movie went to hell. -.-v
But Lestat was good his whole personality was good, just how he moved, his body was bangin XD and he was just...*purr* so we give Stuart Townstead his ups where they due. I was wrong about him, but I was right about the movie being a piece of a shit. -.-b The music was KICK ASS though. WHat's suppost to be Lestat's music for his band, that was waaah...so I d/led a single song called Slept So Long because that just wooooooo it's good. ^^
So...yeah....basically, if you don't go see Queen, you're not missing much. But u have The Queen and Lestat's perfomances to look forward to. Interview is still my favorite movie.
Okay so...my family finally left. My 2 cousins where driving me MAD -.- they would not SHUT UP....OMG and I couldn't get on last night to do anything so I ended up drawing a lot last night.
Akio in handcuffs *copy and paste*
Aoki and Aya together *Aoki with his hand up Aya's shirt*
Tsubasa with blonde hair again
Jia's full body redone
Yeah...good times. ^^ Oooo Auwon I'm glad u liked Blue I didn't get much else of a reaction...hm...poopies. I'm not sure if I should continue. I guess....maybe I will. I have to finish my new fic *which would have been done before!! >.<* so I can start sending it out. Alllll righty...I think that's all I have to do for now...I have to post 36 Moons soon...waahh I broke out...>.< stupid cousins touching my face with their ewwy hands. TELL ME WHY everyone EVERYONE is noticing the damn pimple on the side of my jaw...-.- like I DON'T know it's there....GEEZ..... blah okay gonna go write. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, February 22, 2002 .___Introduction to Blue___.
[Currently Listening to: Nijii by: L'arc~en~ciel]
Oookay...this is my new OC (original Character) fic. So yeah don't think I went mental and started blogging about some random weird shit. Okay some warnings before I start
1. I'm doing this without a safty net I.E No spell check. SO BEWARE of typos, misspelt words, poor grammer and all that other jazz.
Okay that's it...let's see how this chap goes shall we? Remember an author's food is feed back. Don't deprive me *has been called anerorix* (wow butchered that!)
Blue
Part 1 - Paint it Blue
In oceans of times crossed and paths left unwalked, I sit ina modern day city, looking around at it's surroundings. The people walk by without a second glance, because I look like a everyday modern New Yorker. I should, with my 5th Avenue suite, my Prada full length coat and my Italian leather shoes that aren't really Italian...they say they are...but you can tell they're not. I bought them anyway. They look nice with my suite. I'm sitting in Central Park now, holding a cup of coffee that has gone cold with the hours. A rose is also held in my hand. And it's a beautiful rose.
I thrive off the bad in this city. Literally. I feed off those that dare to wrong this city. Not a great love for this city, but for life. I guess I should make a point somewhere along this. An introduction would serve well yes? Yes. My birth name, now long shed and forgotten is Marcus Du Pointe. French I know. I don't look French either. Again, things long and forgotten. The name I'm mostly called now is Halo. How to go from Marucs to Halo is a complex story. But so is how one goes from royality, to slavery, to being free, to being an aristrocrat to being a modern day man who sits on a fortune on Park Ave.
A long and complex story I assure you. But I will explain how in that Park Ave penthouse holds a pretty boy who slumbers as I speak. Yes, a boy. The French are known for their unique taste...I am of no exception. My beloved's name is Blue. Not his real name of course. But he's called Blue. Everyone called him Blue. I call him Blue...and that works fine. So how does a well bred, highly educated once royal aristrcrat go from Marcus to halo with a pretty Japanese boy named Blue?
I arrived in New York three years back. I had just gotten back from the Old World, my home, and I decided to try something new. The same old thing grows tiresome after so many years. So...I arrived. I contacted people to get me a home and my budget allowed me Park Ave, though anywhere would have been fine.
That's what I get for being rich. Ha ha ha
I need to get adjusted right away to this city. So for weeks, I walk, looking around, seeing things catch my eye. And I, always starving for something to hold my attention for longer then a few minutes, wander everywhere and anywhere I'm allowed to go. I end up in SoHo where I walk in and out of galleries, seeing art, or rather deformed canvases. It's new and interesting to me where once Impressionism was considered a "fad" that should not be allowed. Vivid colors or reds and oranges splashed about with metal objects twisted and turned, bent to the will of the artist. Even insects where used to create lavish pieces.
I stumble across something eventually done all in blue. In every shade and hue and tint known to man, everything is blue. My eye is drawn to the work, the passion and feeling behind it. There is a piece of linen hanging over one of them with small burnt holes through it. My mind is drawn to it right away as I see underneath is a dark blue, forming a figure out. The linen allows one to see what they want. I turn eventually to see the young artist standing beside me. I know he's the artist from the way he stands, the way his royal blue hair is done up in a small twist and how his eyes are smeared with make up and how his hands are still stained with blue and the paint has seeped into everyone of his fingernails. Overkill? I know...but there's a point.
Within time, Blue becomes a passion for me. I have the privalage of watching him work, watching him think, and simply being there for him when he turns to ask what I think. I watch him as he smears blue paint on his cheeks and wipes it clean on his flithy jeans covered in different stages of blue paint. He doesn't mind. And I see he is one of the few and rare undaunted by the idea of luxurey and fame of becoming an artist. He really does it, for the love of it. How cliche is that sounding so far?
Blue hands me a gift, one of the gallery painting is now mine. I hang it right away. It was then that i realized I wanted Blue in my life. And very slowly, I took him in my embrace and whispered sweet words to him, all the romance once drained from me coming back out ten times fold just for him, I sweep back his royal blue hair, seeing the seduction of his ear and neck, the small pale lobe pierced through with small fake silver hoops. His eyes become slits as he looks up at me...he is not even for a moment, scared. he's at peace, he's waiting. And I slowly deliver the first kiss of our lives.
No love yet. I feel no love for Blue at this point. It's too soon. But I do feel a need to protect him, to be there for him and to watch my mortal painter continue living and breathing. I have become infactuated with him. Just to watch him move, the way he smiles and how his eyes turn dark when he gets an idea and attacks his work before the idea escapes him. This is my Blue.
My own introduction comes later. But for now, I'll get up from this bench and go home. I toss the cup of cold coffee away as I carefully place the rose in the inner pocket of my coat as I start to walk. The sun is to rise soon. Blue will soon be up.
Okay that's it for now. Bweeeeee..........sorry about the typos....*can't spell for beans* Imma go home now. It's 10:20 X.x aiya....laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, February 21, 2002 .___How Bad am I?___.
[curently Listening to: Loveless by: Luna Sea]
Okay...how bad am I? I ran out of my house this morning. I couldn't take it...I have 6 people in my house right now, not including myself. My mom, dad, uncle, aunt an their 2 kids. -.- my cousins woke my ass up at 4 AM talk about, Lez, is it time to play Playstation? I'm like -.-zZzZz *still half asleep* I pick up my cell phone and look at the time an I'm like sweetie it's 4 in the morning go back to bed. They slept on a inflatable bed in my room last night, so it was hella weird having someone in my room. I'm use to the sound of my own piece of mind, not 3 peoples...so I was having a hard time sleeping. But when I did I was woke at 4 in the morning to play Playstation. Lucky for me they went back to sleep. I was again awaken to go get ready for the english class I am again skipping because I didn't do my paper >.<* and I'm in the bathroom brushing my teeth when my mom opens the door and shes like the kids need the bathroom. So I step out an all they want to me to do is change the Playstation game -.-;;; so I do that then rush back to get ready. Then I'm showering, I'm done and my mom walks in AGAIN (talk about having no privacy!!) So I cover my nakedness and I'm like O.O MOM!!! And she shuts the door and proceeds to brush her teeth and put her contacts in while I'm standing there in a towel. FINALLY she leaves because our bathroom is small there's not enough room for 2 people to move around in there. So I finish getting the under clothes on, put my contacts in, then throw my bathrobe on, kick my cousins out my room for a minute as I finish getting dressed then let them back in while I do my wet hair an put on my eye liner. Then I run to the kitchen, get a glass of milk, then pick up my bag an head out the door.
I'm glad to be out of there I'll tell you that much. So I'm in the compy lab right now...and there I see walking, guess who everyone? Yup....DAVID. And you know what Ghost you're right he's not that hot >.< what the hell was I on??? I thought he was all banging just for me to see him again and him not be....his ears stick out. LOL once I found that charming and adorable now it's like...your ears stick out. LOL He's not as cute as I thought he once was. He didn't see me, but...it was nice seeing him...well not as nice as it once was, but nice I guess...>.> *thinks about that for a moment*
I might go home within the hour because I really don't have anything to do...I might just start my OC fic here....not like I have anything better to do. OH I took a Fight Club test to see which charcter I would be like and I would be like Tyler Durden (wow I butchered that) Brad Pitt's charcter. Mwhahhahaa Good Times XD Good movie too. OMG I miss everyone...I hate sitting here with no one to talk to...I think that's why I ramble so much in school blogs rather then my home ones because I'm lonley.
I was gonna start my new OC fic yesterday but I didn't have time, but I managed to get past the 1/2 way point in my new fic and I just realized that it's really light...not totally angsty but not totally happy either...it's like...light. And I realied its like a longer vesion of Show Me and I'm not sure if that's good...well not exactly like Show Me but....similar...ugh I wanna scrap it already but at the same time I don't wanna keep everyone waiting either....>.> I may just go back and edit it some so it'll be....not so light. I hate light. OO CUTE GUY...errr never mind. Not that cute. I thought he was...LOL the benifits of having glass walls. LOL *ow* someone just pulled my hair walking behind me...>.<
Anyway I think I'll think about editing the new fic...and...um...yeah...all done rambling? yeah I think I'll start the OC fic here...see how everyone likes it. Laters
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, February 21, 2002 .___Vengence___.
[Currently Listening to: Ghost in my Room by L'arc~en~ciel]
Nooo I'm not in a foul mood. Opposite actually. Well...I'm sorta grossed out but not in a foul mood. You see, my uncle from upstate NY just came for a visit. My mom made me clean all afternoon once I got home from class. And I was okay with it. I did a massive cleaning job in my room, the living room and the dusting of all the crap my mom likes to collect. And I was okay with it. Then I did some last minute groccery shopping with my mom then I read my new Cosmo and then my uncle, my aunt and their 2 kids came. My 8 and 6 year old male cousins. -.-;;;; All the work I put making my living room and dining room went to hell because I fed them pizza and cookies (bad idea) they got crumbs and grease everywhere -.-;;;; ugh grossness....
Oh well anyway, I just spent like.....5 minutes cleaning up that mess, taking them to my room and popping in yet another video game -.-;;; as long as they leave me alone to blog we have no qualms. Anyway...Oooo ooo oooo once I got online, Gab IMed me and showed me this FABOO new tag she just made for herself...and I think maybe one for each of us? *shrugs* I'd have to see but anyway this is Gab's tag.
Shes in the process of making mine ^.^ Good Times!! OH And Akio is getting her own tag soon enough *like mine on the bottom left side of the screen as u scroll down* mwhahaha good times again. ^^
Okay well....Imma go write since I'm on limited time here. =p laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, February 20, 2002 .___Pooooookemon ^___^___.
[Currently Listening to: Pokemon Theme song]
I'm watching Pokemon ^^ yes I watch this show. It kicks ass. Espically Team Rocket. Mwhahahha they crack me up. James is sooo flaming. Mwhahahha Anyway I think pitas ate one of my entries yesterday and I'm mad now -.-;;; but if it didn't then...good times ^_^
Today I woke up at 8 this morning and got dressed as I watched Maury then I went to Emanuel's house. We slept for an hour before I got up and made him make me breakfast. Pancakes and bacon today ^^ So we both ate, then watched Married with Children. We kept fighting over the remote which I ended up throwing across the room which he fell on the floor to struggle and reach for it. I grabbed his legs and pulled his arms to keep him away from it. LOL then when he got it again, we fought for it again so he wouldn't change the channel during commericals. THEN, we ended up jus watching Married with Children until 12:45 when I had to go. I went to the post office FINALLY to drop off part of Aoki-chu's gift, Amy and a friend from Germany's gift ^^ Good Times. I still have another part of Aoki-chu's gift to send AND Gabs. So...I'm not even done yet -.- blah. Oh well.
So that was my day. ^_^ Good times. Mhwhahah well imma go write now before I 4get. I'm about to reach the 1/2 way point in my fic. ^____^ Weeeeeee Laters
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, February 19, 2002 .___Ow...my nose...>.< *holds nose*___.
[Currently Listening to: Love Flies by: L'arc~en~ciel]
No I didn't get my window media player -.-;;; I'm listening through my AOL media player which sucks -.- cuz everything is so low...blah. Anyway, I was getting annoyed *as I have been for the past few days* my mom asked me to turnin into a mountain climber an get a step ladder and get 4 heavy ass photo albums for her from the top shelf of a closet -.-;;; so I being the good daughter *without a choice* turn into Spiderwoman and start getting the albums down. The top one on the stack slids forward as I gently move them down and slams me in the face, hitting the bridge of my nose. Rather then make it seem worse thenit is, I go "Ow my nose", hold it for a few seconds then let go. When my mom left the room, I was like OW OW OW OW OW *holds nose for dear life making sure its not bleeding* I think I'm gonna bruise now. It's really tender now. It hurts. >.<
OMG for the past few days I have not NOT been able to do ANYTHING for nothing more then 1/2 hours at a time. My mom keeps CALLING ME every 5 fucking seconds and if it's not her, the phone rings. -.- I can't sit at my compy and do ANYTHING without having her call me. I know that she just had knee surgrey but she was only to have a 2-3 day down time period. 2-3 days are up. But she got miiiighty use to me running to her whenever she calls my name. I AM SO SICK of hearing my name being called out. I swear I am. Because my mom doesn't even call my name, like Lez, or any other form she calls me by these annoying nicknames she use to call me when I was like 5...ugh and it's really annoying. OMG I CAN NOT WAIT till I go to "class" 2morrow I.E Emanuel's house allllllll morning. And just do nothing. *sigh* Otherwise Imma be sooo annoyed if I have to stay here another day straight of hearing my name being called out by my mother wanting something...geez...>.>
Anyway...I took a few more tests. I went clique hunting but I didn't find anything worthwhile. So instead I took some tests.
Good times XD Mweee I love this moive. Ninja Scroll is the 2nd anime movie I ever saw. I saw Vampire Hunter D 1st (which I got Bloodlust of Feb 12th WOOO) but I liked Ninja Scrool. MWhahahha good times. ^.^
Anyway, yeah...hands are cold >.< Oh I like Daria too. Mwhahah thas so me. ^^ Actually I'm like Jane, and Jun is like Daria. LOL we just so ying and yang. LOL but we're both outcasts. OH MAN....I made a heart breaking discovery today. When I was sorting out all my winmx files I noticed I only had 2 videos I saved from last time which is good. One was my Sugizo interview, the other WAS NOT Desire!!! WAHHH I accidently saved the 1/2 of End of Sorrow by mistake rather then my whole version of Desire! *sob* Now another 3 days to d/l it again!!! ;.; wut a pain in the ass...I swear...ugh.
Hm..OH YEAH I FINALLY FINALLY Got Sunnie to lay off using MY SN for the most part. I made up another SN for him so he'll stop using mine so often. Mwhahahah buuuut knowing Sunnie like I know Sunnie, he'll more then likely use BOTH. Ahh he's a greedy bitch like that. The "self proclaimed sexiest bitch out there" is also greedy -.- LOL =P
Okay so Emanuel called so Imma b out laaaters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, February 18, 2002 .___All Alone___.
[Currently Listening to: Nothing]
Still musicless T.T I MUST try to d/l another media player. I can't wait till I get Windows ME again. Anyway...yeah I got this off Aoki-chu's blog
I'm Toshiya! ^^ jjang. I spell my name wrong? Well...sometimes....>.< Actually I just spell shit wrong allll the time. ^^;;;;; ahh me. Anyway it feels good to have my own ablity to blog again hehehehe. *yawn*
No one is online!! Well they are, but they are but everyone has their away message on =p which i think is totally pointless. why should anyone be online with an away message? I don't get it. Anyway yeah...and Maki is on punishment until further notice T.T so I have no one to talk to. *sigh* I'm almost 1/2 way through before I start sending out my new fic. ^^ faboo. And ooohh yeah..jus for Auwon...imma blog about Sunnie and wifey's Vday.
I can cuz I have permission to and plus Sunnie has a big mouth *shouldn't talk* well from the exact detail Sunnie told me X.x, after wifey went to class, Sunnie got up, he took a shower and wanted to dress up and look nice but he doesn't have any formal clothes (LOLthas wut u get for bein a thug lol) so Sunnie had to go out and buy a new button down. So he did;. THEN he went to pick up his order of flowers. He got him roses and orchids. But not JUST roses, American Beauty X.x if anyone knows ANYTHING about flowers, then we all know how rare, beautiful and expensive American Beauty is. The orchids were lavander with blue hues. In the inner most part of the flower it was violet, the sides of the petals were hued blue, the whole petal was a soft lavander, and the tips were white. So pretty ^^ Anyway, he got the flowers and then went to NYU to pick him up. Wifey was in the chem lab....um...yeah...in NYU the chem labs ARE HUGE and there are about a kajillion. Mwhahaha so Sunnie ended up walking around in the chem department of NYU looking, asking and searching for Mikey. When he FINALLY found Mikey's professor, the prof gave him this weird look like, okay why are u lokin for Mikey an holding flowers? So Sunnie was like "Yeah I'm gay. Got a problem?" and the prof was like uh..no. So then Sunnie asked were Mikey was, and he was allll the way at the end of the chem. LOL So Sunnie was like can u go get him for me please? An the prof was STILL lookin at him weird. So Sunnie was like "why u still standing there?" LOL So the prof went and got Mikey.
Mikey went outside where Sunnie was waiting and Sunnie awwed cuz Mikey was i his chem lab stuff, I.E goggles, lab coat, latex gloves...(don't ask) so Mikey was like WHY ARE U HERE!? he was so shocked. Then Sunnie gave him the flowers and Mikey was like "Tell me these arent what I think they are." So Sunnie was like uh...^^;; okay I wont. LOL So he pulled him out of chem class and they went to the Stanhope hotel AHHH MY hotel. LOL Anyway, they had brunch there, and Sunnie had a ring to give him. So when they were drinking their champange and orange juice (cuz Sunnie is of age) Sunnie was like close ur eyes. So Mikeu was like why? An Sunnie was like -.-;;; what I say about that? *previously he told him not to ask questions* So Mikey closed his eyes and Sunnie dropped the solid platinum ring in his glass with a plunk LOL So Mikey was like OMG *big eyes* and then he stuck his fingers in the glass (ugh -.-) and then he wiped it clean and he was like I have a ring already (which he wears on a necklace) but Sunnie said it was for him to wear this time, even if he covered his ring tattoo. So Mikey said he would and he put it on, and then Sunnie gave him the I love you so much speech and made Mikey cry. LOL So anything Sunnie said after that made Mikey cry and Sunnie was like err...okay no more talking. So they ended up makin love allllll day.
They checked out later that night, and then they were home, and went to bed. The next morning, Sunnie was still high on his love, and for once, he felt that he didn't wanna get laid. His libido wasn't as high as it usually was cuz he felt so in love. ^_^ Aww...they sooo cute. ^^
Good times. Mwhahaha well anyway time to write. ^^b laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, February 18, 2002 .___Waaaaahhh___.
[Currently Listening to: Nothing]
And WHY am I still listening to nothing? Well simple. After missing Cowboy Bebop waiting for this STUPID Media Player to download, it tells me IT CAN'T -.- so I still can't listen to my winmx files which I saved. *sigh* 2morrow I'm gonna have my Windows 98 replaced with Windows ME again so luckliy I'll have a media player again soon and I'll be able to fix my Winmx AND I still can't get AIM to d/l all the way. I'll just worry about it 2morrow. I wanna go see Cowboy Bebop now. Besides I spent ALL DAY d/ling stuff again, and fixing my compy...*sigh* good thing I'm just missing these last two things. =p
Anyway I joined new cliques ^_______^ GOOD TIMES. Me and Akio were talking about how fine Brad Pitt is. And he is, so I went and joined the clique XD I'm getting Akio to join up too. *sigh* And I have all my Interview ones up ^_^ And a Beautiful One of Louis (cuz the Lestat one wasn't working -.-) so...yeah I'm content. Okay Imma go. I wanna watch Cowboy Bebop even though I already missed the 1st episode =p Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, February 18, 2002 .___Back in Full Effect___.
[Currently Listening to: Nothing]
I'm meant to be in L'arc!! MWHAHAH I got this from Helayne so I was like hey let me take it. ^_^v And I'm meant to be in L'arc~
Okay good news~ I got my compy fixed, so I can now blog for myself, view pics, post links, post up the remainer of 36 Moons, d/l stuff again, annnnd just all around have a non gimp compy. PLUS I saved all my stuff from previously soooooo I lost nothing ^_^
Okay bad news~ I lost AOL 7.0, Windows ME, Winmx, and Window's Media Player. I'm d/ling AOL 7.0 right now and I'm only at 27%, and before 10 I have to d/l Winmx and a Real Player. I'm getting Windows ME reinstalled 2morrow thanks to Jun who's gonna swing on over and help me out. Lucky for me, every link I love was posted HERE so I was able to save them ^_^ woo hoo.
Okay I'm gonna go back to write...I have to change my font...it's all stupid. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, February 17, 2002 .___Eyes ....to find....their....fear___.
[Currently Listening to: 4AM by: Luna Sea]
I random hope from band to band all the freakin time. I remember once a upon a time, there was a whole shit load of Larc songs I was listening to and only one Luna Sea song....ahhhhh you can't blame me for digging on a slut =p
Okay so before I got off my fun tangent (love that word) Imma take this..thingy I got off Aeris's blog...(http://www.aeris-chan.blogspot.com/) which I still have to link but I keep forgetting to because right now my brain is damaged. Riiiiiiiight.
1. Dir-en-grey?: I use to like them when I was first getting into Jrock. I liked Shinya first. Then he just started getting prettier and prettier in that "now that's not fun" kind of way...so my attention focused to Toshiya the sexy bitch XD and also Kaoru but I like his hair whenit was pink.
2. Pierrot: Never heard their music but that dude with the black hair...Aya? I 4got, he's pretty ^_________^
3. Buck-Tick: I heard of them, not their music annnd...I'm not too impressed with them looks wise.
4. Malice Mizer: All I know about them is they spawned Gackt.
5. Hide (solo): Um...I never heard his music but he...died right? Suicide right....-.-;;;;;;;; *ahhh looks away*
6. Hide with Spread Beaver: Um...see above only DAMN how much more sexually graphic can we get? -.- ugh its vile when u think about it.
7. Zilch: Never heard of them.
8. Oblivion Dust: See above
9. Luna Sea: WOOO the big pink walking porn!!! What's not to like? Plus Ryuichi can rip a mean song. Though now as a soloist he cant...>.>;;;
10. Gunwi Tools: Never heard of them
11. Plastic Tree: I heard of them, but like...not their music. And I think that band name is really REALLY stupid.
12. X Japan: Heard of them but not their music. I heard it was good though. But they do nothing for me phsyically.
13. Sex Machine Guns: Heard of them but not their music. Fun band name though XD
14. La'Cryma Christi: Never heard of them
15. Raphael: Heard of them but not their music
16. Schwein: Never heard of them
17. David Bowe: He's not really a J-rocker dont u think?
18. Penicillin: I use o dig Hakuei...then he got all weird and got some stupid retarted lookin tattoos and he's not fun anymore. His voice was kinda flat too...not a big fan.
19. Machine: Wow creative n ame...-.-v never heard of them.
20. Gackt: The 1st Jrocker I knew of. I duh him for a while. Then I noticed he started aging X.x Badly....and I kinda turned away. His music kicks ass though I gotta give it to the man that can make his voice tremor like that, play piano, guitar write his OWN music and sing and have a sexy ass cellist XD
21. L'arc~en~ciel: Ahhh! One of my Favorite bands Before Luna Sea!! I duh Hyde ^___^ Until I found out he lacked real taste and was married to this ugly woman that Tetsu was much prettier then. So I dig Yukkie now ^______^ u gotta love a man with cheek bones like that. Their music is poetic, and very...deep. Makes you think. I can do without Haido's fobby English, and their solo projects are all good. I'm impressed throughly except with Haido's Shallow Sleep. It reminds me of Bravery. Go Haido! Go Yukkie! Go Tetsu! Go Ken's guitar!!! er..I mean Ken...>.>
22. Kuroyume: Never heard of them
23. Shazna: see above
24. Mad Capsile Market: Wut the...
25. Glay: The band I dug before Larc. I use to dig Sashi (has a thing for guitarists) but then I kinna got over them. I love Glorious and Rain.
26. Sads: Never heard of them
27. How did Hide's death affect you?: It didn't really. I felt no sympathy.
28.How many Jrock CDs do you own: 7. Most of Larc though.
29. What fan clubs do you belong to: None. I don't believe in bopper shit.
30. What is the most embarassing CD in your collection: None really.
31. Do you still listen to it:
32. What CD did you buy because you only liked one song but ended up loving the whole CD?: That never really happened to me
33. What CD did you buy that was a total waste of money: THAT BOI's (even though it's not jrock its still garabage)
34. How old were you when you first started getting into Jrock?: I was 18. I missed everything -.-v
35. Can you play an instrument?: Unless the keyboard on a compy counts...no.
36. What songs do you always get stuck in your head: Usually really annoying random shit and I always repeat THAT ONE PART.
37. What song can you just not stand?: Anything by Boa, SES, Dana, or any other female artists with the except of J and Utada Hikura
38. What group should be banned from the music scene?: Oh theres so many....how to choose how to choose....
39. If you could make your own Fuji Rock Festival, who would you invite: Larc~ and a hopefully reunited Luna Sea, and some other K-pop people ^^;;;;;;;;;;;; *is sticking to the J-rock theme here*
40. What group do you listen to that no one else seems to like?: I dunno..
41. What got you hooked on your all time favorite group: For Larc it was Hyde and Yukkie for Luna Sea it was Sugizo XD and u know...music was good...^^;;;;;;;;;;;
OKKKKKKAY so anyway now to my tangent. I was on my way to pick up my mom from work and I had go down this street which had 2 lanes to go straight and then a 3rd lane u had to get in line for so u could make a left hand turn. As I pass the light to get on this street, I see this big bulbus van jus sloooooowly rolling along, no singal, nothing. I'm like wtf...so I sit behind it. It's not going anywhere so I'm like fuuuuck this. And I go around it to the left because cars were on my right and I go to sit in the lane to make a left hand turn. So I'm jamming to End of Sorrow when the big stupid van comes riiiiight up beside me in my little neon and I see the woman is talking. I'm like oh damnit...-.- *is annoyed* so I turn down the volume and roll down my passanger side window and she's like you just cut me off. I'm like no i didn't u were going like 2 miles an hour. And shes like I was in line to turn. I'm like OH WELL trying MOVING next time. I roll up my window, blast Luna Sea and go on my way. I'm like whatever she was being all bitchy about it too. She's lucky my mood wasn't sour like yesterdays otherwise I would have gone off in full out curse mode. -.-v
Anyway, yeah...my hands have been frozen all day...>.< annd I liiived through Valentines Day even wrote a fic. It's at both Temptation and TonHyuk&JunTa (links on the side) *yawn* back hurts. Anyway 2morrow my mommy is going in for surgery on her knee. I'm a little worried but not really cuz its just her knee. She'll be fine. Though she made me pray with her a minute ago. I was surprised at myself that I remembered my childhood prayers and said them all line by line without skipping a beat. *sigh* it was weird...
Anyway loooong over due...
And nooooow I'm done for today. Jjang...*yawn* =p
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, February 14, 2002 .___Untitled Valentine's Day___.
[Currently Listening to: Gravity by: Luna Sea]
I remembered last year, I wrote out a 2 part tribute to Ta, one of words one of pictures. This year I can't really do that thanks to techinally difculties. But in a way I don't really pay him tribute because of thelack of emotion I'm really feeling. Besides, I think it's painfully obvious how I feel about him. Plus, I'm sorta hating today because Valentine's day really sucks if you don't have anyone.
Last night, when Pookie called me again for the 2nd time that night, I got mad at him. My daughter Gijimo had sent me some pic of my Ta through AIM and I squealed *normal reaction* and Pookie asked what was up. I jus let him know I saw my baby, and left it at that. Then he starts going off on this jag about how my feelings are (for lack of a better term) superficial. And basically went on to try and correct how I feel. I got mad and was like, Pookie no offense cuz ur my friend and I love you, but who the fuck are you to tell me how I feel? I got mad at him for even suggesting that how I feel isn't real, and that I would have no idea what love is. He told me his own thoughts on the matter and I was like, how would you know? Who died and made you guru of all love and emotion? How could he possible fathom the depths of what I feel when he himself have never experianced it. It just got me really mad that he would second guess my emotions and feelings for Ta when he would have NOT CLUE how I am. It mad me so mad, that rather then continue upseting me, Pookie changed subjects and said I was right.
It's like I hate when my parents do that to me. I hate when fuckin NOBODIES on the net tell me that and I hate it more when a close friend I've known since grade school tells me that. It's like how the fuck would any of you know? And who the fuck is anyone to tell me how I feel, and what I think and anything else that comes to him? That's right, all of you who tell me that are fuckin nobodies when it comes to my feelings on Ta. It just pissed me off and I really really wanted to scream at him and hang up on him and start crying but I was so pissed I just listened and got real quiet until I went off on him about who the fuck was he to tell me anything.
So I hate this fuckin holiday. I decided to skip English today. I'm not in the mood to listen to my proff about my undone rough draft of my paper that I'm suppost to do but didn't because I didn't feel like it. *sigh* It was really cold this morning. I hated getting up and going to class. Well techinally I'm not going to class but I rather be sleeping. More then that, I rather have my own compy up and running again because I think I jus infected this one with a virus from a disk I had though how that happened I dunno..*gets up and walks away as if nothing happened*
And that's pretty much my day until now. Last night I got 5 IMs. BC, Gab, Aya, Hush and Helayne all at once. I was like X.x because I had to leave in 1/2 hour and I wasn't able to finish my JunTa Valentine one shot. I'll prolly finish it today. Speaking of writing, I started work on my new fic. AND I finished 36 Moons for real this time. It's 136 chapters long....I think I reached my breaking point. I also wanted to start work on a new OC fic called Aoi but I have charcters a title but no plot. So it's kinda jus sitting in my head until it developes further. Anyway 5 IMs and a phone call....I was like...ugh. I can multi task pretty well but 6 different convos and a fic to write, my attention cant be torn like that espically in the lemon part of the writing.
At 12, I said the same I g2g message to everyone and then left. I hated leaving espically because I haven't talked to Hush or Aya in like forever, I love Gab and Jun and of course Helayne so...that sucked. *sigh* I got a email from oppa this morning. He's gradually feeling better which I'm really overwhelmed with happiness to hear. He sounds so tired, which would probably because he doesn't sleep as much anymore (regular hours now, before he use to sleep for days and still feel tired) but he's like laying down a lot. He's hardly up and about. It's really drastic to see someone like KP to be so full of life and happiness to suddenly go down like that. It's very unlike him.
Okay so back to this Valentine's Day bullshit. I don't have jack shit planned and I don't plan on having jack shit planned. I'm just looking forward to the breaker comp this weekend with BC and maybe Jose. I kinda wanna see what is gonna happen with me and Jose....maybe...something? -.-v *not getting hopes up* Anyway....yeah...I think I'm done. I think I'll go clique hunting. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, February 14, 2002 .___HELLO....___.
[Currently Listening to: Nothing]
OKAY YEAH...
http://sg.geocities.com/khaz00/visual/19a.jpg
From that guys blog I stole that survey the other day...GOOD TIMES!!! I put his email addy up because I need it for later....I may actually email him...mwhahahahaha I'm sorry he's hot....but he cut his hair which is upsetting. U gotta love a guy who looks like that...okay I gotta go for real now....MWHAHAHHA XD if the pics dont show up I'll do it again later....
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, February 13, 2002 .___SEME___.
[Currently Listening to: In Silence by: Luna Sea]
A person's limbs and joints were shattered, then their now-mushy limbs were braided through your wheel-spokes. Still alive, they were left to die in this fashion, either from starvation or heat/cold. Oh, the humanity! What a temper -you- have!
What torture would you be?
You are Vicious
You have a wicked looking bird and cause a lot of bloodshed. Revenge and power are what you care about.
Which Cowboy Bebop Character Are You?
What FFVII character are you?? Find out here!!! by
Current Mood: Chillen
Current Music: Muddy Blood by Due le Quatrz
Current Taste: Kiwi strawberrt Snapple
Current Hair: Tied back in a loose pony tail. Kinda clean
Current Annoyance: I'm on the rag...nuff said...
Current Smell: Nothing
Current thing I ought to be doing: Writing my new fic
Current Desktop Picture: The love of my life Ahn Chil Hyun holding up his glasses XD
Current Favorite Artist: H.O.T/Kang Ta/Hee Jun/JTL, J, Eun Ji Won, Drunken Tiger, L'arc~en~ciel/Hyde/Tetsu/Yukihiro, Luna Sea/Sugizo, Due le Quartz, Pierrot,Aucifer...
Current Favorite Group: See above
Current Book: I'm not reading anything now =p
Current CD in CD Player: Aaliya the Queen's last album
Current Color Of Toenails: All natural
Current Refreshment: Kiwi snapple
Current Worry: That I have to send out money for my extremly expensive Luna Sea poster
Current Crush: No crush. I got ADD when it comes to guys..
Current Favorite Celebrity: So many to name...
You Talked : My daddy
You Hugged: My daddy
You Instant messaged: No one =p
You Yelled At: My mom for saying she wouldn't buy me my Toshiya gloves unless I cleaned today -.- which I did so HA
You Had A Crush On: Jose for like a hot second. I felt him not have interest so I moved on.
Who Broke Your Heart: It's been a while since the stone has been cracked
Drink: Peach snapple
Color: Black
Album: All of H.O.T's
Shoes: My 6 inch knee high black hooker boots
Candy: Skittles
Movie: Interview with a Vampire
Song: Got too many to name but some I'll never get tired of: We are the Future, Spirit of the Fighter, Outside Castle by H.O.T Doo be Do by Kang Ta Honey by L'arc~en~ciel Desire by Luna Sea,Atena by Pierrot, Angel's Tale by Hyde
Vegetable: Potatoes
Fruit: Peaches!!!
Open-minded: Extermly
Arrogant: Very much so *whips out mirror*
Insecure: I get my moments...
Interesting: Weird works better
Hungry: Not really
Friendly: No I have the weird/bitchy vibes going
Smart: Um...sometimes
Moody: I have terrets
Childish: Oh come on...I bounce and do Hyde wiggles what do you think?
Independent: *falls off chair laughing*
Hard working: *rolling around laughing now*
Organized: Most definatly a place for everything and everything in it's place
Healthy: I saw so..my mom begs to differ
Emotionally Stable: No I have some issues I need to deal with
Shy: I get these shy moments
Difficult: Sometimes
Attractive: For the most part I'm hella cute XD
Bored Easily: Huh? *looks at something else*
Messy: I try not to be
Thirsty: Always
Responsible: Pheesh...yeah right
Obsessed: Most def.
Angry: Not at the moment
Sad: See above
Happy: Im mellow
Trusting: Not very
Talkative: For the most part I run my mouth
Legal: Yay!
Original: I think so...sometimes
Ignored: yeah ;.;
Reliable: I try to be
Content: Not right now. I want too much junk
Optimistic: Nope
Deep thinker: Sometimes
Self-disciplined: Um...no
Sleepy: Nah I slept till 12:30
Lonely: For the most part unless my Yakuza are around
Slap: *whips out second list*
Get Really Wasted With: My yakuza
Tickle: Hee Jun ^.^ just to see how he would laugh
Look Like: Everyone says Nelly Furtado but I don't see it...
Be Like: Me, myself and I unless you count writing styles. Then I wanna be like Anne Rice
Talk to: My yakuza, a few random people
Talk To Online: see above
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LOL LOL LOL LOL *falls off chair as the whole compy lab stares at her* LOL ahhh that was just classic. I guess he is cream then XD
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@09:34 p.m.
Find out which LifeSaver you are.
All right, so maybe you didn't have the most romantic of beginnings, but you came out all right in the end. You're not totally sure if music is for you, but as long as you have the other members of your band around you, it'll be ok. Besides, the fact that you're a star character in an anime guarantees you more fans.
Take the "Which Unknown Jrock Band Should You Be In?" quiz
Brought to you by Shiroi Heya
@11:15 p.m.
@09:23 p.m.
Take the Which Powerpuff Girl Are You? Test.
find your queer
as folk personality!
*Take The Ice Cream Flavour Test!*
You are a classy person who buys or adores expensive clothes from the Catwalk. You love to cuddle, and know that the whole world loves you. You eat gourmét food, and loves everything that glitters or shines. You love luxury very much, and if you aren't rich just yet know that someday you will.
@03:12 p.m.
@10:42 p.m.
He's getting chubby. Look at his faaace...*pinchy Ta's face* he's got cheeks now...not just cheek bone. But I LOVE his cheek bones!! They gave his face those beautiful good looks...I mean not that he doesn't have them now...but you know what I mean. *snuggles with Ta* I love him anyway.
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@08:12 a.m.
>D fun huh? And they say you can't learn anything reading porn. LOL. Mwhahah oh....yeah before I forget to mention, I'm not being fickle, just realistic here but I don't think Jose is as interested as I think, so I might just toss that whole idea out the window. Forget it. I'm apparently waiting for Ta...without a choice. -.- all righty then. That sucks for me. >.> anyway...yeah...Imma go find something else to do. Laters.
@08:06 p.m.
Who me?
Akio and Ghost standing in front of me. I was too lazy to get up. This was as we waited for Jun to show up.
Me and Akio. I was being Toki at the time and decided to sit like him.
The 4 Yakuza lighting up...except Ghost. She's the only one that doesn't smoke so Jun, Toki and Akio did. I love this pic. We look real gangsta. LOL
Ghost blocked my face in this one LOL But this is us as we played pool and Akio was sitting where I was.
Toki smoking. I had to take this pic. It was just such the moment for it.
After we played pool and Jun got there. We decided to get sushi and since Toki can't eat it because I'm allgeric to it, I took the pic as Jun, Akio and Ghost had sushi at the make shift Dragon Leaf.
Because those men already have boyfriends.
SO TRUE LOL
The same urge that makes dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving.
Mwhahaha
Mace will do that to you.
That was just funny.
Row row row your boat.
LOL LOL LOL *falls off chair*
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@11:32 p.m.
Which X Pairing Are You?
That's us next to the pool hall outside the pizza place. Hehehehe
Only Daniel in 36 Moons had red hair not black. Hehehe but he still looks yakuza-ish. Anyway...Imma go try and finish up this 1 shot. Laters.
@03:24 p.m.
First memory: Pain, whiskers
-Childhood ambition: Cyber police from S
-Childhood nickname: Bon *wah that is kawaii ^^ Bon Bon Bon Bon Bon ^__^
-Animal you compare yourself to: Lost lamb *man thas deep..*
-Your strength: I have no weakness
-Your weakness: I have no strength (thas clever)
-When you first meet a person, which part of the person do you look at?: How many moles the person has. *I do that too*
-Habits: Shout anywhere *reeeeally...? XD*
-Favorite saying: Sleepy *LOL how kawaii*
-Dish you're good at making: Sakito-kun
-Favorite season: Summer mornings because it's romantic
-Daily necessity: Hugs *Misato let's help him out with this one XD*
-Sleep habits: Naked under apron *what's he doing with a apron on when he sleeps? Thas jus kinky XD*
-What does others say that makes you happy?: Ba-bon
-Recent favorite thing to do: Reason for existence
@10:09 p.m.
Then she goes on about Queen of the Damned which was a bad movie and I'm not urging anyone to go see it. BUT GOD DAMN it just pissed me off because she's like talking about Anne Rice's books like 1. She could do better 2. Like she read them all when it's like painfully obvious to any Rice fan she HASN'T and like I said if she had she read em SO WRONG. It's like she's queen guru of all literature and whatnot. It just makes me so mad. Considering I'd give my left arm to write like she does.
@09:01 p.m.
I like this picture a lot...I dunno why but I do. Maybe because he looks dirty? LOL I dunno...
I can see that damn ssang kah pool of his that sags over his left eye...just like it ALWAYS has, but in this pic it's SO DAMN noticable. It's the only reason I linked it back. It jus bothers me.
I like this pic a lot. Better then the other one.
@08:07 a.m.
She warns first off...
I got someone to get mad at me for saying this...
I can't comment much on Hide's music. What I heard it was...you know...there. It didn't move me...there you. It didn't move me. Well okay I lie...it did move me....to turn off the mp3...>.>
So true so true....-.-v again, I got someone to be mad at me because I said suicide was the pussy way out and they got all bent out of shape because I happen to say it in the same conversation about Hide. I heard one song from X-Japan and yeah that one guy died but at least he went NATURALLY as stated.
Kami glorified ritualistic suicide, which can be understood with his love of the Japanese military. I really don't think that covers blowing your brains out (or whatever the hell Cobain did, i'm not looking it up) or getting drunk and hanging yourself. And of course the big thing is that Kami didn't DO it! >.<
I dunno about all that Hide had no talent. He had to have some because he did have legions of fans and whatnot....I mean I don't think he's the great demigod that everyone's making him out to be....but you know...he must have been doing something right. Of course I don't think he was all that great looking either and everyone is like OOoo OoOo Hide from Pink Spider! (or whatever...) *giggle* I'm like...uh...his hair is pink ^^b faboo..I don't know about Kami, just that he died naturally and Cobain shot himself in the face because "he couldn't handle star pressure" which makes me wonder what the fuck were you doing forming a band, getting signed, and making videos for MTV if you didn't wanna be famous? Uh...yeah...>.>
Me too....God if your friends did it, it wouldn't be all that fucking great would it? Okay then shut up. It's glorified death. But it's death nonetheless. Of course when she finished up that rant she started going after Sugizo which made me not agree with her the rest of the way...
Um okay yeah....he's a 30 something year old man with a 3 yr old daughter, with extreme talent who can play a guitar and make your skin shiver with pink hair. Granted he may not be a pretty pretty boy like Haido but damnit he IS is a sexy God XD when you earn nicknames like "The Walking Porno" that says a lot. Duh....and I'm not bias because I happen to lust after Sugizo's hot ass, I'm setting his talent into play too. And I happen to LOVE the fact his hair is pink. ^^
Wow I really don't think Gackt or Masa is worthy of being worshipped. >.> not because they aint fine or nothing because yes, I too was once a Gackt fan (still sorta am) but you know...if you look carefully, you can see him aging *runs from a knife wielding Auwon* and not that it's not noticable on OTHER J-rockers hell I point them out I.E Haido, Sugizo, Yukkie...but you can really see the fine lines on Gackt's face when he DOESN'T smile. At least with Haido or Sugizo, it's a little harder to spot those little aging lines. Well what you want they over 30. Even sex Gods and walking dolls age. And dude what ass on Chacha is SHE talking about? There is NO ASS back there. Hell NONE of them have asses....except Sugizo. I mean he better wearing those short shorts. But really...*sits back and uses fingers to count* Haido has no ass, Gackt has no ass, Toshiya has no ass, Miyabi has no ass...and I'm not just bias about my 1st love K-pop either. Oh no. I'm a equal person. *is up to 4 fingers so far* Okay in the K-pop world, Jun Jin has no ass (in fact NO ASS AT ALL his back just...concaves...), Tony An has no ass just an extended back, Dong Wan has no ass which is a tragedy really. All that muscle and none of it on his ass. Jae Won has no ass, but he has more then Tony! Hye Sung has no ass, no shape no color...*clears throat* so he's got a good voice...>.> sorta. There are about 3 Asian guys known that have an ass. Moon Hee Jun because everything about him is big and/or thick with the exception of his nose which is a small little bitty button! *presses Hee Jun's cute nose* Did I jus say little bitty? -.-;;;; and my baby Ta because yes he has an ass...do not make me scan the picture of him turning to the side and the clear lump behind him is visable.
And Sugizo because if you see him running around enough times in those short shorts and garters you see his thick thighs, killer gams and round firm ass. XD *smack*
@08:20 p.m.
Find your inner vampire.
I am 49% worshipable! And you? Find out!
49%
Eveangelion boys getting it on against a window XD YAOI warning...XD *licks lips*
1 Bishies getting his neck licked by another...*shiver* Oh yeah....good times.
@08:29 p.m.
check it out, i'm kangta!
test made by icha of silver bell
take the quiz here
All ducks aren't sweet and innocent and you prove that. You have a nasty streak.
Find your inner rubber ducky.
take the "which neglected jrock band are you?" test. or something.
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Music and lyrics by: Hyde
Beyond the course of time
A room that we once shared
But my memory's a haze
Forgetting what was said
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared - I lost you over again
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
Can't pain upon the canvas
Without you here -- there is no colour
A colourless landscape
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
@04:04 p.m.
Miyabi sitting there. Looking like quite the sexy bitch. I designed pants JUST LIKE THAT which bothers me -.- but hey, he's flashing thigh so I'm not really complaining...XD
Miyabi without make up. Yet another ningyo. Except the lip ring. But I could give 2 flying fucks about the lip ring, he's HOT XD
Drew this today just for mah Aya *snuggles*
And of course drew Aya himself being a sexy bitch. I'm gonna draw more later tonight after I finish writing. hehehe okay...now Imma do some more pic hunting of Miyabi...*drool* laters.
@08:22 a.m.
take the damn thing yerself. by T3kk0!
Congratulations-- the Power of God is in your hands. Well, maybe not, but you do occasionally feel as if the weight of the world is on your shoulders, and sometimes you just want to run away to escape it all. You mean well, but you are sometimes short-tempered and dont necessarily think things through before you do them. Friendship is very important to you, as is loyalty. You have a lot of growing to do, but deep down you really are a good person.
Which Dragon of Heaven are you?
Quiz by Kerianne
I am Vanilla Flavoured.
I am one of the most popular flavours in the world. Subtle and smooth, I go reasonably with anyone, and rarely do anything to offend. I can be expected to be blending in in society. What Flavour Are You?
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@03:26 p.m.
The SILVER ASH member selector. Click HERE to take the test. by fishie-chan
Which Revelation Original Character Are You?
Weeeee I love his face. The profile is so nice and the lighting is prettiful ^^
Waaah I love his serious look....*squeal*
*squeal* I love him so much....
I like this pic because...well...well damnit I don't know. I think because you can see his shape a little better...and you know...shape is jjang XD
Smile ^_^ I love his smile. He's sorta dopey looking but he's so hot XD Mwhahaha All credit to that site named before.
Haido's back. He looks really nice there because it's just a nice picture. PLUS you can see his tattoo there ^_^
Here you can see his make up and the stunning job they did with taking this picture. I love this picture. His eyes look so pretty.
@07:36 p.m.
Just stuffed full of surprises. No one ever knows what you're going to do next. The greatest mystery to you is, naturally, "how do they get the caramel in the Caramilk bars?"
I never called anyone but Ta beautiful but he is looking...well...beautiful. ^^v
Ooo yes...I do I do *raises hand*
They call Louis the Beautiful One...but...hmm...anyway I got more from Route 666 *click* so all credit to them and go look at more of Haido's beautiful vampi pics. ^^
I think I saw this pic and I was like wow....very very J-rocker. I thought of the pink haired guitarist tests I took earlier...guess why...
I say Sugizo because of the hair color and the eye make up. I say Haido because of the outfit and the pose of and the face that Hee Jun's making. But it's so visual...
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2. What colour pants are you wearing right now? navey blue
3. What song are u listening to right now? Way of Difference by Glay
4. What are the last four digits of your phone number? wuts it to u?
5. What was the last thing u ate? Homemade sweet ass soup >.< blah
6. what makes superballs bounce? lots of rubber
7. If u were a crayon, what color would u want to be?: Black
8. Where do u want to go on your honeymoon? Wherever Ta wants is cool
9. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: With Ahn Chil Hyun.
10. Do u like snow, sun or rain?: Rain. Snow is a close second
11. How is the weather right now? Kinda cool
12. Last person u talked to on the phone?: Jun. She was hangin with Jose XD
13. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: The way they look
14. um...no 14...>.>
15. How are u today?: Lonely. Like yesterday
16. Your fave drink?:Peach snapple
17. Alcoholic? Peach anything
18. How do u eat an Oreo?: Usually drowned in milk
19. Favorite sport?: I don't play sports but I love watching breakers
20. What makes u happy?: Ahn Chil Hyun. My Yakuza when they not being wack or MIA, and feeling good about my writing
21. What's the next cd you're gonna get?: I dunno yet. I jus got 2 new ones already
22. Hair color?: Black mostly since the blonde/brown/red/orange part is growing out.
23. Eye color? brown w/out contacts, aquamarine w/
24. Height? 5'4
25. Do u wear contacts? Yup
26. If you had any ability what would you have?: To fly
27. Who do u consider your close friends?: The Yakuza and SFL
28. What do u like to do?: Write, sleep, draw, chill with people i love
29. What's the best advice ever given to you?: Nothing will ever just happen. You have to make it happen. I live by this.
30. Have u ever won any awards?: None
31. What are your future goals?: To be a published writer and/or to be Ta's wifey.
32. Favorite music?: K-pop, rock and hip hop and J-rock.
33. Favorite food? Pizza, kimp bap, bul-go-gee and white rice.
34. Favorite movie? Interview with a Vampire
35. Favorite day of the year? October 10
36. Favorite month? October
37. Do you like to dance? sometimes
38. Are you shy to ask someone out? Depends on my mood
39. Worst sickness you ever had?: I had mono once. Nuff said.
40. What's the stupidest thing you have ever done?: I repeatedly went out with Hung Te Chang, who happens to be the biggest asshole on the face of the universe. After he left me to fend for myself in boring ass PC Bang, I called Carlo and left him, he without a turn of his head waved bye to me as I said I was leaving. After that, I never spoke to him again...well I did, but I didn't want to. >.<
41. Do you like scary or happy movies better? both?: I like both
42. On the phone or in person?: I like both
43.Summer or winter? winter
44. Hugs or kisses? Depending on who's giving. But I like both
So fucking beautiful....God...it's devasating...
I love black and white pics of him. They bring out more of his features and accent his face more. I love that ^^
Why you make me love you so....*sigh*
@12:30 a.m.
Toshiya gloves I want *click*
Faboo....too bad I can't get them. -.- but the whole site called Shadow Fae *click* is where I can order them. It's kinda gothy clothes mostly, so I just want the gloves. *sigh*
@09:52 p.m.
Despite having the personality of a downright cold-hearted asshole, you still seem to have a large collection of fan-girls. Everyone seems to love you, and worship the ground your stiff feet walk on. You never let grudges go, you're not a very good friend, and frankly you wouldn't mind if you became deaf (all the more better to ignore the world around you!). So many people find you dead-sexy it doesn't matter how you act. I guess beauty really is only skin deep!
Which member of Weiß are *you*? Take the quiz!
You are Sugizo! You like to walk around mostly naked and make women drool over your body! Or..we at least hope you like it.
Which pink-haired guitarist are you?
@11:10 p.m.
Toki x Jia kissy kissy ^^
@03:27 p.m.
Take the "How immature are you?" Test
created by sami
@03:44 p.m.
You are and She Said!
Agressive and sexy, you usually get what you want.
You're style is simple; it's your personality that really makes you who you are.
"Which L'Arc~en~Ciel song am I?" test by mifyuu
@03:49 p.m.
Made by Livvylove
youkotriumph
we went to my car and I drove us to the mall. He bought me a book, a shirt and lunch at Friendly's but he ATE my fries, and most of my brownie sundae!! >.< But he bought me another sundae ^^ But when we got back to my house, he ate my last pudding. -.- I was like UGH U GLUTTON!! It's like having lunch with KP! And then Sunnie made ramyun in my kitchen...and dirtied up my dishes I just washed -.-v so I made him clean it up becuase he's a dork =P. And I just hurt myself because of him. He poked my side, surprising me and I hit my knee. Dork...he's here now. Heheehehe so that's my morning with him. He's being a dork though ugh he's eating everything....>.<
@07:00 p.m.
I am Sephiroth; I was the strongest soldier in the Shinra army. I was a pretty good guy, and even destroyed the occasional monster. Eventually, I found out I was made in a lab, and went crazy. I then summoned a huge meteor to crush the planet!
Which RPG villain are you?
"The songs Wind of Gold, White Feathers, Perfect Blue, Vivid Colors, Brilliant Colors, Dive to Blue, Evergreen, and A Drop of Colour are all sung by Hyde, who is colorblind." - Gerald
I saw that I started dying. Cuz it's sooooo true. LOL he is colorblind...OMG I just cracked up. LOL Ooo okay...right so, I got DSL from AOL and I can't use it yet -.-;;; I have to wait for my account to be activated...god, I HATE them sometimes...-.- but I'm too lazy to do anything about it.
1. I GOT MY CELL PHONE BACK!!!! JOY and RAPTURE!! *snuggles cell phone* I love my cell phone I missed it so bad!!!!!
2. I'm chillen with Sunnie tomorrow ^____^ weee *does 1Tym dance* Sunnie's lonely cuz Mikey is at school a lot and when he is home all he has time to do is make him dinner and a quick kiss until the weekend. And Sunnie can only hang with Woo so many times before Sunnie wants to kill Woo. So...yeah ^^ he'll come see me tomorrow and since I have my cell phone again *squeal* he can let me know when he gets to Jersey. I don't have class till later. *bounce*
@03:08 p.m.
He hasn't really changed. He's still a sexy bitch XD
OMG SEXY SEXY He changed his hair color and cut it too I think. XD Wooo *glomps Yuki*
Sexy bitch XD look at his lipppsss *drool*
Anyone who reads 36 Moons knows who Tsubasa is *he's a don of a yakuza syndicate called the Yami* and I'll be honest, I modeled Tsubasa after Haido during one of his looks when he had long hair, I just made it blonde rather then black, then I changed Tsubasa's hair and now, Haido himself returned to the look that Tsubasa is now at XD how was I suppost to know he would be blonde and have long hair ^^;;;
Yukkie and his 24 inch waist XD Look at that body...he's so skinny *is envious* but he's soo cuuuute. I hate when he sucks his mouth in like that...=P
Yukkie sitting in a chair ^__^ jjang. Hehehehe he looks so cuute. *claps claps*
So I came back home later and did my chores and FINALLY here I am. Bweeeee.....but my head hurts. I have sinus pressure again >.<
@07:18 p.m.
This was after he fell and was cut on his thigh from another speed skaters blade >.< poor baby it's not exactly a good pic of him though...he's got his mouth open -.-v
He looks like a big dork here LOL but he's got a cuuuuute smile ^.^
So pretty....XD
I have such a crush on hiiiiim *snuggles ningyo*
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What Dir en grey member is most like you? Find out here! by 
Which Dir en grey member are you?
the pierrot character selector. just click it. by kagami.
I wanna be there!! There's more caps at her blog.
@08:18 p.m.
Marius sucked, Pandora sucked, ARMAND *who only had 1 line* sucked, Jesse sucked, everyone else SUCKED. Bad acting, the people looked NOTHING like they were suppost to, they not only ripped The Vampire Lestat and Queen of the Damned but they ripped Tale of the Body Theif too. -.-;;; UGH they tore everything apart, it was AWFUL it was like watching an assasination of a brillant book, Anne Rice's book shot to millions of pieces and burning to cynders on Hell's floor. That was a "Based off" it was a straight up JACK ugh...
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@09:41 a.m.
2. Boys Love! BOYS LOVE....should that be a warning? O.o well okay just so peoples aren't shocked when they read boys love like *surprise!* Boys' love AH HA!! LOL okay you guys know what I mean. That bothers you? Skip it.
3. This is just an intro. If people like (response is good and all that stuff) then MAYBE I'll continue it. But remember I have to like it tooooo
4. Anne Rice is God. I get most of my info from her, noooo I'm not a guru on Vampire/Vampirism but I know a great deal *big Anne Rice fan* I'll explain everything on the way, but beware, I'll prolly use terms and phrases that don't make sense unless you have read the Vampire Chronicals
5. Which brings me to the 5th warning, I will be writing about Vampires *gasp* I know right. I know enough about them annnnd I use to write vampire novels when I was younger so...hey, I'll give this a whirl. I've done a lot of research for whatever I happen to be talking about, but if I'm mistaken somewhere, prove it.
White tainted in hues of blue. I bought it for my beloved. But I'll get to that. It's too early for him to be up right now...though I'm sure he would love to see this. The city is at it's best during the day. I admire that about a metropolis. So busy, so full of live and throbbing blood and passion. I once learned people make love in the morning before thier morning coffee, others having cigarettes and fill their blood with nicotine, while others pop pills, inject themselves with something just to start their day. Intresting yes? A life of a New Yorker. I've been in new York for almost three years now. The magic has yet to wear off. But as anything, not everything is beautiful and perfect...you could imagine there is a downside to New York.
I ask him how he did the small burn holes and he's surprised someone like me would know anything. I smile and his pretty oval face turns to me. His narrow Japanese eyes covered in make up examine me to make sure I'm worth the time talking to. And I am. he explains that with insence he carefully burned holes through the linen, then put the starting fire out before it spread. I introduce myself as Marcus for the time being and he is Blue. I smile because I see the blue everywhere on him. And he knows I'm amused. He explains it's because of the color he loves, he's made a career from it. So he uses it as his name as well. I respect him for it. And I leave it be.
But Blue is not in complete need of money. Though he starves himself on occassion because he can't afford both food and rent and he rather be hungry then homeless. Though sometimes, he continues starving himself because he needs paint and it isn't cheap and he rather be hungry then without the ablity to paint. And sometimes he'll wear the same filthy jeans out somewhere because he rather not do his laundry then go hungry another day. But he doesn't complain. Though he has collapsed in starving himself, he rather not worry about it because he is inspired. With me, I made sure he ate, though I have no desire for it. He is grateful...and he felt he owed me. But I shrugged it off, wondering, what i could with even more money.
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NINJA SCROLL - Which Devil of Kimon are you?
Take the What Ninja Scroll Villain are you? test!
@04:51 p.m.
I'm not dumb. Even if I do spell my name
wrong on occasion. Ah well, I can still play bass
Like nobody's business.
Find out which J-rocker you are here by
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@06:21 p.m.
I was meant to be a member of L'arc~En~Ciel! I'm not too crazy when it comes to how I dress or how I make my music, but I'm still cute.
Take the "Which J-Rock Band Should You Be a Member Of?" quiz by malloreigh
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http://sg.geocities.com/khaz00/visual/23a.jpg
khaz@pacific.net.sg
@12:21 p.m.
Are you seme or uke? Find out!
XD SO ME!!! MWHAHAHAHAH I got this Aoki-chu's blog
I'm at school now....I have to leave in a few though...wahhh OH I finally got the Desire video and the Luna Sea perfomance. I'm also trying to d/l the In Silence MV and the 4AM perfomance. ^^ Good times.
Anyway, besides that I'm dressed like Toki XD It took too much effort to get ready this morning...so I jus grabbed my big baggy clothes and went on my way. ^_^
2morrow is EVIL valentines day...-.-;; evilness...
*yawn* Anyway I better go...OH YEAH I also joined 2 new cliques Passion (Auwon's clique) and Oragasmic XD MWHAHAHHA notice they both of Ta. ^_^ Bweeeee. Laters~
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, February 13, 2002
.___7 Things To Do When You're Bored___.
@05:07 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Believe by: Luna Sea]
Quiiizzzz.....I pulled it off this blog: http://sg.geocities.com/khaz00/2001_11_11_archive.html it's also kinda intresting of a blog...but either dude hasn't updated because I can't find the archive for the recent dates...
7 Things You're Afraid of
1. Roaches. *Vile vile vile!! X.x*
2. Being alone *both physically and emotionally*
3. Being stared at *it makes me self concious*
4. Being able to watch my own death...
5. ...Or someone else watching and not doing anything about it.
6. Never being understood.
7. Not having any of my dreams come true.
7 Things that make You Laugh
1. Emanuel's foolish antics
2. Lestat's joke in Interview with a Vampire
3. Tale of the Body Thief
4. EVIL! There's EVIL AFOOT To the invisble boatmoblie AWAAYY!
5. Hee Jun's round expressive face along with his dances
6. BC's stupid new words
7. Watching D's reactions
7 Things that Make You Cry
1. Kang Ta singing....
2. ....or crying.
3. The ending scene of Total Eclipse
4. Hard phsyical pain
5. Watching someone else I love cry
6. Hearing sweet words
7. Overwhelming love from somone.
7 Things I love
1. Ahn Chil Hyun
2. The H.O.T Yakuza
3. SFL
4. My parents
5. KP, Sunnie, David
6. The Vampire Lestat
7. The Vampire Chronicals
7 Things I Don't Understand
1. Why people think the Backstreet Boys have talent
2. Why people think Britney Spears can do more then shake her ass.
3. Why guys think it's a good idea to wear boots with shorts in the dead of summer.
4. Why my writing doesn't seem to improve.
5. Why does my hair never seem to get longer after a certain period of time.
6. Why ONE of my hands gets cold while the other is warm.
7. Why do people think the Blair Witch Project was scary...
7 Things on my Desk
1. A remote control
2. A calculator
3. Phone *I got a call ^^*
4. Mouse
5. A empty container of Jello Pudding *glutton*
6. A cup of raspberry and lemon sorbet
7. A disk of one of my fics.
Right now you are: Thinking about Desire by Luna Sea, the video, eating raspberry and lemon sorbet, and waiting for it to be 5 as I do this.
7 Fact about You
1. I'm vain and arrogant
2. I lack conviction to do things on my own
3. I'm two faced
4. I'm a bit of a slut
5. I have guilty pleasures like eating 2 different sorbets, watching cartoons, children shows and buying Barbies ^^;;;;;
6. I'm madly in love and completly devoted to Ahn Chil Hyun
7. I'm quick tempered
7 Things I'm doing Right now
1. Typing
2. Eating sorbet
3. Watching TV
4. Listening to my body as it tells me it's cold.
5. Curling and uncurling my toes
6. Watching my Desire MV d/l on Winmx...
7. ...as I listen to Genom Screams
7 Things to do before I Die
1. Become a known writer
2. Be Kang Ta's Wife
3. Have at least ONE of his children *be it in or out of wedlock, whatever..*
4. Go to Korea more then twice
5. Go to Japan more then once
6. Tie Ta in light bondage *nothing threatening just enough to feel it*
7. Have a collection of gay porn
Middlename: Alexandra. I use to hate it. But I was named after a queen XD
Birthdate: 5.21
Birthplace: A ghetto city in Jerzee
Nickname: Lez, Lezzie, Playdoh (don't ask), Toki, Toki-chu
Favorite Color: Black, white, gray, blue, green
Favorite Season: Spring and winter
Last Kiss: On the cheek, by my mommy, on the mouth by Pookie
First Real Kiss: I was in middle school 7th grade.
Gay, straight, bi, queer, confused or none of these: Straight
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Sound more like it...
What are you listening to now: Heaven's Drive by Larc
Height: 5'4
What languages do you speak: English, spanish, broken Italian and a few random words/phrases in Korean, some Japanese words
What are the top ten places would you like to travel:
1. Korea
2. Japan
3. Italy
4. Spain
5. Hawaii
6. Singapore
Um...can't think of any oher places I really wanna see
-If there are 3 wells (love beauty and creativity) and you could only drink from one of them, which would you choose?: Creativity. It would bring me the other 2.
- Is masturbation gross?: In public yeah. But hey to each his own...
-Would You kill someone?: If they hurt/violated/killed my Ta.
- Do you trust others easily: Not really
- What's the best concert you've been to?: I've never been to a concert.
- Would you rather be hot or cold?: Cold.
Bored bored bored....It's almost 5 and I miss my Maki!! She hasn't been on all afternoon. My d/l is almost 50% done...jjang and hopefully I can watch the whole thing by later tonight. Also, due to my mom's nagging, I decided to reset my whole comp...sometime this week. So everything I didn't save I have to before I reset....*sigh* such a pain....AND I have to re d/l everything again....but hey as long as my compy can work again and I'm able to blog again I guess it's not too bad.
*yawn* I better go get ready to go pick up my mom. I ate too much crap instead of actual food. LOL Good for me. And my d/l is now at 50% Mwhahaha good times. Okay well....Imma go get ready...laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, February 12, 2002
.___At the Speed of Light!!___.
@08:32 a.m.
[Currently Listening to: Stay Away by: L'arc~en~Ciel]
I'm typing so fassssttt....so dont mind all the typo's your gonna see eventually. OKAY first off AUWON!!! BUY THAT BRACELET!!! I was like that too with Hyde's barbwire necklace. I found one for 132$ so be GRATEFUL that his bracelet is only wut...32$? 35$ WHATEVER!!! GET IT!!! I know the only reason I wanted a barbwire necklace was because Hyde had one...and the only reason I wanted a Fendi...anything was because Ta had a Fendi scarf (besides the fact that's it one of my fav designers) and nevermind that I bought 50 silver bangles (and on the verge of buying more) just because Yuki has some...lots...over 200...nevermind all that....^^;;;; so yes, I'm urging you Auwon, if you can find the bracelet, then get it. You'll be glad you did ^.^v
OKAY I'm at stupid school. And I say stupid because this retard gimp of a school has ONCE AGAIN cancelled my scheduale. -.-;;; I didn't "pay" my tutition AGAIN, so I bitched and moaned to my mom about how my school is SODEMIZING me with this money shit even though we DID pay, and my mom is like okay fine HERE: *hads over 600$ cash* X.x trust me, I'm extremly tempted to fuck English and go shopping and get my Tetsu platform boots at Steve Madden. But I have to pay my stupid school. Any money I have left over is mone (though its not enough for my Tetsu boots) and I get to go buy Vampire Hunter D: Blood Lust tomorrow with Steve. *sigh* I really want the movie but I want my Tetsu boots too.
Let me explain about my Tetsu boots. They mad ugly first off. They're like shin high, about a 5-6 inch platform (maybe more) and they black with belts and buckles around the calf, shin area. So why do I want them? I decided to revamp my style. Little by little I wanna look more like a Jrocker (I know I'm so weird) so I wanna get a lot of funky shoes/platforms, and necklaces and bracelets and rings and stuff with tighter more designer-ish style pants. Ahh...I know..I'm weird. So my Tetsu boots will be the first item I want. Plus, they really do look like some shoes Tetsu would wear XD I don't like Hyde's shoes and Yuki mostly wears sneakers/regular boots...so yeah...anyway...
I'm trying to get the rest of the Desire video which I will prolly try for again today when I'm home. I got my other perfomance, annnnnd I will try for the Believe video next. ^.^ Auwon, why are you watching Kyo eat raw eggs with fake blood? O.o;;; that man has issues....no fuck that he has the whole subscription. Everytime I see him, he looks....uh...*thinks for the right word*....funky. >.>
I don't know if that's good or bad. He looks really...drugged. AH THERE YOU GO, better word. Drugged. Dude looks drugged everytime I see him. *wouldn't be surprised if he was* but he just...I don't know but I just know I can't be scared of no man with a butterfly looking tattoo on his arm...-.- I mean come on...how...retarted is that? It looks like a butterfly to me...I could be wrong...but it sure as hell looks like one. >.> Besides, Toshiya (is a bassist Auwon not guitarist thas Kaoru) is about a million times sexier XD when he decideds to look like a guy anyway...>.> *and this is why I like Yuki but love Ta a million times more* I broke off almost all my nails except my pinky one which of course now looks like I snort coke...considering how I act most of the time, I don't think that's a good thing...*is rambling*
I'm going to ANOTHER breaker comp this Sat. *does 1Tym dance* I can't wait because hopefully Mark will go too. XD he had a flyer in his hand when we were at the last comp. But I really wanna get at Jose, which is Daniel's best's friend's older brother ^^;;;;; I know...I know..but Jose is SO DAMN SEXY XD *makes BC gag* I can't help is I'm attracted to that...tall, thin, killer smile type. ^^ Downside, he's in Philly for I think school? Bad times....sooo...there's no one besides Jose and Mark I really want. =P
Which is why I'm remaing single for Valentine's Day. -.-
Can I just say how much I hate this fucking holiday? For as long as I remember I've never had a Valentine's Day with a guy. It's always been my best friends...don't need a man would like one though. Anyway...um...OH speaking of Valentine's Day the only thing I really have to look forward to is Sunnie's stories after the holiday. He's got something planned for him and Mikey *big aww* AND since Mikey doesn't read my blog because he's too busy, I will blow up Sunnie's spot and explain his plan because he can't keep a secret and neither can I.
Okay so...on Thursday morning, after Mikey goes to school, Sunnie will get up, get dressed, pick up his arrangment of roses and orcids (wow butchered that) that he paid for in advance, then go to NYU (Mikey's school), get him out of class where they will then go to the STANHOPE (my fav hotel *sob* also one of the more expensive ones in NY Manahatten) where they will spend countless hours making sweet love. Jealous anyone? *raises hand* If anyone else is envious please raise your handss...-.- OH and not only will Mikey get flower, the chance to show how loved he is, a good hotel room and a bangin boyfriend that loves him more then anything, BUT he will also being getting *drumroll please* a brand new ring! Yes, I know he already has one...but he's getting another one. -.- Sunnie thinks the other one is "not good enough for Wifey's finger" so he got him another one that he will insist Mikey wears in his wedding finger. -.- *is really envious now*
Anyway I better go pay my stupid school....*hates them so much right now* Laters!!
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, February 11, 2002
.___Breaker Comp___.
@10:22 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Wherever, Whatever by: Shakira]
Okay I know I haven't blogged in a hot minute so I guess now is as good as time as any. Espically since I actually did something last night. OKay well...I'll start after I went to math. I came home, chores, then I waited till it was 3. I was calling Pookie and BC back and forth because I wasn't sure if I was picking up Pookie from the train station. Well turns out when I called him he was already in Jersey, so I didn't need to get him. I did however need to pick him up from where he was. Unfortunatly I had no idea where that was, so I called BC and asked if she would get him for me. In a few minutes, my mom called and asked me to get her from work early because she didn't feel well. So I go and get her.
After I pick her up, she asked to go get her some mediaction because she needed it for her sinus. So I had to run that erran and also get someting to eat. Around 4, I got back home and I called Pookie to let him know I was home. Around 5 he came over, and he brought his break dancing tape (which I recommended) and we watched that. It was about 2 hrs long and I was like O.O WHOA the whole time. It was a good tape. It was like the best breakers/breaker crews from Korea ^.^v they were all pretty jjang. There were even girl breakers. Anyway after the tape was done, we got ready to start leaving. I had to change my shirt because I wanted to wear something else with my new J-rocker jeans. I got them the day before, and they skin tight, and also have a lace up side which is why I call them J-rocker jeans. I got a white sleeveless shirt and braved the cold (which wasn't really that cold) and we left.
After a quick pit stop at White Castle (WHICH IS SO VILE X.X) Pookie had to eat, we went to the comp. I saw Mark!!!! *does happy dance* I also kept calling Christine, well....should I say the new Akio, because she was going to join us. At the breaker comp I saw Mark first, after I done did hunt him down and he was wearing some blue baggy jeans and a gray sweatshirt with a black bandanna. Lookin all good. Anyway as we waited for the comp to start, we were told it was cancled. (OH BC was also there which I wasn't sure if she was goona) I was pissed. I was ready to leave. But I really didn't want. But the comp wasn't cancled, it was moved. We all traveled to the other side of the campus and the breakers did their moves there. I found Mark there too. And Pookie and a small circle of breakers were moved to the other side of the room as the bigger crowd with the linolum (wow I butchered that) floor was on the other. I got to take pictures of Mark in his moves XD lots of skin baby XD. Anyway, the cops then came and said it was an unauthorized event and we were told to break it up. So, Akio, Jun and Me left with Pookie. I didn't talk to Mark. Not wanting to go home, I wished Pookie a happy birthday (cuz it was his bday) and I got my stuff and got in BC's car and Akio followed us to Pines to play pool.
We played a few games and I was starting to pick my game up again. Before we got to play, we went to eat because there was a 10 minute wait because there were alot of people there. So we ate, and then we went to play pool. Akio and me played first while Jun went and bout some cigarettes. We all lit up and we played. Akio won then me, then Akio again. -.-;;; and she said she sucks....-.-v liar. LOL Anyway when we were done, we left and I saw this guy I use to like come in. His name is Simon. So we paid for our game and then we left. As we walked out, Jun was like, holla, dude says he knows you. I'm like O.o moe hae? So I turn and I see this OTHER guy I use to go to high school with. He use to like me...was my stalker for a while -.-...and he was next to Simon. So dudes name was Peter (of course I didnt remember that till I ws in BC's car) so I was like heeeeey....wut's up ^_^ *hug* and he was like nothing how you doing. You remember my boy right? (points to Simon) Simon waved. I'm like yeeeeah....I remember him. I gave a slight wave *back to Peter* I made small talk before I was like.....wellllllllllll I have to go. Bai bai and I waved to Simon after giving Peter another hug and I left.
Of course...my night STILL wasn't over. Jun decided to be smart and take a different route home. Of course, this route led us through 3 different towns....and I was like OMG JUN where are we? She was like it's an adventure...-.- her and her adventures made me over an hour an 1/2 late getting back home. I got in trouble due to me getting home at 12 rather then around 10:30 ish/11. My mom was pissed and grounded me. Which sucked for me because I was invited to another breaker comp next week. I went to bed. I talked to Jun later and then we went to bed. This morning, my mom wakes me up and shes ina good mood. We go to the mall and go see Collateral (wow butchered that too) Damage. Movie SUCKED....BUT the upside, I got to see the trailer for Queen of the Damned WOOOO it looks SO GOOD but I know its gonna suck. I may actually do a layout sometime in the near future (after my other 2 ideas) of the Queen because damnit I love Aaliyah the Queen, you will address her properly. Anyway, I bought my new purse, my new Fendi purse XD and then we went to eat. Then I came home and I've been relaxing ever since. *whew* also another few details from the breaker comp, Akio said Mark was cute wooo and he's perfect for me. Well of course he is, we look CUTE together!!! XD
Yeah....good times. XD Akio got me saying that....and I got Sunnie saying that too. LOL oh man AND yesterday Dale, or should I say "Mark" called me. I was like omg whhhhhhhyyyy are you calling me?? He's so annoying. On the upside he's talking more...-.- just wish he wasn't to me. *sigh* so annoying. OH and FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY, I was able to get the rest of my Desire perfomance. *jjang* my next goal, is to get the Desire MV, which I already saw part of and I want the rest of because Sugizo is just a sexy sexy bitch. XD AND.....
*yawn* I'm watching Dracula 2000 *worst vamp movie ever* and I'm ALMOST done getting my new Desire clip. *does 1Tym dance* Laters!!
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, February 10, 2002
.___The Big Pink Slut___.
@08:05 a.m.
[Currently Listening to Happiness by: Glay]
Okay before I go off on my tangent (I LOVE that word..) I have to take some of the quizes on Aoki-chu's blog. ^.^v
See which Greek Goddess you are.
I AM THE QUEEN OF ALL GODDESS...MWHAHHA *evil Zim laugh* HOW U LIKE ME NOW XD
I'm a sleepy bear ^_^
 Refined, elite, with impeccable taste in the finer things of life... that's you. Because of your tendency to look down on those who you think are on a lower level than you, people may think you're arrogant, but hey, who can blame you? You've been there, done that, and are pretty darned good at whatever you've put your heart into doing. Which Insane Bishounen are YOU? |
I AM better then YOU...XD
Um...jjang? ^^;;;;
Me and Aoki got a lot of the same results...
Okay that's it for tests. Okay...so I'm in school. It's 8:18 in the morning annnnd it's snowing...-.-;;;; UGH I made the mistake of wearing my platformed heels today for lack of anything better to wear...-.-;;; I already wore all my pretty shit and now I'm down to the nitty gritty. So I wore my stupid rican jeans which really AREN'T rican cuz they aint clingin like Rican jeans should, and my Bebe black sleeved, white body shirt with my usual black knee length coat over it which I'm starting to hate by chance...-.-. Anyway so I hate it...it's hella annoying....I can't BELIEVE it's snowing...and 2morrow I have the breaker comp which is like only the biggest event of my small and miserable life...-.- now my mom is gonna have a fit because I may have to drive but I may actually get out of driving which is always jjang.
Anyway...okay back to the topic at hand. I have Winmx (my replacement for Napster) and you can d/l videos off the shit. Of course because I have evil dial-up rather then nifty cable, it takes, literally hours for me to get a 5 minute show/MV so I don't usually get anything video wise from Winmx. 2 days ago on a whim I decided to see what I can find on Winmx anyway. I found a whole shit load of Luna Sea videos which of course struck my fancy. I thought about d/ling a video, espically Desire but first I had typed in Sugizo to see if I can get anything on just my sexy slut alone.
After a Hide and Sugizo interview *which I was so not happy with* I deleted it because it was visual kei Sugizo I.E too much hair, too much make up, too much clothes. Then I tried getting Prayer which I only managed to get the first minute of. Which didn't show me shit other Sugizo's bare feet, part of his chest (which was covered by a coat -.-* him playing guitar and his blurry profile. -.- So I deleted that. I decided to try once more before I moved on to Luna Sea, and I got something Sugizo interview for Lucifer so I downloaded and got like a 2 minute or so clip of my sexy slut talking, laughing and doing a interview for his solo song Lucifer XD *drool* he's got the cutest smile ^___^
Anyway, I moved on from that and went to Luna Sea as I started entertaing the thought of spending hours to d/l Desire as I said before. Instead, I saw something called Desire Luna Sea Period End Live 12.24.98 so I remembered in one of my clips of Luna Sea perfoming Desire Sugizo and Ryuichi kiss XD so I wondered if hey, maybe they kiss again...or maybe they do something equally as fun. ^.^ so I started the hours long d/l. I was cute off the 1st time and only managed to get the first minute and 24 seconds. I watched what I had to see if it was even worth continuing...
It was..
After seeing Ryuichi say DESIRE!! DESIRE...to the audience, the song starts. I see my slut. My sexy ass, curvy slut, standing in his thick thighs, short shorts, thigh highs and garters, a fuzzy pink vest that happened to match his hair and boots of course. His fuck me boots XD I was like O.O OMG!!! I watched what I had till the end, which was only the first minute like I said. Him and Ryuichi got close to each other as they sang "Desire" in sexy sexy voices XD
GOOD TIMES!!!!
So I decided to continue it that night. I only managed to get up to 60% before I had to get off. So yesterday, after searching for hours without result, I FINALLY found it. It was busy, but I waited. I only managed to get 77% all night because it kept getting busy. I watched what I had again. My sexy bitch of a slut kept running around in his short shorts, doing his solo making his guitar wail and scream as he leaned back, opened his mouth and looked....very....orgasmic...XD
As I said, GOOD TIMES!!!!
Once I get home today, I'm back on the search and hopefully, I'll be able to finish it. I wanna see my pink slut XD why is he the only other man besides my baby Ta that can make pink look good? I HATE pink...but in their cases...I LOVE it...XD
*sigh* The snow let up some....nevermind spoke to see *glanced out window* I also decided that I may be picking up Petals Black again because I FINALLY finished 36 Moons sorry fans of 36 Moons I don't know what else I can do with it and it's pretty long already (136 chapters!!! X.x) I just have to send them over to Gab to upload for me and post for me when I'm not in school because I unfortuntly forgot my disk again -.-;;; Anyway, I think I had a few fans for Petals Black I'm not entirly sure, which is why I'm hesistant about starting it up again, though I sorta liked it.
Speaking of liking a fic, I finished Fallen which I was very pleased with ^___^ a lot of other fans seemed to be pleased too *is proud* Now I have to think up a new fic which I'm sorta having a hard time doing. I would like to take some time in thinking about it because like I said, I don't wanna do a half assed one like before. I'm tired of following the good fic, bad fic, good fic pattern. So I'm gonna take my time in thinking of a good plot for this next one.
Wow I'm really rambling. Anyway it's my blog I can ramble if I so choose >P anyway last night I talked to BC (the breaker comp is at 8 BTW to all those I invited) and she was telling me how she was mad at me for a hot minute. I'll sorta explain. A situation came up with a friend of ours and she was telling me something BC did. And BC was angry with me because I didn't defend her. I didn't defend her because I wasn't sure...plus, previous circumstances caused me to not be sure if it was a lie or the truth. I didn'r defend her, but I didn't confirm it either. So BC got upset with me saying I didn't defend her and she defends me all the time which makes me wonder who the fuck is talking about me that she needs to defend me. -.- so called "friends" I guess.
And this is why I hate almost everyone and I'm trusting.
*sigh* But she was only mad for a second, she got over it. We started talking about her snow boarding trip last weekend and about how Hee Jun could be or may not be well endowed but he's all about girth. If you noticed, that boy is thick. Thick and sorta stout, but I'm more worried about the thickness....>.>;;;; think about it...Jae Won is long and slender (hooray for SR unni) so is my baby, Woo Hyuk is tall and strong...XD and....well let's jus pray Tony is making up for that non existant ass somewhere. But Hee Jun is THICK...thick AND big. Big lips, big hair, big eyes, thick body, thick fingers, big feet, big ass, thick thighs....I'd worry if I was trying to nail Hee Jun. X.x;;; worse off, if he REALLY knows what he's doing he could tear someone in 2...
LOL man I wish I could see my daughter Aya's reaction to this. LOL XD
I miss my YAKUZA!!!!! *glompies all yakuza, here and MIA*
Okay...no more rambling. I'm gonna sit here and check pages now since I'm able to see pics here. ^.^ Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, February 7, 2002
.___Randomness at Emanuel's House___.
@09:34 a.m.
[Currently Listening to: Finale by: L'arc~en~ciel]
Mwhahahah I'm...that....*can't spell*
MWhahaha and the WIND
Okay no more tests I didn't like any more of the others Maki had had on her blog because YES I stole these from her. Mwhahahahha Oh wait no sorry one more
Okay now I'm done. Well after I dropped my mom off at work I came back to Emanuel's house and like I called it, we're not going to class. Mwhahahah. We stayed in his bed all day listening to music as we stayed warm under his blankets and talked for a bit. ^_^ Only recently did I make him get up and we went downstairs. He's making me breakfast, I'm blogging. It's like being married. Mwhahahhaa
So that was fun. ^.^ Yesterday I didn't do much after I got my paper typed up, just went to English. I have math 2morrow. Then when I was home, Emanuel called me on his spiffy new cell phone, and I heard his hyung in the background. Excitable! Not...-.- dude was so monotone. I was like Emanuel, tell him I said hi. So Emanuel is like okay, he says "Hyung, she says hi" and then I heard the most BORING BLAND HI in my life -.-;;; i was like "Whoa Emanuel, tell ur hyung to calm down, he's gonna hurt himself." LOL Okay he laughed for like 5 minutes. Mwhahahahha
He's makin french toast faboo ^_____^ it's 9:51 right now...around 12:45 I have to go back home...boo. *sigh* man its cold down here >.< after I just spent like 2 hrs staying warm. LOL OH when we were laying down, Emanuel stabbed himself on my barbwire necklace *which I'm still wearing* LOL it was mad funny. I'm wearing my Yukkie bracelets and my Hyde necklace. faboo ^.^
I also had the privilage to explain about Spoongebob to him. I explained the whole evil thing. Evil? EVIL! *screams* THERES EVIL AFOOT! To the invisble boatmoblie AWAYYY! So that was pretty funny. Mwhahaha okay well...I'm gonan go bug him, have breakfast and then smoke a little. *gaw* needs to quit...but no one is around nagging me not to smoke...-.-;;;; *needs to be nagged* but...u know now its not gonna work because anyone who nags me now is doing it cuz I sed so. LOL that doesn't work. U know...it's funny. I know what I'm putting into my body when I do smoke...yet...I do it anyway. Hm...>.> Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, February 5, 2002 .___Pool, H.O.T, and the new Akio?___.
[Currently Listening to: Honey by: L'arc~en~ciel]
Okay so I'm the compy lab of my school now...*yawn* It's 8 in the morning I have a paper to type up and I'm blogging instead....^^;;; you can see where my priorties are. LOL
Okay so let me blog about my weekend first. Bwee I had a life! Sorta...okay well Sat. I was due to go to the mall then to Pines with Christine. I woke up at 11:30 all by myself, had breakfast with my parents and then took a shower, washed my hair, then let it dry as I waited for it to be 3. I started the finishing touches on a drawing that I should have done later because the next thing I know, it's 2:45. I start getting ready, and when I'm done it's a little after 3. I pick up my stuff (but my mom has the NERVE to call me in her room to tell me shit she's been repeating to me about a million times. So hella annoying) anyway so I leave and I'm rushing to get to the mall trying NOT to speed, and I get there and there's no fucking parking...of course....so I finally find a place to park in CHINA...and then I rush to go meet Christine. I apologize for being late espically since the night before I was telling her how Ghost always made me late -.-v But she forgave me. ^.^ And we walked for a while, checking out stuff. I made her laugh like a billion times which is cool because most of the time, I just sound stupid. I also found a faboo Fendi purse which I plan on buying sometime this week AND my biggest and best find, a Hyde Barbwire necklace XD (which I am rocking right now) I bought it after a little consideration and then we went to Pines to play pool.
At the pool hall which is prodominatly Korean, me and Christine were the only non-Koreans. Well except 2 of Christine's friends. We go in and the guy who runs the hall knows Christine so he saud "Ahnyoung hae sae yo" to her as a joke because she goes there a lot. So then he turns to me and goes "ahn young hae sae so" and I give a slight bow of the head and go "ahn young hae sae yo!" And the guy is like O.O *gasp* You know Korean!? I'm like a little ^^;;; *ah yes shock from the little Hispanic girl that knows a few words( so then he gives us the balls for the table and we go. When he hands them to us, I'm like "kamsanida!" And again he's like O.O whoa! LOL It was great I shocked the hell out of him. Mwhahahaha. So we go play pool. I'm a little better then I thought I was, mostly because any other time I ever went to play pool, I went with Te and he never let me play -.- but me and Christine did and she beat me...though the 1st game I was close! The 3rd one I won but only because she sunk the 8 ball by mistake. So I won by default.
Afterwords we went to eat at the pizza place beside it and some 41 yr old man was hitting on Christine (but not me because he was "sure I was probably a good looking girl" wee way to shoot up the ego -.-v) LOL anyway we ate, and as we did an Asian Invasion came in. It was empty 2 seconds ago. After that, we finished and we left. During the convo I stated that she should be Akio, an idea I've been entertaining for a while now. It's amazing how well she suited the part because of what she said in her blog. I was like wow...okay then, maybe I should talk to the other Yakuza about it and we could have an Akio ^.^
OH OH I forgot, when we were playing pool, I kept trying to sink the red ball and the number 7 at different times and THE STUPID BALL WOULDNT GO IN -.- stupid Tony. I kept getting so mad. But that's okay because Christine couldn't get the green ball to go in LOL. AND she tried knocking Hee Jun (the yellow ball) in but she kept moving towards the green ball instead. LOL Junta. And anytime she shot the red ball in, the blue one would follow. LOL Tonhyuk. There was Hyukta at one point when I knocked the blue ball over to the green one by mistake ^^;;; but it was so jjang. There was a purple one too which was Baekyoung. LOL
Ah but it was fun. On Sunday I did my paper (which I have to type up after this) and then I watched Shrek which was mad cute. Then I went to watch the Superbowl, (the Patriots won!! WOOOO) and then I went to watch Queer as Folk. Tonight I'll watch OZ and then Tuesday I'll watch Sex and the City. The breaker comp is this Friday!! YES YES YES which is also happens to be my boy Pookie's birthday ^^ aww. He'll b 20. ^_^ breaker comp, break comp!! yes!! Hopefully Mark will be there (WE LOOK SO CUTE TOGETHER) and then...yeah....LOL I have to find out what time it starts so I can pick Pookie up fromt he station before hand.
^_^ I still love my layout. It's soooooo faboo!!! *perma glomps Maki* Yeeeeahhhh my dongsang can read my mind. Mwhahahahha hey Gab get out of my head, you might like it in there. LOL Okay I really have to go write my paper. I got 1 hr to do it. ^^;;;; oppsie...I blogged longer then I ment to. Ooo 2morrow I get to see Emanuel. Wonder if we'll go to class this time...LOL.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, February 4, 2002 .___New Layout!___.
[Currently Listening to: Nothing]
I got a new layout. Jjang ^_________^ What brought this on? Well simple what is more Devastingly Beautiful then my baby Ta. *sigh*
I thought it was suiting. Mwhahaha thankies to Maki *glomp*
Okay....so...yeah....I'm sorta watching the Superbowl. For those that don't give a damn, neither do I, but I accidently picked the winning team so far so I wanna see if I'm right. Mwahaha the patriots are winning against the rams so far. It's the second half...so I kinda hope they do win, just so I can be right. ^.^
I wrote out my English paper which I will type up before I go to class 2morrow AND I'll blog in further detail about how I went out with Christine ^.^ She sorta did in her blog I surprised the guy at the pool hall when I was like annoyoung hae sae yo ^___^ LOL more details laters. Okay g2g eat. I'll blog 2morrow after I do my paper in the compy lab. ^_^ Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, February 3, 2002 .___*YAWN* -.-zZzZzz___.
[Currently Listening to: Dejavu by: Luna Sea]
I'm at school this time. *yawn* It's 8:11 in the morning and I just woke up 1/2 hour ago from sitting in my car, dozing in and out of sleep. Stupid me I forgot to do my rough draft of my paper and I wanted to do it now...but I got net access here...so I'm sorta side tracking 1st. *yawn*
I'm so tired...X.x Anyway, I did blog again yesterday but something is seriously wrong because anytime Maki tries to post for me, it's not working....maybe it's other pita people too? >.>;;; anyway, it works fine when I try to blog from other places....I really should do my rough draft. But I forgot to bring a disk with me...damnit now I have to do this and then write it up again later. What a hassel. I have till 9:30 to do this...so I have a little time to slack off.
Right, back to Emanuel's hyung. I met him the other day, actually I bloggrd about him 1/2 hour after I did my 1st blog. He was cute, (his skin is jacked) but he's cute. A total Asian stereotype though...and "stuff" I'm still not allowed to say...you know I really shouldn't blog about the guy right now because I'm really tired and I might say something I'm not suppost to and have Emanuel all mad at me forever and a day because I talked about his hyung...so I'm changing subjects.
hm...okay well....I really should...go do my paper before I forget...OH I took my student ID yesterday I never did before because I never found a need for it, but now i need it to get into the stupid compy lab *hassel* so I took one and it looks like I got a mug shot taken instead. I look all pissed off...it turns out I ALWAYS have that scowl on my face....so I'm always looking that mad. At least that's what my parents say. -.-;;;;; so I'm scowling alot...do I HAVE a reason to be happy? (No I don't think so..) So why the fuck should I smile for no reason. =p
My throat is all dry...I wish I had some caffine...I'm about to have a cigarette just for the nicotine boast I need SOME kind of stimulate....plus it doesn't help that I gave money to Emanuel the other day because he didn't have any cigarettes and when he bought them, it was a 2 for 1 kind of thing so he gave me the other pack...X.x blah I shouldn't smoke...but you know...they there. And the best alternate for caffine is nicotine which is why the 2 go hand in hand. I'd smile but I'm tired -.-v
Okay gonna go do my paper now...laters.
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, January 31, 2002 .___Temp Relief___.
[Currently Listening to: Emanuel by: Emanuel]
I'm at Emanuel's house. Bweeeeee. I get to blog on a real compy without having to rely on Maki for once. *sigh* It feels so good. I miss doing this. I can't wait till I get my compy fixed so I can blog normally once again.
Emanuel is playing with his dog. Hu hu hu hu~ it's the cutest thing in the world. That's why I'm basically listening to him other then the usual Luna Sea/Larc stuff I'm usually jamming to when I blog. ^.^v But it's cool. I have no qualms with that.
So, Emanuel has a hyung...*coughcough* can we say another form of temp relief? Mwhahahah *does evil Zim laugh* Evil? EVIL!! *scream* There's EVIL afoot! To the invisble boatmoblie AWAY!! *clears throat* anyway, back to Emanuel's hyung. No name cuz...I'm not allowed...>.> *looks at Emanuel* but from what I know, he's "not my type" meaning, he's a nice guy. LOL No I'm kidding theres sum stuff, oh wait "STUFF" I can't say *dongsangs I'll tell you all later, Aoki-chu you will die when u hear this* but there's sum "STUFF" that I already don't sorta like about him...uh...la la la la....but anyway, he sounds sorta cute but Emanuel keeps saying he's "not my type." I won't make any judgments YET...must see pic or meet him whatever comes 1st. Hopefully...something will happen because I don't need a man I just really really want one.
*needs to get laid*
Yeah I had to share that mwhahahahaha XD *does Zim laugh again* So okay...away from the topic of Emanuel's hyung for now....*PS he's Korean -jjang- [throws confetti in the air]* Anyway, so I didn't have class today. I went to Emanuel's house after dropping off my mom to go to class with him instead. So we got to HIS campus only for him to talk about give or take 10-20 feet from his car to decided he rather NOT go to class. ^^;;;; I being a noona should have said "No emanuel go to class it's vital for you education" or some crap like that, but I said...okay let's go to the mall. LOL Some influence I am. So, we went it was too early so nothing was open. We ended up getting some breakfast instead and then going to Best Buy so I could exchange the retarted Shrek DVD my parents bought the other day. *still wants to see that* SO....yeah...I ended up with that little problem for a bit. So then we came back to his house...and here I am. Blogging. MAN I MISS BLOGGING ON MY OWN!! *sob*
Yeah...it's sheer arrogance that I blog anyway. Like my life and activties are SO VITAL to mankind that everyone must know about them. But I'm not arrogant...not me *falls off chair laughing* Yeeeeahh.....me and Aoki had a convo about this yesterday *she called jjang!* So yeah...I lub mah Aoki-chu. Lub mah Ghost too. Mwhahaha and my gaijiin. ^.^ *glomps to them*
Okay....so in like 15 days it's gonna b Valentine's Day and I once again have stand in Valentines. But Emanuel is gonna buy me ONE rose. >.> *looks at Emanuel* Emanuel: -.-;;;
He is so sick of seeing Ta...mwhahahahhaa but like I said, GET USE TO IT. Mwhahahhaa *does Zim laugh again*
Okay enough for now. I'll blog again laters when I have 36 Moons up and ready for another chap. Bwee....by then Maki will have to blog for me *sob* I miss doing this myself. *sigh* don't mind the typos and stuff. =P Can't do a spell check on this bad boy. ^.^v laterz.
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, January 29, 2002 .___Season Of Misery___.
[Currently Listening to: Pieces by: L'arc~en~ciel]
The song seemed apporiate. I'm suppost to be doing my English homework...which is techinically done I just have to type it up and print it. So...I guess I can take a few minutes to blog. I really have to anyway because I just read Ghost's blog *click* and she was talking about how lonely she felt when she was ice skating. I couldn't help but feel the same way not a few days ago. When I cut math class, and I was walking across campus, this overwhelming sense of lonelyness washed over me. I felt really, really alone. I didn't have a cell phone so I couldn't call anyone, no one was around...and I just couldn't help but so miserable and alone.
Even yesterday, when I was with BC and Carla, I was just thinking about had lonely I felt. Though I joked around with BC about not needing a man, but wanting one, I still felt sad. I couldn't believe that I was so lonely for company. But even then it's not about having a man, it was just feelin lonely. Like...BC isn't affectionate, and I am, so I when I really wanted a hug, I couldn't get one, I settled for putting my arm around her shoulders for a few minutes before pulling away otherwise she would be like, "Okay get off me" which for like just a split second, hurts like hell. I don't know...I guess I feel too much...and it's usually more then it really is, but that's just me. I can't help but feel really unwanted or left out sometimes...it's why I don't like being in a big circle of people, even if they're my friends, because I sometimes feel left out. Like everyone is talking about something and I'm the only quiet one because everyone has a different subject, none to which I can relate. And I might as well be the only one in the room. D, my best friend since like 6th grade, I haven't had a chance to see her for more then a day out of a few months.
From 6th grade up until our senior year of high school, I use to talk to her everyday, and we use to hang every weekend. Things change I know that...but like I say to everyone, I'm codependant, so I latched onto BC even though I have to bare not getting any affection in return. It's been years since I've had a man...-.- but again, they're there for the physical not the emotional. Blah...I'm not making any sense.
Anyway, my lip still hurts >.< it feel sorta raw from where it was sliced open esterday. *sigh* I have no idea how I'm gonna finish Fallen though I have a lot of it finished. blah...okay i better go do my homework. Laters.
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, January 28, 2002 .___NYC Touch___.
[Currently Listening to: Evergreen -English Ensemble- by: Hyde]
Okay so....today I'm sleeping right. It's 11 in the morning, my phone rings. It's BC shes like wanna go to NY with my cousin? I'm like cool. I get up, get dressed, go. We pick up her cousin then head to NY. We go have lunch first. ^__^ Kim bap and bul go gee and rice for me, ^.^ yum so then we went to New World Music, bought nothing and then went to the Japanese store. I was gonna buy L'arc's Etoplasmic Works, but it was 30$ X.x which I didn't have. So I just bought a magazine. ^_^ Ta was on the cover. Mwhahahah AND I got a HUGE poster of him, of his upclose and some pics in the mag with one of them being of him with his back turned and he was looking back, had his hand in his pocket, and he had an ass. XD MWHAHAH but i knew he had one, it's just nice to see it. ^.^ Anyway got that and a couple free posters and then BC and her cousin just looked around clothes shopping. (I got mad cuz I found my corset but it was 24$ which I was STILL lacking -.-;;;) so anyway, after that, we went home and here I am. My feet and my lower back hurt so much because I'm just old and out of shape. >.< oh wait I forgot, we went to this wack arcade called Bar Code in Times Square. U had to be 21 or older and needed ID so I couldn't get in and neither could BC jus her cousin. So it was pretty wack, so we went to the highest level of Barcode where it's an open area. We played DDR and that's about it. -.-v AND I saw the moive poster for Queen of the Damned and I LOVE IT they have this HUGE one of it in Times Square and was like whoa...I'd give my soul for that...and BC's cousin (her name is Carla) was something like I'd sell my soul short (something like that, not in those words) and I was like, well my soul's not worth that much. But it was huge...and I loved it. I REALLY want that movie poster now. Anyway, so Barcode was wack. I cut my lip...>.< owie...and the bul go gee I was eating made it sting.
Anyway that was my day...fun fun. My head hurts and I'm damn hungry but my mom thinks I ate so...I'm not gonna be like no mom I didn't eat >.< so I just let her think I did though my head hurts. *sigh* Okay...well, I'm done for now. Imma go write some more. Fallen (for me) is almost done. Mwhhahahah *evil Zim laugh* my next fic, I might take more time in thinking of a plot because I don't wanna do some half assed fic again. I have picked up a little pattern in doing that. After doing On Silent Wings, I did, Devil and the Deep Blue Sea but that wasn't that good and I wrote it for my forum. Then I did Like Ice which was half assed so it came out bad. I got bored with it half way through the fic. I cut my losses, and decided to finish it and do my next fic which was Picture Perfect which became something I'm proud of, but then I did Finale which again was assed out. Now, I have Fallen which is better. I have to really think about the next one before I do some crappy fic...again -.-v
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Saturday, January 26, 2002 .___Had Class___.
[Currently Listening to: Acoustic Alchemy by: L'arc~en~ciel]
Okay I had my math class today. I think for the first time
I ACTUALLY LIKE IT. Why? My proff is mad cool. I missed thr first class
but it's okay. Class is suppost to start at 11 and it didnt start till 11:30 because my proff is late all the time. In fact he told us not to come at 11 because he wont be there till 11:30. We also took a pre test just to be evulated and he was like don't write anything on it yet. Then he sits down and he's like okay see that line that says name? Write ur name there. If you can't do that, then your just a dumb fuck. LOL I was dying...my proff also doesn't assign homework MWHAHAHHA
I may actually pass this class....finally....-.-v
Yesterday I had english but it was nothing really exciting, but my proff is pretty cool too. Real cut and dry. Then I went home. I miss Emanuel. I wanted to see him today but I didn't know what time he was getting home so I didn't =( I will more then likey see him Monday or Tuesday.
Tuesday I have no class so I'm gonna go to class with him ^_^
Okay....I can't upload 36 Moons for a while
because something is wrong with me uploading it as a txt thing
and doesnt upload the font and size correctly. What a hassel. Blah so sorry about the cliff hanger -.-;;;;
Man Joolez closed her blog =( poop. Man I READ your blog Joolez!!!
Oh...hm...there was something I was gonna say...but I forgot at the moment. Oh well. Okay so Imma go write...laterz.
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, January 25, 2002 .___CUT___.
[Currently Listening to: Good Morning Hide by: L'arc~en~ciel]
oooookay...so I had math this morning at 11. I end up leaving later then I wanted and I got there late. For some really weird reason when I got there, rather then walking in like I usually would, I didn't. I turned and left. I suddenly found all this fear and I didn't have the conviction to go inside. So I walked away and went outside. I felt really lonely when I walked across campus. I was cell phoneless and I couldn't call Emanuel to see if he was home and I might as well have been on the campus without a single living soul around me. It was a real bad feeling. But then I saw Changa! I ran over to him and told him how lonely I felt and how glad to see him. I stayed with him the whole time and we chilled as he got his scheudale fixed, then we headed to the mall were he treated me to lunch and I saw this GUY OMG....he was so so so dope. So fuckin sexy. I made Changa look at him and he was like so go talk to him. Having lacking the strength to go to my math class, what could have possibly made him think I had the strength to go up to some random sexy guy and start kicking beats? Yeah...
So anyway, I now have to get my 3rd video game being SNK vs. Capcom. I want it cuz a lot of my fav charcters are in it including this girl with some kick ass look called Maki ^_^v scary huh? My dongsang is in this game. I wanna get my hands on the stradegy guide to scan and show the pics. Mwhahah I might get it tomorrow.
OH I also saw david. I got excited for like 2 seconds before I was like...wait I don't like him anymore. ^^;;; Yeah anyway...that was my day. Since I cut my 1st day of math, I told Maki. My dongsang is now BRIBING me to go to class. Which is not a bad deal. 4 months of this crap....I have to complete a whole week of math. If I do, I get something of Ta each time a week goes by. If I miss one day (because I cut, snow days, canceled classes and such make this null and void) then the week is fucked and I don't get crap =p
OH MAN...okay I read some FUNNY (yet utterly disgusting shit) today. I read yaoi lemons written by real guys. What made it clear it was guys? (Gay ones I'm assuming) was the over use of the word "cock" (such an UGLY word >.<) and reeeeally funny shit like "lollipop action", "man meat", use of the word "stud", calling the guy ur fuckin "bro" and the completly unrealistic measurements of endowments being 10-12 inches long. Also the complete and total lacking of knowledge of basic anatmony.
(Yes now the average human mouth is about 5 inches in depth how can a whole 10 or 12 inch endowment fit in there? All the way? Someone was digesting ne?)
Anyway....yeah I was pretty much cracking up through the whole thing. OH OH AND leave us not mention the random out of the blue "I fucked you now I love you" thing. Romance as they fuck. Very nice. And they say girl get attached to their 1sts....and that we're too romantic...oookay. Well...anyway....besides that and the grossness of over all (eating semen ew ew ew ew) it was all around a dumb ass fic. It was too fuckin funny not to continue until the end though. Maki and I were highly amused.
OH speaking of which...time for a WERID and freaky coincedence (wow I butchered that) okay I'm a loyal watcher of the HBO show called OZ. (Also Queer as Folk but that's besides the point) so I was watching it last night and I see that the one and ONLY (well not only..okay okay prisoner, the other Asian guy is a preist) Asian guy there was brought back *cheers* He was there before I started writing 36 Moons and it's were I got the idea to name Jia Li, Jia. The guy in Oz, his name is Jia Kenimen (or something like that I butcher everything) But his first name is Jia, unlike mine who's lasy name is Jia. This Jia in OZ is also a triad but he got caught and arrested for being a snake head (don't know what that is, ask someone) so anyway, yesterday Jia came back and then his boy came in too. This other guy who was put in jail for attempted murder on 4 people...(he saw his girl cheat on him so he shot her, the dude she was cheatin on him with and 2 other people who jus got in the way) so anyway new dude (who is psycho yet sexy) came in. His last name I didn't catch, but his first...is get this...Li. I checked the spelling of it in the credits and it was just like mine. I was like OH SHIT!! JIA and LI AHHH so I freak out. Talk about freaky huh? LOL
Okay...so...that's done and fun. LOL Okay 2morrow it's off to english...oh yay....-.-
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, January 23, 2002 .___No School... YET___.
[Currently Listening to: Time Out by: J]
I hate my life.
No wait. I take that back. I don't hate my life.
I just hate what others do to it -.-;;;;
It wasn't a bad day. I loved my day. I got to spend all morning with Emanuel. I got to his house at 7:30AM after dropping my mom off at work. But when I got there his mom was going to go to work LATE so we had to go kill some time. We ended up going to his school so he could buy books. almost 45 minutes later, we get there only for the store to be closed, so we head back. By 10:30 he's making me breakfast. French toast and bacon ^.^ nummy. Then we sat on his couch and watched TV for a while. He kept cracking me up all day and it just felt nice to be hanging with him for such a long time. He also let me borrow his Luna Sea CD ^.^ weee fun fun.
The bad part of my day came when I got home. I started to crash due to lack of caffine and I got home did the dishes and then laid down for a while. I got to watch Pay ir Forward which was hella sad btw and then I was resting...I couldn't sleep because I STILL have to pick up my mom so I was yawning like crazy, all my eye liner running off as I watched some other show after Pay it Forward. Then my mom decided to annoy me by calling me 50 kajillion times...-.- I hate when she does that. And I WISH I could just sit here and write and talk to everyone, BUT in like less then 1/2 I have to leave and go pick up my mom as I listen to her harp and whine about something or other I could careless about right at this moment. I hardly slept, I'm tired and I really just wanna b left (physically) alone...like I wanna talk to someone...just not my mother...>.>
*yawn* I'll blog again later....
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || January 23, 2002 .___School Countdown___.
[Currently Listening to: Believe by: Luna Sea]
New song baby. I just got it today and I LOVE IT. Wee *claps for Luna Sea* Speaking of which, I just re-discovered (because he apparently told me before but I forgot) that Emanuel has Luna Sea's Greatest Hits CD *scream* I'm borrowing it 2morrow. Mwhahahaha
Okay so...I start school on Weds. But my mom thinks I have class 2morrow. I'm not arguing. This way I can go to Emanuel's and have breakfast and spend all morning with him and part of the early afternoon. before I have to go home and continue with my day. Then on Weds I have to start class for real. *sigh* Evil. Evil? EVIIL!! AHHH!! There's EVIL afoot!!!
Okay so I got Maki, and my mom hooked on Spoongebob Square Pants. If you don't watch it, you're a loser. LOL No I'm kidding, it's a REALLY funny show. That and Invader Zim, also something I got Maki hooked on. MWHAHHA *does evil Zim laugh* Yeah, good shows. I also just finished watching a Spoongebob marathon and 2 new episodes. Mwhaha I'm such a kid at heart. Tee hee.
So I finally got my winmx somewhat repaired. Before it was crippled because of my Windows and even though my Windows is no longer a gimp, my compy itself which is just plain retarted ATE it's own files...but I explained this already. Anyway...so I got my winmx back up. I had to filter out many files of half d/led songs and stupid crap I d/led and never listened to again so I made as much room as possible. Plus I started d/ling songs I DO listen to..like my new Luna Sea ones. Mwhahaha.
I had a doctor's appointment today but it fell through because of MORE FUCKING SNOW. Can I just say how I hate snow? It cripples everything. BC wasn't able to come over so I could FINALLY see Rush Hour 2 and she couldn't take me to the doctors (which I'm not complaining about) *sigh* But 2morrow it's off to Emanuel's house and to sit and watch Maury and have breakfast ^___^ *sigh* no more sleep or me =( not till May anyway. Blah...T.T
OH before I 4get
Part 122- Eve: the First Woman
I guess that's it for now. BLAH I can't believe I have to sleep so early. I have to take some Nyquil...must get drugged to sleep. LOL laters.
One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || January 21, 2002
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Speaking of music, my Aoki-chu's gift came in today! *celebrates* I got SMTown 3 and J's 1st album. Mwhahaha and also a bunch of poster which I must go through and then set in the approate rolls. ^.^ I lub mah Aoki-chu
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