@02:39 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Human Gate by: Pierrot]
I continued to do research about yakuza last night. I learned some rather interesting shit. It was over romantized way too much though....it's like so cool and woooow...LOL but the think is, women aren't allowed to be yakuza -.- they say they aren't strong both physically and emotionally to be yakuza. They think women should stay home and be mothers -.- and if in a situation, a woman couldn't stay silent to like a cop or something. I was mad =p BUT they kinda right, I can't keep quiet to save my life. LOL I have a blog enough said.
What else did I learn...hm...oh yeah the Yamaguchi-gumi was once run by a woman, the oyabun's wife until his right hand guy was out of jail BUT he never made it out of jail, he died of liver failure so oyabun's wifey took over for a while until another underling took over. That was pretty niffty. Anyway...yeah...I was saying all this back to Jun last night which was interesting to the both of us. =p my lip is chapped and dry and it hurts like hell because I keep picking it...which I know is a bad idea.
Riight, so Mistao was talking about sexy sexy Sugi and how he should be a dominatrix...or is that a female..? Anyway, yeah so we were talking about him for a good long time ^_^ AND she scanned some SEXY pics of him *glomps Mistao*
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm02.jpg
Sugi playing violin *drool*
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm03.jpg
Sugi looking off to the side XD *continues drooling*
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm04.jpg
Sugi's caps during his live show. Bweeeeee
http://www.geocities.com/sashi_takarai/sugi_fm05.jpg
Sexy Sugi again *drool drool*
*wipes drool off desk* Anyway...yeah....yummy..I went to Sugizo's offical site *click* and I wanted to look at the shirts they were selling, but the order form was in Japanese!! *sulk* and I was even MORE upset when I saw this poster *click* and I was like *drool* I WANT!! I would rip someone's left arm off for this poster!! But since the order form is in Japanese, I couldn't order X.X BUT I wanna bitch at those people because I don't wanna go around ripping people's left arms off! *sigh* I want this poster...
Anyway, I gotta talk to Akio about this Sat. with Jun...we might go out again. WAH but Ghost won't be here...;.; boo. But at least 3 yakuza are fine ^^ hehehehe okay time to go write. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 22, 2002
.___YG Family___.
@06:48 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Time is Dead by: Luna Sea]
Take the Wich YG Family Gang Pae are you? Quiz!
You damn right XD *takes out 9 and lights a cigarette*
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 21, 2002
.___Yakuza...continuing from Mistao's Blog___.
@03:05 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Dear from xxx by: Due le Quartz]
Waaaaah!! Mistao I'm sooooo soo soo sorry I couldn't talk to you last night! Mistao IMed me just as I was about to get off because my dad was all err being very nazi like about me being on at certain times during the weekdays. Like weekends I can stay online until like the sun rises and my eyes are red and bloodshot from staring at a compy screen all night but during the weekdays I have to be off at a certain hours -.-;;; well anyway Mistao I'm sorry (_ _) Oh but I read your blog *click* and since most of it was about Yakuza and I couldn't talk to you before *sniffles* I'll answer and comment everything now ^^
1- The origin to why the yakuza tattooed himself comes from Bakuto. They usually tattooed in a black ring around the arm for each crime they committed. The tattoo was to illustrate you were unwilling to accommodate yourself to societies rules and norms. Now is it to illustrate your clanbelonging.
This I knew about the whole tattooing themselves. The tattoo pieces were often huge, taking up most of their bodies and took over 100 hours to accomplished. It proved how much you were willing to stand out of societiy. The only one who really follows this in 36 Moons is Toki who has his entire back covered in a tattoo. Fun question for everyone! How many tattoos do you think each of the 36 Moons have?
2- There are freelance yakuza and clan yakuza. Freelance yakuza's are usually the bitches of the clan yakuza's 'cuase they get blamed for stuff or used but sometimes they come in handy and they might be smart enough to start their own clan. If not they end up joining a clan. In the clan yakuza the head is called Oyabun which means father. And below him is Saiko-komon, Waka-gashira and Shatei-gashira and below them are the Kyodais meaning brother and below them are the children which are like the hencemen. There can be sub-clans in the clan but in the end their main boss in the Oyabun.
Yeah in 36 Moons, Jia was addressed as the oyabun from other syndicates. Mostly everyone closest to him called him Jia (his last name) except for Toki who always called him Li (his 1st name) The saiko-komon, waka-gashira and Shatei-gashira would be like The Yami, Nishiki, Yuki and Takuro. Sub syndicates that worked under the 36 Moons. BUT Jia was always the oyabun and in charge. *claps* Yeah man I did reasearch for this bad boy.
3- The yakuza has been around for over 300 years O.O And it started with the Kabuki-mono, these were guys in feudal Japan that went around terrorizing ppl for the sheer pleasure of it. And they carried long sword and had odd hair and clothes. Well they stood out from everyone else ^^. They were eccentric samurai baby! XD They were just gangsta' *cackle* 'cuase they spoke with a lot of slang and well you get the picture. Hey how come no one has made an anime about Kabuki-mono? Oh Kabuki-mono were servants to the shogun of the era. Poor kabuki-monos ^^;; Hehee
Okay that I didn't know. I didn't go THAT far back into reasearch for yakuza. But damn I agree Mistao...that would make a kick ass anime. ^.^b
4- Yakuza trace their origins to the Machi-yakko, these guys defend villages and ppl from wrong-doers ^^;; And they were good gamblers and that's how they developed a tight knit relationship amongst each other.
Yeah didn't know that either. I just knew that yakuza have a tight relationship with each other. It's like family, so they have each other's back...um...except in the case of Toki and Jun ^^;;;;
5- The real yakuza emerged around 1700 and consisted of Bakuto, Tekiya and Gurentai. The all had one thing in common, they were poor, deliquents, landless and misfits. Wai see poorness bonded them, awww *_* LOL. So then they started to develop a family type of relationship and so emerged the Oyabun (father) and all the other ppl beneath, Kobun became his children of sorts.
Again...I didn't know that. Interesting to know though ^^
6- Oh oh, the initiation ritual was this:...*drumroll* They exchanged sake cups! to symbolize the entrance into the clan. Oh the ceremony was preformend in front of a shinto altar and there were different amounts of sake in the cup depending on your status.
YES!! I am so mother-loving smart!!!! This happened in the 36 Moons!! Mistao you'll read about it later, but the whole, initiation ritual with sake was done. *claps* I'm GOOOOD XD WAH it even happened in a shinto shrine!! *does 1Tym dance*
7- During the 1800s the yakuza began to establish ties with the government so that they wouldn't get harrased and stuff.
This happens now too ^.~*
8- During the 1950s the members of the yakuza rose to more than that of the Japanese army ^^;; Hehee.
Didn't know that ^^;;;
9- Ohhh the Yamaguchi-gumi is Japan's most powerful syndicate. Wahahaha after the Japanese government passed a law against individuals in crime organizations, the Yakuza had to lay low and pretend they had legit businesses by using businesses they controlled as fronts. LOL omg they published a book, they yakuza that is, published a book entitled "How to avoid the law".
Well okay so the Yamaguchi-gumi is Japan's most powerful syndicate. That's why 36 Moons is fiction ^^b besides. Betcha my yakuza are a million times sexier XD
A few more fun tidbits of info, there is something called Yubitsume where if someone from the syndicate disrespects the oyabun, they must cut off the tip of their pinky finger and present it as an apology. >.<;;; owie...whatever happened to "I'm sorry, I'll kill someone for you"? OH and IF the disrespect continues, they have to cut off the OTHER pinky tip and so on and so on or until the oyabun just gets tired of them and kills them.
Sake-zukigoto is a pledge made over cups of sake. It's a great ceramony and the pledge is more binding then a written contract >.<;;;
"Big-brothers" exisist to show the newest one around. They are in charge of making sure the new one doesn't make any mistakes and they recieve as much respect from the new one as if they were a oyabun. (Which they're not of course but you know the respect thing..)
Yeah good times. ^.^ LOL and I love how Mistao really quoted Toki this time XD LOL *claps* he is a fiend isn't he? But he's fun ^.~* it's what makes him so loveable. And yes, yes it's true, Toki will not fuck a Japanese woman, only foreign ones. BUT, he will fuck a Japanese boy in like 2 seconds. XD U'll read about that later on though. Hm...what made write up 36 Moons...well easy. I had just gotten my hands on a new manga called Sanctuary. The more I read it, the more I loved it. And I was like, hey...with enough reasearch, I can write my own Yakuza story. So, I pulled up the research, learned a little Japanese, continued reading Sanctuary, and 36 Moons was born. ^_^
Yeah real Yakuza are so much more ickier then MY Yakuza. They old and fat...and...ew..>.< I know it's rare and kinda unheard of that a 23 year old would take over a whole syndicate, espically in Japan, but...hey damnit, that's why it's fiction. Speaking of bishie yakuza...
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Taistanding_36Moons.jpg
Mwahahha the sexy Tai pic I've been meaning to draw. ^.~* Okay...I did nothing all day I woke up at 1:30 and washed my hair YAY. LOL okay yeah...so Imma go and wait for my new layout as I write up Serve the Ego laters~
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 21, 2002
.___Upon Waiting___.
@03:16 p.m.
[Currently Listening to: Muddy Blood by: Due le Quartz]
CURRENTS...
Current Clothes: Navey sweats and a black tank top. My aeropostale fleece is hanging behind me and socks.
LAST PERSON...
You Touched: My side. It's all itchy =p
FAVORITE..
Food: Pizza, bul-go-gee
ARE YOU...
Understanding: Sometimes
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
Kill: *whips out list...*
Bweee...I'm just waiting for Gab to finish up my layout. Mwhahaha Mistao, Helyane, Mifyuu, you guys will love it XD Mwhahahhaa and my daughter too. Bweeeee *dances around* Oh, ne Mistao *click* you had me dying!! LOL let me tell everyone how she really quoted Aya from 36 Moons when he first met Toki and he was offered a cigarette and he was asked if he smokes, his response: "There's a lot of things I blow" LOL And it was quoted!! LOL LOL *falls off chair* Ahh that was great. I'm glad you like Toki though. He's a horn ball, but he's got his good points ^.~* *feels proud* oh Mistao, I was gonna IM you last night but you didn't get on till like all late and I had to go =p Bweee I have a Hyde necklace! it's my pride and joy. It stabs me in the neck, and it leaves abrasions on my neck but I love it anyway!! ^.^ Bweeee but thank you for the link anyway, I'll get more stuff there watch. Mwhahhaa
Anyway, Mifyuu *click* I hope your arm is okay >.< I heard that was really painful and the cast is itchy. >.< how long you have to keep it on for? Hope it doesn't drive you insane though >.< I finally got the winmx situation fixed though. I just now remove all the paths from my files. Mwhahaha I send messages to people and be like does the word CANCELLED mean anything to you? Take a hint. I did it to 2 different people last night and they wouldn't stop so I just removed the paths mwhahahaha and kept d/ling this thingy where Hyde was being interviewed and he then worked a yo yo. LOL I also got a coffee commerical where him and Tetsu where talking to each other, then Haido turns to the camara, holds up the coffee, talks, then says thank you and so does Tetsu. LOL it was mad cute.
Okay, I'm just waiting for Gab to finish up my layout. I'll blog again laters. ^.^v
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, March 20, 2002 .___Damnit___.
[Currently Listening to: Pink Spider by: Hide]
Ugh Mistao you broke me. I wish you would have NEVER linked me to the site where that Sex Bitch picture was being sold. I'm gonna go broke there. Now I have to get 2 magazine, a plushie, and like a zillion CDs. And maybe a poster...though I shouldn't get a poster...because I have NO ROOM for posters on my walls. But yea. DAMN YOU MISTAO LOL just kidding actually thnak you. ^^ Now Imma get a bunch of crap I really don't need but want just the same. *sigh* Anyway....yeah...I got cramps. Im gonna have some more ice cream and take some pain killers. Oh yeah, you can IM me whenever you want ^^ U got my SN? I have AOL it's the same as my email addy.
I didn't go anywhere today. Emanuel hasn't called or nothing so I just slept in all day. I don't have anything to do all day though I'm suppost to go out with either Steve or Jun today. I think I'm going with Jun though I haven't them both in a equal amount of time. *sigh* I might go to the mall with Jun so...I'm not to mad about that because I really wanna see if my Tetsu boots are being sold. I have to ask my momma when I can order my Toshiya gloves and then bring up the CDs and maybe the Hide plushie. Yes I want a Hide plushie. I'm not a big fan or anything, just the plushie kicks ass ^_^ Mwhahaha *yawn*
Okay time for some ice cream and pain killers before my cramps get any worse =p plus I have to go write. Laters
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 19, 2002 .___*pout*___.
[Currently Listening to: Be Awake by: Luna Sea]
Okay so before I was pouting because I thought I didn't have my one Sugizo pic but I got it back thanks to Helyane Bweee so hopefully I'll have a new layout tomorrow. ^^ *snuggles Gab*
Anyway....people on winmx don't know the meaning of the word CANCELLED. Auwon you know how to not share files without moving everything to another folder? I must have cancelled this one bitch 2619268763 kajillion times and she kept trying and I finally sent her a message to fucking back off and she sends a message back and tells me to take them off my directory and Im like FUCK YOU it's not my fault you don't know how to take a fucking hint. I wasn't in the mood to fuck with this fucking loser tonight so after cancelling him a couple of million times, I finally gave up and I let him d/l/ God what a bunch of fucking losers live on winmx that don't know the meaning of the word CANCELLED.
Anyway, besides that I got some random small clips of Sugizo doing...random shit. I got him doing a confirmation press conference in Taiwan where he goes "Yes. Hai" and then he nods. I see Vivian Hsu's name all over the place so I can only assume they're asking about his relationship with her. >.> ew...I got Sugizo stage diving off the stage into the audience...and the audience was like an ocean that swallowed him. Like you see his body floating there then all the sudden, he's gone. LOL I WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN THERE!! OMG I would have loved to put my arms around him and hold him, catch cheap feels...I bet Sugizo loved it. I bet that's why he did it...XD I got a clip of him introducing Glay on some show and then himself. And he does this CUTE SMILE XD I got another clip of him talking on this show called The Top Talk and he's just so pretty sometimes. I was like wah...X.x But anyway yeah...I also started to d/l like 3 different clips of Sugizo playing Pink Spider for or with or something with Hide on stage. I was like WAAH my slut running around in his short shorts again!!! YES!! Plus his guitar playing was good. And I got a chance to listen to another one of Hide's songs, Pink Spider which I went and d/led the MP3 for. So I like this song. I didn't like the other one I 1st heard, and I forgot the name of the song...but anyway, I liked Pink Spider very catchy. I'm mad as hell for itbeoing called PINK Spider. Anyway I also got to see Hide in action...which I've never seen. I always saw him with his mouth open in pictures looking....foolish. So when I got to see him in action..he looked...insane. >.> Not bad insane like Kyo insane...but like...insane. Just insane. No negative undertones or nothing. Just plain freaky. Anyway I didn't get to d/l the rest of the fucking performance because I kept getting cut off so I have like 5 or 6 different versions of the same perfomance saved on my compy so far NONE of them done. -.-;;;; UGH and any one the ones I have in que are moving -.- blah and of course people STILL don't know the meaning of CANCELLED. Oi...
Okay yeah...I'm done ranting now. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 18, 2002 .___Kindness___.
[Currently Listening to: System by: Lestat]
LOL LOL LOL Okay I'm cracking up because of Mistao's blog. A few blogs back I asked what sexy Jrocker bitches would taste like. I decided that Sugizo aka the Sex God aka The Walking Porn, tastes spicy. Yummy...XD he can burn my lips anyday baby XD *clears throat* and I will have to agree with Mistao on the rest of them Hyde tastes like Honey...oh how obvious is that >.> of course he does...
"Honey is so sweet..."
Anyway, and Gackt would be Vanilla..*licks lips* can I get a bite of Ren? XD OH YEAH
Im...I'm not down for tasting Kyo...so this is me moving on.
And of course the one that cracked me up the most...
"Miyabi: I think he would taste like...well whatever his cock taste like *yum* Wohohohohooho. *clears throat* *innocent smile*"
Toshiya...as a cherry? Ne Ghost didn't we have some Kpop guy be a cherry? I can't remember...but I think Toshiya would be something sweet...like candy...like...um...something suckable XD yummy. Like a lifesaver...or hm...Gummy bears. OH or those Sweetarts. something sweet and suckable. Ooo *having naughty hentai thoughts*
All righty...so here's what happened so far. This morning, it's cold as hell and yeah it's "spring" this Weds. It's like raining/sleeting and below 40 outside. Nice fucking spring. Anyway so I bundle up this morning because I'm just not feeling frost bite right now. Sweats, sweater, my thicker coat, boots (so my feet also dont hurt) and gloves. I should have worn a hat or something because it was raining like crazy when I left my house. Of course I realize that I should have brought a hat 1/2 way to my mom's job -.- anyway, so I get to school, and battle sleep in my car because rain makes me SO SLEEPY and it didn't help I went to bed at 1:30 and woke up at 5:45 this morning. Rain makes me sooooo sleepy. So I'm parked in the parking lot, trying not to sleep, listening to my fav radio show as they dissed JLo LOL and then I was like...okay gotta get to the compy lab. So at 7:45 I get out of my car after bundling up a little better and walk to my car. The rain was no lighter. I ended feeling soaked before I even got out of the parking lot. As I'm walking on the path down towards the building I have my English class, but I'm not going there because it's not 9:30, I see this girl beside me. And she looks at me and says "You wanna get under?" she's got this huge umbrella and she leans it in my direction. I smile and say, thank you.
No one, outside of my parents and close friends have ever been so nice to me. Strangers to me are just that, strangers. I don't mind giving the time or directions if I know where I'm going, or even helping someone with a printer/compy problem like last time I was in the lab. But for someone to do a kind act towards me like keeping me out of the rain was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for me. She didn't have to, and she certainly didn't know me, so when she offered her umbrella it was the nicest thing to me. We walked down the path making small talk about the crappy weather and then I asked where she was going. I told her I was headed in a different direction. It was okay though, I didn't get to the compy lab as soaked as I would have been if she hadn't offered her umbrella. So when we part, I thank her again and I go. It was the nicest thing. That had never happened to me before. Usually people aren't nice to me. And I'm not nice to people. I usually just ignore them, they ignore me. I've been trained to react hostile towards people due to life experienace and my parents. My parents are the most antisocial people in the world. They don't believe in kindness in humanity and good will and all that crap. And frankly neither do I. The world has become so jaded and I've been taught to treat it the way it treats me. Plus, I've already blogged about how in high school how I would be nice to certain people only to be walked all over and treated like shit in return. Since them I'm like *flips off random people* fuck off, leave me alone. And I know I would NEVER offer my umbrella to someone I didn't know. Not even some really hot guy. Just my friends or something. People in high school I KNEW wouldn't even offer me their umbrella. It could hailing balls of hail the size of small human heads and people STILL wouldn't offer you shit. This girl, who's name I didn't even get, was so nice to me. It just made my day. It was the most kindest act ever done towards me (outside of friends and family of course). It made me feel nice.
But you know...it's still fucking cold and rainey and my boots are soaked through again...-.- and I have to take an English test today. But I'm pretty much well prepared for it. Also, I have to say how last night, the yakuza 5 of us anyway held a meeting due to Ghost's suggestion. Aoki, Jun, Gab, Akio, Ghost and myself all held a meeting the Dragon Leaf. But Aoki had to leave =p boo so then Jun came in later. We were dicussing how I really don't think Jose is interested and I'm starting not to care and how I should just get over him because it's kinda making it clear to me that he wants a new friend. WELL WHOOPIE...a new friend. -.- what the FUCK am I gonna do with another friend? Like I don't have any friends. I don't NEED another friend. Well I also don't NEED a man I just WANT a man. I don't want another fucking friend. Geez he might as well be female. -.- I say this because I found out he was Edison (town about 10 minutes from me) rather then South Jersey which is like 1 hr, 45 minutes from me. I was like all righty...not like I wanted to see you or nothing...so I kinda got the impression that even him KNOWING I wanted to see him, he didn't say a word. Maybe he didn't want to see me...maybe he just forgot, I don't know. Whatever. So I was saying this to my Yakuza after Ghost finished her deal, then Akio. Jun said I shouldn't over react but the problem is, with a track record like mine, I can't help it. It also brought me to the conclusion that no matter what, even if I WANT to change from my usual asshole pattern of males I usually chase, I can't because apparently, nice guys don't want me. So even if I try not to be shallow and dig someone nice, and sweet and smart and good looking but not a pretty boy, I can't get them anyway. They don't want me. So I'm stuck with the same pattern. I also said I should just break down and just tell Hye Sung to come back already because he seems to be the only fucking one that sincerly wants my sorry ass. He and I don't mesh well, he knows that already, yet he's still there and I could get him back at any given moment which makes really consider it, espically because I'm just way too fucking lonely and Jose is obviously not interested. I am doomed to live a single life until I get to Korea. -.- which totally sucks for me.
UGH like I said, Ta will definatly have a pure wifey. >.> at the rate I'm going I'll be born again everything. -.- Ugh...I hate my life. No I don't I just hate what others do to it. *whew* long rant. I always rant when I'm at school. I have nothing better to do then sit here and listen to..*checks CD player* Luna Sea as blog. I wanted to rant about something else...
I need you. Sometimes...I get so scared that I relie on you too much....End of Sorrow...I really can't see anything but you. I love you...
Dude I LOVE this song. End of Sorrow by Luna Sea. I'm ever so glad I got this from Emanuel. Speaking of which, I don't know if I'm going to his house tomorrow. I kinda have the whole week off and I'm not sure if I wanna get up all fucking early just to sleep at someone elses house. If he calls or IMs to confirm I'll go. I just hope he DOESNT FALL ASLEEP THIS TIME!! -.- like I need to be standing in the cold for 5 minutes again. Man it's still raining. My feet are cold and NUMB....omg I think my boots got soaked through seriously...even my socks. Geez. And my hair is disgusting even though I washed it YESTERDAY. Christ. What does one have to do to have a good hair day around here!?
I'm gonna write to KP oppa and then Hye Sung I think the 3 of us need to have a talk. Not together...just indiviually (wow butchered that). Yeah...so Imma go do that. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 18, 2002 .___Ooo I got Orange Juice___.
[Currently Listening to: Crazy About You by: Luna Sea]
I'm on a roll tonight with getting stuff off Winmx. I got today Requiem by Due le Quartz and FINALLY Time is Dead by Luna Sea. And I think this is a new dedication to my Ta. The chorus is like: "Crazy about you, I can't live without you, crazy about you, I can't breathe without you..." stuff in Japanese...Crazy about you... LOL yeah but it's a good song. I'm glad I finally got it. ^_^ I think I can find the lyrics for this somewhere....I'll do it tomorrow. Or something...OMG I WANT ICE CREAM. I got orange juice instead -.- but I just filled up on cream puffs =p covered in conferate sugar which I almost ended up snorting because I ended up pinching some and putting it in my mouth but I got some one my lip and I breathed and some tickled my nose...-.-v faboo but I didn't snort which is good.
I'm finally getting a little more of the 4AM perfomance. Just a little...not a lot because it took me forever to find it. Anyway I went to see Ice Age today with my parents and I was like FABOO. But what sucked was, I was sleeping *my rare and special moments* and my dad bursts into my room and whistles and I sit up all startled and scared and I'm like what? What's happening? What's going on? Blind as hell because I didn't put on my contacts, groggy from being torn from my sleep and scared because of the sudden shattered peace. And I hear my dad going, why are you waking up scared? And my mom is like you just scared the child what do you expect? And I'm scared because I was snatched from my sleep. So my dad goes and hugs me and he's like you okay? I'm like dude I'm tired...I went to bed at 2 in the morning...what time is it? And it's like 11:30. So I get up and take a shower, wash my dirty hair FINALLY and then go see Ice Age. Ahh that movie kicked so much ass. Mwhahahah I loved it.
Okay so Im gonan finish up my orange juice and have a nice yakuza chat. ^.^v laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 17, 2002 .___Randomness VIII___.
[Currently Listening to: Into the Sun by: Luna Sea]
I got that song, Vampire's Talk though I know it's not too good I just wanted it again because I wanna be sure and Be Awake FINALLY I got all the Luna Sea songs I've been wanting EXCEPT Time is Dead -.- and just because no one is letting me get it, I REALLY want it now. I'm also finally FINALLY getting Muddy Blood by Due le Quartz. Taking me forever but it's worth it. It's sexy Miyabi or how Mistao called him the Sex Bitch. XD *licks Miyabi's tummy* yummy. Tastes like cream...mmm cream...*does Homer Simpson drool* Hm...that's an interesting thought...what would yummy Jrockers taste like? I say Miyabi tastes like cream...what would Haido, Yukkie, Sugizo, Toshiya and the plethera of sexy Jrockers taste like? I already put flavors on my Kpop people (MWHAHAH Ta is peaches, Hye Sung the strawberry popsycle, Min Woo the Blowjob, Jun Jin the candy cane, Hee Jun the cake and etc...) but...hm...what would Jrockers taste like? I think Sugizo would be spicy...XD something with spice...like...jalapino (wow butchered that) or something.. YUMMY XD hey Aeris, Mistao help me out with this one. ^^
Okay...yeah...my feet are numb. It's type cold and my time on Winmx keeps going up and down. First it's 30 minutes, thn 20, then 17 and now 30 gain. Geez -.- anyway, yeah so I wrote Serve the Ego for tonight but I didn't write anything. I think I'm gonna have to rewrite Blue soon. >.< damnit. I got 81% done on my d/l. After this I'm going to bed. I talked to NO ONE online ALL NIGHT. No one IMed me and everyone was away. =P *sigh* oh well. Anyway I won't a Gir dolly. I need to go to Hot Topic. I need to go shopping period. =p I wanna go next weekend. Anyway yeah back to Blue I might have to re write that since I only have 1 chap anyway...I might have to rewrite the ONE chapter to make the rest of the fic work better. It's not a bad idea....and I like Blue so far so I have to rewrite it...but not tonight. Maybe during Spring Break since I have nothing to do during that time anyway. ^_^ 90% done so far. *yawn*
I'm so tired...plus I wanna get the rest of 4AM the performance because I have the 1st 40 seconds of it and I LOVE IT!!! because I saw Sugizo in the background and he was wearing a vest...that's enough for me damnit. Now I want the rest. Geez it's like getting Desire all over again. All righty...well Muddy Blood is almost done. FINALLY I'm getting it. Anyway I'm gonna finish that up and then get a nosh to eat...oh yeah food tally for today and it's 1:02 AM 1 glass of milk, 2 snapples, 1 steak sandwich, pasta and chicken for dinner. Am I hungry? No, just really THIRSTY!! *sob* okay forget the nosh, Im jus gonna get another snapple. All righty time to go the d/l is almost finish 2 minutes left. *yawn*
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 17, 2002 .___Owie...I hurt my foot___.
[Currently Listening to: Anubis by: Luna Sea]
It's your laidback style that everyone seems to like and it helps you enjoy life to the fullest. Many people envy your easy-going attitude, but no one can hold a grudge against such a loveable person like you!
Weee I'm Tera Panda ^_^ jjang. I love this panda. It's like...dead...LOL
I'm green ^.^
Yes...yes I should be in Aucifer. *snuggles Yuki and Makoto's leg*
Aoki-chu blogged about what was upsetting her and I already gave her my advice. She knows what I think on the whole thing but, I agree with Ghost Aoki-chu, hopefully it's just a phase your dad is going through. See my family is disfunctional enough without having all those problems...my whole fsmily basically hates each other, my parents who have been married for over 20 yrs act more like they hate each other and argue every few hours, I can't stand my own cousin who I grew up with because he's now too cool for me. (Oh yeah, so cool that he failed his senior year of high school just to stay with all his equally cool friends -.-) my aunt is a lying, gossiping heffier that talks so much shit about my cousin and swears he's the new God when he's just a scrub and shes in denial, my Grandmothers (both of them) don't like me. And I'm not just saying this because I'm an insecure child, but nope, it's true. My mom's mom doesn't like me because I'm not a whore, and my dad's mom doesn't like me because I won't give her money and call her "Mother" -.- yeah...so Aoki-chu, you're not the only family that needs to be on Jerry Springer. Only thing is, most of my family can't speak English but swear they can but call cars and carts the same things...>.>
Anyway...yeah...so Aoki-chu *snuggles* you'll be fine.
Wah...I'm bored....Imma go write up some more of Serve the Ego and then figure out what I can do for a lemon and then d/l some more Luna Sea songs...*yawn* maybe some more Due le Quartz songs...(I still want Muddy Blood) and...yeah...hm...whatelse...yeah...I need to find some more anime pics. OH YEAH...so let me tell everyone how I hurt my foot. Okay, I've always had this problem with my right foot, and I hurt a nerve, and I hurt the bones in my foot all the time. The fact I wear platforms that carry me at least 5 inches off the floor, and then I hurt my right foot all the time. I had it fixed sorta...but now I recently hurt it again. I hurt the bone near my pinky toe on the side of my foot. It hurts SO BAD when I wear shoes and on Friday, I took off my platform and saw this huge red welt on the side of my foot. I was like X.x WAAAAHHH *sob* It didn't hurt until I got home. On Thursday, the pain was so bad when I left my English class that on my way walking to the parking lot, I took off my shoes and walked barefoot to my car. People really looked at me funny and I was like fuck you my feet hurt. I got my socks all dirty, but I don't care. I even walked barefoot home after I parked my car. So I'm barefoot now and the welt has not gone down or away and I'm like...damnit >.< I'm gonna make i worse all week...>.< owie...my poor foot.
Okay yeah...I'm done. Imma go...need to write for tonight. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Saturday, March 16, 2002 .___Luna Ciel?___.
[Currently Listening to: Be in Agony by: Luna Sea]
Yes I got the song. ^_^ Weeee okay let me explain the title of this blog. You see I was talking to Gab about all the random Luna Sea songs I wanted to get and I finally got Crazy for You and Be in Agony and I was talking about how I hate J, the bassist for Luna Sea because he bothers me a lot. -.- Like he thinks he's so great and he's not...>.> so I was like yeah him, Ken the guitarist from L'arc, the I think guitarist from Pierrot, Kyo from DEG, and Gackt's drummer should all start a band. And no one would really pay them attention because...they're not that great looking so it really would be about the music. And of course because they don't look good to me, doesn't mean I'm knocking them for their skills because it's one thing U can admit is that Ken does play a killer guitar and so on and so on. So their band would be all about their music. LOL I'm so mean ^^;;;
But THEN, I started thinking, oh if I ruled the world and I could have my own way and make my own Jrock band it would be something like this:
Hyde (vocalist for L'arc~en~ciel): Vocals (except lives)
Ryuichi (vocalist for Luna Sea): Back up vocals (except in live shows where he's main vocals)
Sugizo (guitarist for Luna Sea): Guitar
Toshiya (bassist for Dir-en-grey): Bassist
Takeo/Yukkie (drummer for Pierrot, drummer for L'arc~en~ciel): Drummer
Why are their 2 drummers? Because I couldn't decide. They would have to flip a coin or do the best strip show or something...anyway, my theory is Ryuichi could do all the lives and Haido can sing back up on live shows, Sugizo would get his nice guitar solo as he did fan service with Toshiya (and which fangirl wouldn't give her left arm for THAT show XD) and Yukkie/Takeo would have the spotlight on them just for sitting behind the drums and lookin all hot. Mwhahah FUN. Their music would be all these great songs that Haido and Sugizo would collaberate on (because as we all know Haido is the bangingist song writer and so is Sugizo)and Sugizo could play violin for them because Haido does like to use those orcharstra things sometimes. That band would last in Japan for a zillion years. Imagine that, talent, good looks AND great music all rolled into one. How great would that be!? And of course the name of the band...?
Luna Ciel XD
I k now I should have thought more about that since DEG and Pierrot are involved but you know....More Luna Sea, and Larc refreneces are made. And I thought about it, as hot as Miyabi is and as good as he plays guitar I wouldnt want him in Luna Ciel because you know, then attention would have to be diverted in 2 ways and that wouldn't be fair to the audience =p SO instead, on live shows, Miyabi could make cameos if his scheduale (wow butchered that) allowed it and then him, Sugizo and Toshiya could all do fan service. XD
Okay who wants to come see my show with my new band Luna Ciel? XD Tickets are....um...well depending how much I love you ^^ MWHAHHAHAHA what a fun fantasy...hm...I need to rule the world...*goes off to plot*
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 15, 2002 .___More Luna Sea___.
[Currently Listening to: Fallout by: Luna Sea]
I d/led a bunvh of new Luna Sea songs today because I'm looking for Crazy about You and Velvet Underground also Time is Dead just because the titles are so kick ass. PLUS the fact that I want them and no one is letting me get them is making me want them more. So far I only succeded in getting Anubis and Fallout and also Larc doing a cover of Shade which I was SO HAPPY to get. Mwhahaha One of my fav bands, doing a cover of my OTHER fav band. ^_^ Bweeeeee
I HATE those people on Winmx that no matter HOW MANY TIME YOU CANCEL THEM, they ALWAYS try again. I once cancelled the same person nine times before I sent them a message and was like so pissed off I was like STOP FUCKING D/LING OFF ME I HAVE DIAL UP. Before I sent that out, I use to send those I cancelled you 8, 9, 10 times already take a hint. If they wouldn't I'd get bitchy. I'm haviing that problem now. Damnit it only takes 1 time for me to get cancelled before I move on. PLUS I'm so conciderate because I d/l one song per person. Some people just wanna d/l everything you have off you at the same time. This one guy wants to d/l Angel's Tale off me and usually I wouldn't have a problem with that...(well I'd cancel him anyway because I'm d/ling Be in Agony right now) but he's trying to d/l BOTH versions off me at once. I'm like UGH WTF. 8 cancelations so far. Blah...I hate them all. I hope they all stub their toes and hit their shins.
Anyway...yeah...I did nothing all day after school. I'm sitting here, still feeling fat after that bowl of ramyun. Blah...evilness. Also no plans for the weekend...blah. Oh well at least I get to sleep. Speaking of which, next week my classes are all cancelled except for Monday which I have to take an English test and then that's it. Tuesday I have no class, Weds. no class, Thursday no class, Friday no class and next Monday is spring break. ^^ *does 1Tym dance*
All righty then...I finished Serve the Ego for tonight and if I can get into a nice mood to write a lemon I will. Hm...I wonder if I have enough time to do a Hee Jun tribute today...>.< man...now I gotta get my magazines out. =P oh well...laters.
Ugh 14 cancelations....time for a bitch message...-.-
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 15, 2002 .___Randomness VII___.
[Currently Listening to: We Are The Future by: H.O.T]
Kicked it back to the old school man. I love this song. I forgot how much I loved it ^^ Weee well okay....let's see. My day was okay. I took my mom to work then I sorta slept at home, then got dressed and went to class. I had to take a math test so I didn't need anything but a pen and my notes ^_^ So I carried my little cute Fendi purse ^.^ I got a 68 on my test...UGH 2 points away from a 70. But I'm getting better. The next test I take will bring my grade up to a C hopefully. Anyway then I went home. I did my chores then I drew! I drew Jun. I figured that I haven't drawn him but 2 times so I was like....hm...I should really draw Jun. There's so few pics of him. So, here it is
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Junstanding_36Moons.jpg
So yeah I think he looks really sexy ^^ He doesn't show any skin, well hardly but he still looks all hot ^^ mwhahaha so anyway....what else...oh yeah Auwon, I know that my pouch won't go away anytime soon, unless I really work on it. Buuut as lazy as I am, I'm just gonna buy one of those electric belt things that make ur stomach contract and relax I think its great. Ahh the lazy person's work out.
Anyway...besides that, I'm about to make some ramyun...well actually I did and I'm gonna eat it. Mwhahahha
Ooo Misato I dooo love that pic XD WAH FUN FUN FUN *licks Miyabi's exposed tummy* Oh speaking of sexy bitches, I watched what I had of Mechanical Dance and I only watched the 1st 10 seconds of it before stopping it and deleting it because it was VISUAL KEI LUNA SEA!! UGH >.< I hate visual kei Luna Sea...so I was upset with that. Oh well...anyways...yeah...I guess that's it. I have to get a envelope and video tape packaging so I can mail my stuff to THAILAND for my worlds most expensive Luna Sea poster and a tape to my dongsang. *yawn* okay Imma go eat my ramyun. I'll blog again later.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 15, 2002 .___It's Hee Jun's birthday!___.
[Currently Listening to: Paradox by: Pierrot]
Last time I made a mistake I said Haken Kruz was perfomed by Due le Quartz...it wasn't my bad. It was Pierrot. Okay anway HOW EXTREMLY fucking late am I.
Today is Moon Hee Jun's 24th (25th in Korean age) birthday. -.- I feel so bad because I don't have time to pay tribute because I can't go through all my pics and scan them and stuff now because it's too late. I feel bad I 4got about his bday. Aww I'm sorry Junie *glomp* I'll do it 2morrow as a late tribute. Because I do respect him for his work and stuff...so I'm pretty mad at myself for forgetting. Blah...some Yakuza I am. AND NO ONE REMINDED ME. I went to the H5T just to post up a message, I didn't bother reading anything, I just wanted to find out if JTL was coming to the states and if they were what fuckin city because if it's in NY I'mma call up Minni unni and at least that way, I can have a translater. Mwhaha fun fun fun. I think it would be cool if I could meet JTL. I mean not like it's Ta or nothing, but still, part of H.O.T man. ^^ Anyway, so yeah it's Hee Jun's birthday. I feel hella bad I 4got. I'll make it up 2morrow though.
But when I did go to the H5T I found some caps of my baby ^^
My Ta doing some news thing *click*
Riight...so....okay...Jose IMed me today. Just a few minute convo. It was okay. I'm not as hyped as I use to be about him talking to me. Wow that lasted for like 3 days. -.-v
OH...okay impulse buying. I'm not usually an impulse buyer but today I was going through ebay as it is my habit to do so. And I stumbled across POSTERS X.x My weakness is posters. I LOVE posters though I have no room on my walls or ceiling to put anymore up. So I came across this poster:
http://www.geocities.com/adkinson01/poster/posterlunarsea.jpg
That was being auctioned at 6$ something. BUT if you bought it NOW, you could get it for 10$ plus 2$ for shipping and handling. Okay...I was stupid and I fell for it. So I bought it. Now I got this huge Luna Sea poster with my sexy slut on it, and I have to figure out how to pay for it. So, I fill out the stuff I'm suppost to, then suddenly I get this notice that says it's 18$ not 10$ plus something else as I thought it would be and I'm like GOD DAMN!! X.x I never even paid that much for a H.O.T poster!! Several YES but NOT ONE!! I'm like GOD DAMN I'm being jacked here!! So I emailed the seller to see what was up with that price. And we learned a lesson here. Never ever buy anything off ebay. I'll stick to lusting after it and hoping to find sellers that won't rip me off. Not only that but I have to send cash because my moher would cruixfiy me if she found I out I used my bank card to pay for a 18$ poster so I now have to risk sending cash to BANGKOK THAILAND -.-;;; aiya. The shit I get myself into because of my damn hormones and the need to see Sugizo upclose and in huge poster form. This is the first and only Luna Sea poster I'm getting...unless my dongsang in Mayalsia can hook it up with some Luna Sea stuff as well as Larc. *sigh* aiya...
So...yeah okay I blogged like 3 times 2day for no reason whatsoever. I'm so random. *yawn* I'm also d/ling a perforamnce of Luna Sea doing Mechanical Dance which I heard of, but I just wanna see what it is and how good Sugizo looks in it. I also d/led some of the In Silence video which I LOVED because Sugizo was just looking really hot in it. I won't get all of this tonight, but hey if it's good then I'll continue seeking it out until I have it all just like I did with that Desire perfomance LOL okay my eyes are drying out. I'm tired...*yawn* OH yeah one more thing...I wrote out six chapters of Blue only to delete all but 1 because I don't like the way it was forming. So I'm starting again. Hopefully Blue will be up sometime soon. Okay now Imma go. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___I forgot___.
[Currently Listening to: Haken Kruz by: Due le Quartz]
I forgot to post up Akio's side story before when I blogged..so...here it is:
All righty...back to writing. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___Throughly Annoyed___.
[Currently Listening to: Purple Sky by: Pierrot]
Ugh toay was one of those were everything annoyed me after I got home from school. Oh, I watched Company of Wolves but I didn't like it near the end. One thing I noticed about Neil Jorden besides the fact that Stephen Rea is ALWAYS in his movies (I saw 4 Neil Jorden movies, Company of Wolves, The Crying Game, Interview with a Vampire and In Dreams, Stephen Rea in all of them) was that he has this dark eerie type of surrounding. His camara angles are also amazing. I loved how in Company there was this one scene where the girl was up a tree and she was looking down and you don't see her, you see like her red shawl on a tree branch on a downward angle as this boy was chasing her, you see him running by. It was so cool it reminded me of Interview when Santiago was upside down the first time he met Louis in Paris and they were under a bridge and Santiago walked up the wall and suspended himself upside down and as he looked down, Louis looked up and you see Louis looking up and the foreground of Santiago's shoulder. It was so cool to see the layout of Neil Jorden's early work for his later movies. I love Neil Jorden movies *clap*
Anyway, afterwards, I went home and my daddy was on the phone =p which is rare and I was like wah....but then it was okay. I did my chores and started to draw for today and then I was annoyed. One phone call after another and I was like UGH -.-;;; one of them was what I call m,y gay stalker where this guy just KEEPS CALLING. I'm doing everything in my power to keep him a school friend not a forever friend. I already have 1 gay guy in my life (not counting his wifey) and he's pretty. *snuggles Sunnie*
Ugh then I was randomly IMed by this person I wish I never knew and I wish would forget about me. -.-;;; It's like geez she popped so much shit in that bopper way that pissed me off and then became a hoe much later on. Blah...I wish annoying people would forget me sometimes...no not sometimes ALWAYS. *sigh* someone shoot them. -.-
I hate being annoyed by people. And I hate how people try to tell me I should be happy with myself. I'm like okay are YOU happy with YOURSELF? Until you are, then don't come around me popping some shit that I should love myself. I've never been so concerned with my weight or how I look, and I'm not even that concerened now, I'm just throughly annoyed with my pouch. And people are like, Oh ur a stick, your aneroxie (wow butchered that), you're so skinny. And I'm thinking, okay 1. I didn't say I was fat, I said I felt fat 2. I said I didn't like the way my STOMACH looked not my whole person 3. I'm NOT anorexic because I EAT. Very little but it happens. I'm not throughly obessed about my weight that I feel the need to diet and excerise intesivly. I'm a little self concious, who isn't but damn...the way people tell me I'm skinny right away is like damn you're getting so defensive about my weight that it makes me think twice. UGH....I KNOW I'm not fat I just hate my stomach geez. People bother me today.
Lately more and more I've been not wanting to talk to people just a few select. I love my Aoki-chu who was feeling upset yesterday and shes one of those select I only wanted to talk to. Blah...just feeling annoyed now. =p I'll be fine. Oh okay so back to this drawing I did. I've been wanting to do a Jia x Tsubasa drawing for a while mostly because you...I like yaoi...and I like Tsu ^^ LOL Gijimo might not like this pic because it's Jia, not her holding Tsubasa up and it's Jia's hands not her's holding Tsu's ass LOL well you have to see what I mean. Geocities. Copy and paste. You know the deal.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/JiaxTsubasa_36MoonsxYami.jpg
My insperation for this pic was those yaoi pics I found on Auwon's blog the other day. Hehehhee. Okay. I'm off to write Serve the Ego I need to get into the good stuff before it starts dragging out and people think this is gonna be a happy fic. LOL Well actually I'm not even sure what it's gonna be....depends on my mood. X.x lol laters. Will my toil never seize? LOL I'm watching Hey Arnold...I love cartoons...laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___I got a Pouch...>.<___.
[Currently Listening to: Loveless by: Luna Sea]
DESPITE MY BEST EFFORTS TO FAST AND CUT BACK ON FOOD I HAVE A POUCH -.-;;;;;;;;;;;;
What's a pouch you ask? It's that liiiiitle bit of tummy that no matter HOW MUCH you suck in, it ALWAYS sticks out and hangs slightly over your low rise jeans. -.- I hate my stomach. I hate it so much, I'm reeeeeally considering talking to my mom about surgery. And WHY NOT I once considered plastic surgery for the "button" I have on my face which my mom thinks is cute but I think goes WIDER when I smile. I hate my nose too. But I rather leave that alone and attack the fucking pouch I can not seem to get rid of no matter what. I do sit ups, I cut soda out of my diet, hell I cut FOOD out of my diet, I stopped chewing as much gum and I walk a lot and YET STILL there's that fucking pouch just hanging there, mocking me and making me feel like a pregnat cow. -.-
I noticed it this morning when I was getting dressed. I was pulling up my very proud size 5 low rise frayed top jeans and when I buttoned them I looked down and saw my tummy hanging over it slightly. So I stood up straight and sucked it in slightly....and it was STILL there. I was like WTF!! X.x after that I've been really pissed off because my body hates me and I'm really starting to hate it right back. *harrasses body* don't make me surgically alter you God damnit...I WILL do it if I have to. -.- I'm THAT vain and self absoarbed that if I HAVE TO I will. And my momma won't say no. What's she gonna say? No? Yeah right. If I hadn't really thought the whole nose job thing through I would have gotten a nose job. The only thing my mom said to me when I mentioned it was, think about it really carefully. Give it a week, if you really want to by the end of the week no doubts or nothing, then we'll get it done for you. Hm...what's a little lipo compared to that. Am I that vain and arrogant? You damn right. -.-
Anyway, yeah...besides my kangaroo like torso, I'm at school now. It's such a nice day. Today in English we're gonna watch this movie directed by my FAV DIRECTOR, Neil Jorden. I LOVE HIM. He did Interview ^^ *claps* so we're gonna watch this other movie called Company of Wolves since we read this short story about it. It's like a horror version of Red Riding Hood, I mentioned it before how the wolf sounds sorta hot LOL I'm so weird I know.
Auwon, man everyone is having funky dreams only mine wasn't bad just scary like when I couldn't move X.x so I get what ur saying. I once had this really werid dream where like I was watching this plane fall from the sky (this was a long time ago) and it wasn't on fire or anything, it was just falling. And I was like watching it fall and it crashed like...maybe a good 100 feet from me and like I could hear the people inside screaming and like shouting to get out. It was awful hearing all those people, like having a million voices in your head or something. X.x I know weird dream. I don't remember what happened after that though. I usually don't have long dreams...I use to a lot but then recently I don't have the time to anymore except maybe random flashes of people's faces, or someone talking to me for a minute and it goes off into some haze. My head is weird. LOL It's why I tell people to get out of my head, they might like it in there. LOL
*yawn* I want a cup of coffee. Before I got to English today I'll go buy one. *stretch*
I was going through Mifyuu's blog *click* and she was having a weird dream too. Hehehehe her's made me laugh a little. Oh and she posted up this pic of Haido where he looks all sexy XD
The top left hand pic is my fav *click* I love this pic. He looks all...rough XD showing a nipple there XD I love when he shows his scrawny body. Yeah it's scrawny admit it. =P LOL but still fun to look at! And I'm not complaining. Mwhahahah *big yawn* man I still got an hour to go before I have to go to class. X.x like at 9:10 I'm gonna go buy my coffee...hm something smells like incense here...weird. Some people just OD on perfume man...X.x it's too much. It also hurts my sinus because my sinus is oh so delicate. LOL...ahhh now I'm rambling because I have nothing better to do. OH yesterday I finished Akio's side story but I didn't have the chance to upload it. I was like -.- arg..mother of God. But it's all saved so after I do a quick spell check again this afternoon, I'll post it up. Also I might have a nice Jia x Tsu pic. Mwhahahah I always wanted to draw one of those. And I still have to write up a Tsu x Aya fic. Shit...I forgot who was gonna be the seme...X.x damnit they're both such ukes!!! This, Gijimo is why I was hesistating writing a Tsu x Aya fic because they're both too pretty and they're both BORN to be ukes. -.- Quick vocab for everyone that doesn't know..
Uke: Bottom in a male x male relationship. In Japanese uke means to recieve.
Seme: Top in a male x male relationship. In Japanese, seme means to attack.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 14, 2002 .___Randomness VI (I think)___.
[Currently Listening to: Manjii Karame by: Due le Quartz]
I have like so much random to say I hope I remember it all. Okay 1st off, Misato your fic was yummy XD very porno movie-ish though. LOL Anyone intrested go to Misato's blog *click* and read her Toshiya x Miyabi lemon 1 shot. Like I said, very porn movie-ish. LOL but throughly enjoyed. Hehehehe Anyway...Ooo yeah I also stole this from her blog ^^b
LOL That's the face Miyabi has there. LOL Anyway I'm eating pasta Alfredo and steak. My 1st meal of the day. I think I ate less then half and I'm already starting to feel full X.x which sucks for me. I realized I haven't been keeping my food tally lately so I guess I'll do it today. Food talley as of now and it's 8:10 PM: 1 cup of milk, 1 cup of coffee, a steak sandwhich, pasta alfredo and steak, 2 snapples. Am I hungry? No...-.- I feel full and fat X.x Anyway let me also rant about Jose and how I really think he's not as intrested as maybe I thought he was...maybe as friends sure...but as anything more? I doubt it. He seems like...not intrested. Not like that anyway and I'm like...all righty. I guess I could always say, yay I have another friend but you know what I have enough fucking friends. What the hell would I do with another one? Geez...>.> it's like what a waste of time. And THIS, Aoki-chu is why I don't like getting all happy and giddy about guys. -.-
Speaking of being anti-happy/giddy, I got my yakuza pics today. Let me post before I 4get. I uploaded them on geocities because my personal.buildpage thingy is kinda err about how much space I have. So copy and paste you know the drill
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/AkioandGhost.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/AkioandToki.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostJunTokiandAkio.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostandToki.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Tokismoking.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/DragonLeaf.jpg
I have more pics but the rest came out sorta dark and didn't scan well which pissed me off =P But on the upside, Ghost finally finished reading of 36 Moons and what was scary during the conversation Mikkie was having with Jia about Toki, he said the same exact thing Ghost was saying at the time. I was like whoa...cool. Hehehhee. Oh I got my film developed this morning and picked it up before my dad left for work. Heheh I had to hide the smoking pics because if my mom saw those she'd kill me. LOL
I just got this forward from Gab and some of it is pretty funny like this one:
Why is it so hard for women to find men that are sensitive, caring, andgood looking?
What makes men chase women they have no intention of marrying?
Why does Mike Tyson cry during sex?
What's the Cuban National Anthem?
And now for some useless trival...
Fish have eyelids.
The average person will spend 2 years of their life on the phone.
Despite it's hump, a camel has a straight spine
A cat's lower jaw cannot move side to side.
I got those off snapple caps. See it just shows how much fucking snapple I drink. It's what I practically live on. Anyway....yeah...so I should be writing Serve the Ego I'm almost done with my pasta and steak. UGH thank God. Now I feel fat...X.x Oh yeah also I didn't have the chance to properly label the Aoki x Aya fic...and also warn everyone I just uploaded it only after spell checking once. I usually do it twice but this time I didn't have enough time so it only happened once. *sigh* Anyway Aoki-chu you need to tell me what you think kay? All righty...Imma finish up my dinner and then go write. I still have a Aya x Tsubasa fic to write and also Akio's side story. *sigh* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, March 13, 2002 .___Okay so..___.
[Currently Listening to: Nothing]
Satisfied Curiosity Aoki x Aya 1 Shot
So I lied I did finish gotta gooooo
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Wednesday, March 13, 2002 .___*big sigh*___.
[Currently Listening to: Luna by: Sugizo]
I 4got where I stole that from...I did such a long time ago. Anyway....I'm talking to Jose again. And because Sunnie is having his Hye Sung moment, I'm not speaking to him. I'm d/ling my Desire video again and this has to be the best luck I've had d/ling stuff because when I d/led it the 1st time, it took me almost 3 days. Tonight I have up to 40% done and I may get 1/2 before I have to go. I'm kinda happy considering it's evil dial up. However, I still have yet to complete work on my AokixAya fic. I'm more then 1/2 way done but I doubt I'll finish it before tonight. I gotta add a new blog to this thing...
I want a new layout -.- Gab will be busy and I'm being fussy and I want a new layout. *pout* I should employ someone else to do this while Gab is busy...cuz I really really want a new layout damnit. LOL I know I'm so fussy. I figured out how to say both Emperor and Empress in Japanese. *beams* I should have done so sooner but you know...I forgot. Let's see in Japanese Ta is a kotei and I am a kogo. So easy. The kanjii to this is pretty. ^^ anyway, I love my little handy dandy Japanese/English Dictionary. ^^b
I got math 2morrow. *yawn* man...but I got money so Imma go develope my pictures of the yakuza tomorrow. Ghost gave me this one:
Jun, Ghost Toki and Akio *click*
I showed Jose and I had to quickly explain the whole "we're yakuza" thing and then he gave me a pic he took of Daniel and this other guy. I was like X.@;;; he looks like the Daniel in 36 Moons lookin all yakuza-ish. See:
Daniel from 36 Moons
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 12, 2002 .___Damnit Emanuel...___.
[Currently Listening to: Sel-fish by: Due le Quartz]
DAMNIT. Okay....I woke up today and dropped my mom off at work after I dressed in my sweats and my white shirt. I stuck my sneakers on and then grabbed my jean coat and went to her job to drop her off. I had stomach pressure not cramps but it felt like someone was pressing down on my abdomen and it wasn't fun -.-;;; but anyway I figured I could sleep at Emanuel's house. At 7:30 I get to his house and I knock on the door because usually he leaves it open, and then I rang the door bell, and then I called him on my cell phone....nothing. -.- He didn't answer! I was like NOOOOO and I didn't see his car and I was like UGH u loser. So I turn and go back to my car. I prep a story in case my dad asked and I went back home. I snuck in, took my contacts out and went back to bed. It was only a little past 7:30 because Emanuel literally lives down the street from me. So I was sleeping, trying to stay asleep because I kept having these weird, flashy thoughts that woke me. Anyway, my cell phone goes off and I answer without even looking at who's answering and it's Emanuel. He's like I'm here! I'm like where? He's like at my house. I'm like, well where were you before? So he explained he had accidently fallen asleep after his parents left for work. Then he was like you still wanna come by? I'm like what time is it? He's like 8:30. I'm like hell no I'm tired. So I'll call you later and I'll see you next week. I think he was mad/upset but damnit I was pretty pissed off too since I was like calling and ringing his door bell for like 5 minutes, standing in the cold waiting for him. So I went back to bed.
My dreams/images/flashing thoughts where so weird. Like...um...let me see if I can explain this. Maybe ravers know what I mean, like you know those strobe lights I think they called where like the room goes from light to dark in like 1 second and it's like a flashing seen and everything looks like its going in slow motion? That's what I had. I kept seeing random people like real people I know and like gasoo and J-rockers all sorta of like...moving slowly, but that's because of the light making it seem like they were. I at one point saw Jose, his head was sorta thrown back his arms in the air, then I saw Sugizo and he was moving his head up and down, more or less headbanging, his hair flying up but again looking like it was slow mo. Then I saw my Ta and he was like moving his body really slowly, but it wasn't pleasent, I kept moving my arms and like almost felt like I was panicking and I kept waking up. At one point I felt like I couldn't move though I was like oh my God, I wanna turn around but my arms and legs wouldn't move no matter what I tried. I started to get real edgy and scared and I finally opened my eyes, but it felt like I didn't open them...it was really weird.
Ne, Aoki-chu I know Jose is cute. He's mad adorable. Mwhahaha I can't wait to see him again. He's really looking forward to the snowboarding season and I think that's one of the things that scares me about him...he'll prolly want me to try it with him eventually. Ugh that scares me X.x. *ducks Auwon's blade* Sorry sorry! I know just how Gackt will be beautiful to you always, so will Ta to me, no matter what he does to himself. Weee Misato, so glad you agree. ^^ Oo oand thanks for all the new info on Miyabi. ^^ Ur right though he is a sexy sexy bitch XD *cops cheap feel off Miyabi* Yum...Oh yeah so I got this info from Misato's blog:
-Shoe size: 'The size of my feet is the size of my heart.'
How cute is that ^.^ *claps* anyway Imma go write before I have to pick up my mom. *yawn* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Tuesday, March 12, 2002 .___See Man...___.
[Currently Listening to: Sweetest Coma Again by: Luna Sea]
I still think it should be COME again not COMA again...ahh gotta love that. OKAY see I was gonna write up the last of the AokixAya lemon but my DAMN curiosity lead me to start a rant I HAVE to get out of my system. See I just did a little upgrade on my links and blogs. I recently just linked Xio Mei and added a few more links of stuff I like. So I was going through Xio Mei's blog and I see Yumiko *click* has a blog, so out of my DAMN CURIOSITY *shoots curiosity point blank in the face* I go and see. I shouldn't really be ranting about this, but it just REALLY pissed me off.
I for one think Anne Rice writes like a man and is in desperate need for serious adjustment. Also, Anne Rice novels require no brain work. It's all just plot, plot, plot, plot, angst. I go out and read fics if I want to have a fun plot-filled, no-brainer read.
Well basically right now she called me an idiot. And DUH YES she writes like a man...what the hell do you think Lestat is? *rolls eyes* And...how is she in need of serious adjustment? And plot, plot, plot, angst...um what is a book suppost to have other then a plot? -.-;;; She goes out and reads fics for no brainers...she's on my ML...
Even in fics, at least they have some kind of development in characters whereas Anne Rice novels have jack squat. I think Anne Rice novels are the equivalent of Goosebumps paperbacks. Cheap, churned out quickly, and stupid.
Oh I see...she compares her work to GOOSEBUMPS? WTF Cheap churned out quickly and stupid? Okay 1st off, unlike Goosebumps which range from...what 5-7 bucks? Anne Rice novels are more then that IF we're comparing price here. Plot wise I think they have jus a little more depth then fucking GOOSEBUMPS. Churned out quickly?? HELLO it took her like almost 2 yrs to come out with Blood and Gold and from 1996 or 98 I can't remember she finished Memnoch the Devil and the next one didn't come out till like late 99 almost 2000. Stupid? Hardly. If you even read the first couple of pages of her books they're filled with religious, realistic and these extremly deep connections with really small details that later blow up into something else.
I still wonder why she appeals to so many with such garbage, yet some of the most brilliant authors I have ever read are ignored and pushed aside? I love Davies with his Jungian psychology embedded in each book. I love P.J. O'Rourke whose 'The CEO of the Sofa' is such a great laugh. I also love Douglas Adams, whose 'Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy' I have regarded to as almost a bible. Zaphod Beeblebrox is my hero. Last, but not least, Salinger with his 'Catcher in the Rye' filled with teen angst was insane and awesome. The four aforementioned authors are brilliant in every sense of the word. They cover plot and angst so much better than Anne Rice, and bring so much more than just plot and angst to their stories.
I really hate the fact that she's trashing Anne Rice's novels when it's so fuckin clear she hardly even read one becuase if you even read Interview, you see the depth and the angst in each page that could bring you to tears. Lestat's torment to Louis, the pain Louis brings upon himself, complex situations like Lestat's so called death and the trial brought upon Claudia. UGH it's so clear she never read one, not ONE single one of the Vampire Chronicals and if she did, then MAN did she NOT pay attention. BET, Memnoch WAS the freakin bible just written from the Devil's point of view and it's not even EVIL geez...
Hell, even Anne Rice's brother writes better stuff than her, yet he is still overshadowed by the crap she writes and calls literature. Bull-fucking-crap!
Uh duh....she has a husband Stan Rice, and a SON Christopher Rice. Yeah...and last to date, Stan Rice wrote poetry, Chrisopher Rice wrote ONE BOOK. JUST ONE. GEEZ don't even got her facts straight on THAT! And how could poetry or one single book overshadow like the Chronicals? Okay geez...>.>
*sigh* everyone is entiled to opioions....just...not everyone should have the right to express them without having their vocal cords torn out or shot point blank in their face. It gets me so mad because like...she talks about it like she knows all and whatnot...UGH makes me wanna bust 2 shots off...ugh Akio...I'm with you man...I need a cigarette....-.- Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 11, 2002 .___Jose II___.
[Currently Listening to: Dearest Love by: L'arc~en~ciel]
Eeeeeee I got pictures of Jose! ^^ I prolly shouldn't be sharing them on my blog...sine they were kinda meant for me...but I really wanna show them off anyway ^^v
I think he's so kawaii...Gab's got this whole thing on his facial hair but hey...I really don't care. He's too cute ^^
Thats him smiling after I told him I didn't smile in pics because I don't like to. So he took that. He was looking for his web cam before. Damn he's so cute. ^^ He IMed me twice today! I was all happy because the first time he did he was at work. ^_^ Then he IMed a little while ago...like around 8. ^.^
Aoki-chu called me before after I finished talking to Jose in the afternoon and I was being very female and giggly. I was like UGH I hate when I get like that. I get all stupid and all...girly. -.-v
Toki does NOT get girly and giggly. -.-
Aoki-chu said it was cute...which I don't. I HATE when I get like that. Then she was like if you get with him, I hope you get all stupid like that. I'm like PLEASE...I will never. It's not that serious. I'll get like that when I'm engaged to Ta thank you very much. Like I need to get all stupid and have some guy revolve around my whole world. Please...that's Ta's job. LOL
Riiite...so Misato got on this whole which J-rocker has an ass and which don't and sad to say not many (if any) have an ass...which is sad. LOL Of course this is my fav quote from her blog:
Although Haido doesn't have that much, he does have a cute leather clad ass, I think he has more ass than Gackt and definitely more than Toshiya and Miyabi. Wahhh Miyabi why don't you have an ass?! ;_;
LOL LOL LOL I don't think he can help that Misato! LOL But that was great ^^
Ooo Speaking of Haido (all of him not just his ass)I went to Route 666 *click* and found some recent Haido pics. Looking like the sexy bitch he is. I got the following pic from there, April issue of Pati-Pati
Haido black and white looking up *click*
This one is from the March CD Data:
Haido's droopy lid *click*
Haido's profile *click*
Riight...so I'm still talking to Jose. ^^ *dances around* All righty...Imma go work on my AokixAya fic and still bitch and moan about not having a new layout since everyone else has one *pout* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 11, 2002 .___I wanna wriiiite *pout*___.
[Currently Listening to: More then a Woman by: Aaliyah the Queen]
Riiite.....so I'm bored off my ass so much so that you would not believe. I'm online much earlier then expected because I don't have English homework to do this morning. *yawn* Toki-chu needs a cigarette...or some coffee or a hot guy to walk by and wake my sorry looking ass up right now. -.- I put no effort into getting ready this morning because it was gonna be cold as hell. Sure they say it'll be 44 or more degrees today but what they don't tell you how cold it's gonna be in the morning (its like 27 degrees) and anyway, having learned my lesson all through winter, I put on my blue bell bottoms, my black long sleeved shirt and even threw my black hoodie over it with my black knee length coat over it. I couldn't find my gloves in my room, or in my bag so I figured I left them in my car. Uh..nope I didn't -.-;;; so my hands started shaking. I was pretty cold. Then I got to school and sat in my car for 1/2 an hour just chillen, until I decided to go to the compy lab. So I'm walking across the parking lot, my arms crossed in front of me as I start shivering. The more I walk however, the wind starts getting hard and since I have to walk down this hill thingy, the buildings next to me rise up and block the sun. Usually that's a good thing, but when it's 27 degrees out and there is harsh wind blowing, you kind want some sun to keep you warm. So I start shaking...violently. It almost came to the point where I couldn't walk because I was so cold. It was not fun. So I finally get to the compy lab and here I am...
Mornings are evil. -.-
I didn't get to talk to Jose last night because I didn't wanna be annoying and keep IMing him...so I kinda left him alone for yesterday, just so he wouldn't get the idea I was stalking him...which I'm NOT because I do not go out of my way to see/talk to him. I'm too lazy -.-v *yawn*
Anyway, a few days ago I got a envelope from Helayne being a tape of Larc videos ^^ I got Dive to Blue, Nijii, Winterfall and 2 live performances of Haido doing Nijii and Shout at the Devil. I know I was about to start writhing in pain too just hearing him do a live but it was not so bad. hm...maybe he was lip syncing...LOL because he really does NOT sound that good usually. It was creepy. But I liked Shout at the Devil because he looked really good. And Yukkie had short hair! *glomp* looking all like Bruce Lee and whatnot. LOL It was hella cute. *sigh*
Yesterday when I should have been writing, I was fucking off (as usual) and went through some of the links on Auwon's blog. So I came across this blog *click* and I was like hm...so I skimmed through some of it and then I found the blog entry dated 2-25-02 8:42PM where she was talking about Hide and Kurt Cobain's death. And I was like OMG I AGREE...uh...except near the end but I'll get to that in a minute. Let me copy and paste what she wrote:
If you love Kurt Cobain and Hide, turn away lol.
Alright, i've been to alot of sites that say that Hide was the greatest Jrocker ever and he's a god... *sweatdrops* Ok, he was talented, i'll give him that. He looked cool too. But besides that... he was just another Jrocker... And I really don't see his death as some huge blow to the Jrock world.
I really don't! From the songs of his that i've heard, they're really lacking lyrical and emotional value... he just seemed like a good guitarist who was in a band. That's it. People compare his death to Cobain, but that Hide was much better. I agree that he was, but c'mon, that's not saying much. Cobain was a drugged out loser alright? Well he was. I don't see his death as ANY loss to the music world. None at all.
You want a loss to the Jrock world? Kami. THAT was a loss. It was a loss because he...
1. Died naturally at 26 (I think), people just fucking glorify suicide, I hate it, it's the 'easy' way out and trust me, people'll hate you for it
2. He had actual talent, whereas Cobain had none and Hide's was just... ok.
I've had friends try to kill themselves and trust me, it's NOTHING great, and I get really angry at people who bow at the feet of some celebrities that offed themselves.
What is up with Sugizo? The only thing about him I like is his hair and the fact that he looks like that but is a father. That's it. I don't see him as some sex God and I really don't think he's all that attractive. The first time I saw a pic of him I couldn't believe that THAT was who Sugizo was. *twitch* And don't even get me started about WHY he dyed his hair pink.
You want a sex God worthy of worship? Try Gackt or Masa!
Or even Chacha lol, hey, he's the only one in Gackt Job with an ass, and I generally don't look at guy's asses... but Chacha's *cackles* lol.
Okay...I'm all done with my J-rocker/K-pop ass rant. I completly wandered off track too...*train wreck* right...so anyway I wanna write. I wanna write SO BAD I wanna work on my Aoki x Aya lemon but as I started it, I realized...wait...Aoki isn't all...gentle and romantic and caring. He's all about stickin' and walkin'. There aint no romance here....but you know...it's pretty Aya. Not like he would jus rip his clothes off, throw him down and fuck him raw then walk away. LOL God that sounded like a porno. LOL I need to conference with mah Yakuza to see if I can do the semi-vulgar lemon, a lemon with a touch of romance or a combo of the 2. Because I really dunno what to do.
Mwhahaha *dances around* I'm an only child, I'm an only child I'm an only child. I LOVE being the only child. No siblings, no one to bust you when your people come over, no one snooping through your shit and fucking it up later....Ah yes...Auwon envy me. LOL Am I lonely? HELL NO. That's why I got friends damnit. I adopted all my siblings. ^.^b mwhahahah being the only child rules so much. XD Okay Imma go do something else as I wait for my English class to start...wah...X.x laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Monday, March 11, 2002 .___Jose! *bounce*___.
[Currently Listening to: Oni to Sakura by: Pierrot]
You are Lestat. The Brat Prince of Vampires. You're great and you know it.
WOOO *flashes victory sign ^.~*V* YOU DAMN RIGHT! *flashes sign that says BRAT PRINCE*
I stole those off Aeris's blog hehehe. Riiiiiiight...okay so yesterday Jose finally came online. Aftr running around screaming in my living room and conferencing with Ghost and Akio, I grew some balls and IMed Jose. I was being SO UNTOKI...-.- but hey afterwards I got all bold with him and asked when I was gonna see him again. ^.^ He's SO CUTE!! And he's 23 XD Or gonna b anyway in April. I was like jjang...he's so cute!! I was telling Akio and Ghost the 2 cutest thing he was saying like how he was like weee I got a new buddy to put on my buddy list LOL and how he said howdy LOL it was just all too cute. We have some stuff in common...like we both like peach snapple and we like video games. ^^ He wanted me to try snowboarding next session...and I was like uh...>.>;;;;
No....Toki doesn't move -.-v
But...at any rate, he was sweet and he was nice and he was tired so at 2 AM after about 1 hr and 1/2 of talking he went to bed. ^^ He was so cuuuute. hehehehe he made me all happy. Me and Jun then talked afterwards and she was like yay you got brave, u grew some balls Im glad. LOL And I was...so hopefully I'll be able to see Jose before the end of March. *does 1Tym dance*
I went to see The Time Machine today with my parents. It was okay. The special effects were cool. Then I went home. I had dinner mad early today and now I'm chillen. I was watching the anime Haunted Junction which is like the funniest anime I had ever seen. It was great ^.^b Weee good times. I decided to start watching Queer as Folk on Tuesdays at 11 rather then Sundays at 10. I think it ended anyway. I'm not sure but I missed last weeks episode which pisses me off. =P Stinky -.-
*yawn* Oh yeah, Auwon I looove your new layout. And you know, Mifyuu has a new Honey layout, and *waves to Misato* just because she said hi and she knew I was reading her blog. Hehehehe but I want a new layout! *sigh* I want my slut Sugizo sitting on the side of my blog for now...but Gab is sick and she's not gonna be able to do it anytime soon. *sigh* Damnit...I want a new layout. LOL I'm so impatient. Anyway I finally started sending out my new fic called Serve the Ego. I hope it goes well. It's starting off slow...but it'll pick up I prooomise. ^^v well OH YEAH...I stole these from Auwon's blog ^^b
http://www.angelfire.com/art/spoon/images/eveangelion.jpg
http://www.angelfire.com/weird/fux/images/lickneck.jpg
Okay now Imma go write...laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Sunday, March 10, 2002 .___Not Nice___.
[Currently Listening to: Luna E by: Due le Quartz]
I just wanna know how the fuck plastic can be evil....unless your sufficating someone...>.>
I didn't have the time to blog last night, but basically, here's how yesterday went. After 3, I was waiting for Ghost to come to my house. She had to be here before 4:40 because I had to go pay the cable bill. She got here at 4:35 -.-v late as always. We ended up talking and I was showing her my drawing folder where the pics of the 36 Moons yakuza was and we got side tracked. When we left it was 4:45. We drove to the cable company and it was closed...>.> So I had to slip the bill through the slot ^^;;; I'm hoping for the best otherwise I'm in big trouble. Anyway, then we went to pick up my mom. I gave her my car keys and my house keys and me and Ghost went to Pines where we play pool. I called Akio to check if she was leaving yet because it was 6 when we got there. So we decided to wait for Akio before we went to play pool. So went to the Korean bakery beside the PC Bang there and Ghost had her sushi and I bought this green icy that was flavored to be melon. It really tasted like milk and they were good. So God damn addicting. So...I had another one. They cost like 1$ each. Then Aoki called *jjang* And I talked to her for a while then Akio showed up so we hung up. So then we got Akio in the Korean bakery (there was like a long table and stools to sit down at) and we sat down and talked and Akio bought an icy too. She bought a strawberry one. LOL HYE SUNG LOL and she was like....*looks at icy* ew...LOL then we went to play pool. Jun was suppost to be there at 7:30 the latest, but of course she has no concept of time so she didn't show up till 8:30. Meanwhile Ghost, Akio and I played pool. We were all dressed in black, me and Akio smoking, taking pictures and shooting pool, all while cracking up. Lots of comments and pervert jokes were passed, like my fav when Ghost scratched (meaning she sunk the white ball in the pocket) she picked it up from the little container where the balls go when they fall in the pockets, and shes like "here, you can put it anywhere you want" I look at her like >) "really Ghost? Thanks for the offer." Akio starts cracking up and laughes for like 3 years and then I start laughing and Ghost is like -.-;;;; LOL Ahh then I said, U don't make comments like that to Toki. So basically we had fun. We didn't want to stay at the pool hall too long because it was 1 hr and 1/2 into the game and Jun still wasn't there. So we decided to pay and leave. We went to the pizza place next door and had a calzone and then Jun showed up. We lingered around eating, then we went to the pool hall again because Ghost's cousin showed up. We chilled with them, taking more pictures of us in the dark, all 4 of us 2gether, then a pic of 3 of us smoking, then we left the pool hall again.
We ended up going to the sushi place next to the pool hall because just had to have more sushi. They ate. I couldn't because I'm allergic to sea food and I'll uh...die if I eat it. So I just watched them eat and took another picture of them 3 eating. I was like EE make shift Dragon Leaf! LOL so then we chilled in the pool hall AGAIN and EW Te was there and Jun saw him and she was like OMG I have been visually raped. LOL Then me and Jun left after 1 more picture and then we went to her dorm because she had to get me the disk for Windows ME so when I got home I finally upgraded my Windows. Meaning I have a Windows Media player again WOOO! *celebrates*
Later on I got into a convo with Gab and she was like...being too nice to her dongsang. I expressed the fact that I really didn't like that she was being such a doormat. And I was annoyed. But she explained that she wanted closure if she stopped talking to him and I didn't understand that. It left me thinking damn I'm so mean....so I had to ask the 3rd most brutel person I know, Jun. See Sunnie is 1st, then Pookie, then Jun when it comes to brutel honesty. I know I can't possibly be that mean otherwise I wouldn't have any friends. But then again, I don't have that MANY friends. So I asked Jun, am I a nice person in general. And she said no. I'm not. Okay so my own suspsions where right. I'm not a nice person. She said I'm not because once I have my mind set on not liking someone, it takes a long time for me to change my mind. My opionions don't change very quickly and I hold grudges forever...which I do. It doesn't take much to get me to hate someone I hate perfect strangers for liking my man. Outside the real world, on the internet I've even made grudges that so much time has passed and I still haven't let them go. I don't dislike Nozomi as much as I once did a whle ago, but it's not like I'm all like oohh ohh shes my new best friend. She's okay. And I've almost sorta been ready to let that whole reason I didn't like her from jump slide. But you know...it takes a while. Mako is another I havent even begun about thinking about letting that grudge go. I'm still bitter about it. There are so many more but I can't sit here and list all the people that have pissed me off and done me wrong because I might as well write a novel.
Another thing...I realized how much I hate extremly nice people. They're so easy to take advantage of and since I like some extremly nice people I hate them at the same time for being so soft and allowing anybody even me to take advantage of them. Espically because I've grown to love them and it pisses me off when they're hurt. My best friend D was a doormat in middle school. But by High School she snapped out of that shit mostly because if you hang around me long enough I will rub off on you. I'm just thinking how wrong that sounds...and how amazing it is that people think I'm this sweet nice person and love me for it but in reality the moment you piss me off, I'm a true to life Toki.
I kept saying it last night without realizing it, but I said, I embody Toki way too much sometimes.
And I do. But not because I wanna be like him, it's because I really am him. As weird as that sounds. So I'm not nice...I'm sorta nice...just...I dunno...I'm nice to degrees.
Yeah...I'm done ranting. I gotta write before I get back tracked anymore. It's almost time to send out the new fic. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Saturday, March 9, 2002 .___The Yakuza Step Out___.
[Currently Listening to: Due le Quartz: Sel-fish]
I'm waiting for Ghost to come to my house. =p
I'm all impatient. I'm just waiting for Ghost. La la la la la....me and Ghost are gonna go meet up with Jun and Akio at the pool hall. We're gonna take ghetto style pics LOL I'm excited. Hehehehe okay...2day I cut math because it was just a review, so then me and my friend Matt (who's gay) chilled at a study center for a minute then we chilled until I went home. Then I chilled and had lunch. So..
Food tally for today and it's 4:00 PM: 1 glass of milk, 1 cigarette, 1 steak sandwhich, 1 snapple. Am I hungry? No...just normally filled.
But I ate and that's so bad X.x UGH I hate that. I'm mad at Sunnie...plus I'm arguing with him at the moment....so...yeah...I'll blog again after I get home. Laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Friday, March 8, 2002 .___Shallow Sleep___.
[Currently Listening to: Dear from xxx by: Due le Quartz]
That's so funny that I would talk about another band then talk about Haido....LOL but I just have to say, I got 3 Due le Quartz songs so far. Dear from xxx, Replica and Warning all which I like. ^^ Aeris I like them! I think that what's his face can sing! And nevermind that Mayabi can play a mean riff XD Woooooo thas my ningyo *glomps Miyabi's leg* anyway, oh Aeris, thanks for the pic! It was what I was looking for. Got anymore? XD Miyabi is so hot. Mwhahhaa OKAY so back to my point at hand, I got the English Lyrics for Shallow Sleep!! WOOO FINALLY I understood bits and pieces of Haido's fobalicious "engrish" but he lost me here and there. SO I finally got the lyrics.
Thankies to L'arc~en~ciel: My Neo Universe *click* they are also linked on the side.
Shallow Sleep
I just saw you
I gently held out my hand
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
I just saw you
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
I see you -- untill I wake from shallow sleep
An artist without a brush
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
I see you -- shallow sleep
*sigh* I love this song. Now Sunnie can stop bitching at me and write down the rest of the lyrics to this in his profile. He's mean! He called me liking Jose my "flavor of the month" because I'm fickle! Granted I AM fickle, but that's mostly because it doesn't work out and I move on! Stupid Sunnie. I hate you right now you big loser. ANYWAY, right, so I wrote a 1 shot AU (Alternate Universe) fic of 36 Moons this NEVER happened it's just something I wrote for Gab. OH and some warnings:
LEMON WARNING. For those that don't know what a lemon is it's SEX. Nice and graphic there for ya. AND it's between 2 guys so yeah...also another warning. For those fans of 36 Moons that don't like that, relax, this is a AU fic. This never really happened in the fic. It's just some random out take I wrote out for Gab to enjoy.
Okay...that's all I wanted to for tonight. I have to go write my other fic now. Oh and...food tally for now, it being 10:09 PM: 1 glass of milk, 1 cup of coffee, 1 pudding snack, 1 Wendy's spicy chicken sandwich, 1 order of 99 cent nuggets, 1 order of fries, 1 large coke. Am I hungry now? NO. But I feel like a big fat glutton. And I'm thirsty...*sniffle* laters.
Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 7, 2002 .___Miyabi___.
[Currently Listening to: Le Fou by: Sugizo]
So how late am I? Why didn't someone TELL me about Miyabi from Due le Quartz? *is so extremly late* Okay so Miyabi is fucking hot. I've heard of him before because he was on Kara's layout once upon a time. I just didn't like the way he looked in his visual kei stuff. I thought it was too much so I didn't pay too much attention to him or his band. So I kind neglected it. But then, I went to Raison d'etre *click* and at this blog, there was this pic of Miyabi. I liked it. ^^ I also have to link her back because I didn't know she had linked me. *feels special* this is what I was talking about earlier. Anyway, so she linked this site in her recent blog so I was like hm...so I go to Miyabi no heya *click* and get some NICE pictures of SEXY ass Miyabi.*drool*
That's one of them XD *drool* I WANT THE BIGGER VERSION! That's the thumbnail from the aformentioned site, so I just took the thumbnail because the bigger pic doesn't work!! *SOB* So if someone, ANYONE can hook it up with the bigger version of that pic I'd love you forever! Aeris? *since shes the one with the in on where I can find great J-rock pics* you know where I can find a bigger version of that pic? *wants so bad* Anyway, moving on...
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So...when I get home from picking up my mom today, I'm gonna d/l some songs, see if they're any good or just a pretty face. Miyabi is the guitarist...XD he's also 20 years old!! He's a baby!!! *squeal* And he's about 6 feet tall but weighs about 126 pounds! X.@;;; even less then Sunnie....geez...he also smokes 6 Star cigarettes, same as Yukkie *^^* and his name translates into Elegance which is just some dope shit right there. Okay...so I have another lust on the list. >.>
Okay total food tally and it's now 3:30 PM: 1 glass of milk, 1 cup of coffee, 1 pudding snack. Am I hungry? You betcha...-.-v
So...yeah....um...what was I gonna say? Oh yeah, I gotta find out if I'm gonna play pool with Akio for sure 2morrow so I can ask my mom already. Plus I wanna see Jun and my boy Paulo tomorrow too. I jus hope Akio says yes ^^ yeah I had a pretty good day today in English. I actually spoke a lot to my proffesser because we read this twisted ass version of Red Riding Hood which was made into a horror story from a fairy tale. And the wolf, the way he was described, he was like a man, with tan skin, dark nipples, a happy trail, thin but strong with hunge...*clears throat* yeah....they actually said that. "huge" was the word they used to describe his package. XD Made for a great story because he got to fuck Red Riding Hood at the end. LOL So I was saying how this was a horror story because of the violence and how the wolf was more like a man then a wolf, the only ewwy thing was like that the wolf had lice X.x ew. LOL but it was a good story. We also talked about Interview!! Jjang. *^^* we talked about Lestat an I was like OOO I KNOW I KNOW!! Mwhahaha~
Okay...so...oh yeah...
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Lost in his Devastating Beauty || Thursday, March 7, 2002 .___*bounce*___.
[Currently Listening to: Is it Love by: J]
Yesterday I couldn't blog because pitas was moving to a new server -.-;;; which left me blogless for like the whole day. Boo.
I'm Teru. LOL I'm damn sexy? LOL What am I Sunnie??
> You're Shirou Kamui!
Boo...I wanted to be Subaru. But hey Kamui's fine too XD
Okay well anyway....let's see I'm gonna tally my total gluttoness yesterday. I had 2 snapples, 1 orange, a bowl of ramyun, a pudding snack and some roasted potatoes. -.- so much for fasting. UGH I made a glutton of myself, now I'm pissed. I'm gonna eat less 2day. I can't believe I ate so much yesterday. OH and while making my stupid ramyun, the water started over boiling, I scaleded myself and I spilled ramyun all over the stove and Sunnie LAUGHED at me. -.- Just because I can't cook for beans and neither can he but at least he never tried. -.- I am never cooking again.
I also found out I'm completly pissed off because I talked to Jun last night and I found out she's going to Korea THIS summer. I was like -.-;; I wanna go. SO, rather then go shopping with my mom's tax refund money, I'm gonna try and con her into letting me to go to Korea too. Damnit I wanna get married this year. It would be nice to be inengaged before my 21st birthday ^.^b I told her it was my mission, my life goal. I don't strive for much. I'm like a man, very simple to please. ^.^b And like I said a million times, I'm going to Korea and I'm not coming back without him or his last name. Gotta be one or the other damnit. Anyway, I have till like...late May early June to accomplish this...so hopefully I will be able to. ^^ jjang
Okay...so...yeah. I was talking to Sunnie last night, as usually do sometimes. He was cracking me up sometimes and then just plain pissing me off as usual -.-v he was on his great "I must learn to give better head" conquest. Since he dropped so much freaking weight, in an unhealthy manner I pulled him to the side and all joking aside told him it wasn't sexy. Which is why he's eating more often. Of course he feels full more often which is a new feeling to him. So since he's too skinny, he's not sleeping with wifey as often as he'd like. So he's set on just doing the oral thing until his weight comes back up. Of course...he's not USE to doing the oral thing, so he thinks he's not good at it. He's also not sure if it's him giving good head or is it just wifey's sensativaty. So....he's kinda stuck. Oh and yesterday he was busted for smoking in his house with Woo. Woo smokes so Sunnie was smoking too. *social smoker XD* And Wifey got home and instead of yelling at Sunnie, he yelled at Woo for being a bad influence. Of course Sunnie got his punishment too because he wasn't kissed until he brushed his teeth. LOL Ah...
Speaking of which, March seems to be the time of month for everyone smoking up now. I quit for this month though I'm sensing that's gonna b hella hard to do. Akio picked it up, so did Jun, Sunnie is smoking again now and...you know, that's not helping. I'm getting major nicotine craving already but I refuse to buy another pack of cigarettes considering I FINALLY have the money to pay off the last of my debt and I have to pay for my dongsang's package since she bought me all these J-rock CDs. The most I can do for her is buy her stuff for her in return. So anyway, so I'm not smoking, but....ugh...everyone around me is. -.-
Gab was scolding Sunnie and me about smoking...well more Sunnie then me saying it was nasty. Well of course it is. We're inhaling carbon monxiod (wow butchered that), anmoinia, a type of rat poison, anti freeze and a million other kinds of chemicals. Of course it's nasty. But you know, we're gonna do it anyway. Something that made me look off to the side was how when Sunnie was telling me that he was saying that everyone he knows smokes or did for long periods of time, and they're fine. Like Chun Hae (my other oppa!! He scares me though X.x he looks like a killer >.<) he use to smoke from the time he was 12 till he was about 19 almost 20. He quit recently because he sa
A person's limbs and joints were shattered, then their now-mushy limbs were braided through your wheel-spokes. Still alive, they were left to die in this fashion, either from starvation or heat/cold. Oh, the humanity! What a temper -you- have!
What torture would you be?
You are Vicious
You have a wicked looking bird and cause a lot of bloodshed. Revenge and power are what you care about.
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Current Mood: Chillen
Current Music: Muddy Blood by Due le Quatrz
Current Taste: Kiwi strawberrt Snapple
Current Hair: Tied back in a loose pony tail. Kinda clean
Current Annoyance: I'm on the rag...nuff said...
Current Smell: Nothing
Current thing I ought to be doing: Writing my new fic
Current Desktop Picture: The love of my life Ahn Chil Hyun holding up his glasses XD
Current Favorite Artist: H.O.T/Kang Ta/Hee Jun/JTL, J, Eun Ji Won, Drunken Tiger, L'arc~en~ciel/Hyde/Tetsu/Yukihiro, Luna Sea/Sugizo, Due le Quartz, Pierrot,Aucifer...
Current Favorite Group: See above
Current Book: I'm not reading anything now =p
Current CD in CD Player: Aaliya the Queen's last album
Current Color Of Toenails: All natural
Current Refreshment: Kiwi snapple
Current Worry: That I have to send out money for my extremly expensive Luna Sea poster
Current Crush: No crush. I got ADD when it comes to guys..
Current Favorite Celebrity: So many to name...
You Talked : My daddy
You Hugged: My daddy
You Instant messaged: No one =p
You Yelled At: My mom for saying she wouldn't buy me my Toshiya gloves unless I cleaned today -.- which I did so HA
You Had A Crush On: Jose for like a hot second. I felt him not have interest so I moved on.
Who Broke Your Heart: It's been a while since the stone has been cracked
Drink: Peach snapple
Color: Black
Album: All of H.O.T's
Shoes: My 6 inch knee high black hooker boots
Candy: Skittles
Movie: Interview with a Vampire
Song: Got too many to name but some I'll never get tired of: We are the Future, Spirit of the Fighter, Outside Castle by H.O.T Doo be Do by Kang Ta Honey by L'arc~en~ciel Desire by Luna Sea,Atena by Pierrot, Angel's Tale by Hyde
Vegetable: Potatoes
Fruit: Peaches!!!
Open-minded: Extermly
Arrogant: Very much so *whips out mirror*
Insecure: I get my moments...
Interesting: Weird works better
Hungry: Not really
Friendly: No I have the weird/bitchy vibes going
Smart: Um...sometimes
Moody: I have terrets
Childish: Oh come on...I bounce and do Hyde wiggles what do you think?
Independent: *falls off chair laughing*
Hard working: *rolling around laughing now*
Organized: Most definatly a place for everything and everything in it's place
Healthy: I saw so..my mom begs to differ
Emotionally Stable: No I have some issues I need to deal with
Shy: I get these shy moments
Difficult: Sometimes
Attractive: For the most part I'm hella cute XD
Bored Easily: Huh? *looks at something else*
Messy: I try not to be
Thirsty: Always
Responsible: Pheesh...yeah right
Obsessed: Most def.
Angry: Not at the moment
Sad: See above
Happy: Im mellow
Trusting: Not very
Talkative: For the most part I run my mouth
Legal: Yay!
Original: I think so...sometimes
Ignored: yeah ;.;
Reliable: I try to be
Content: Not right now. I want too much junk
Optimistic: Nope
Deep thinker: Sometimes
Self-disciplined: Um...no
Sleepy: Nah I slept till 12:30
Lonely: For the most part unless my Yakuza are around
Slap: *whips out second list*
Get Really Wasted With: My yakuza
Tickle: Hee Jun ^.^ just to see how he would laugh
Look Like: Everyone says Nelly Furtado but I don't see it...
Be Like: Me, myself and I unless you count writing styles. Then I wanna be like Anne Rice
Talk to: My yakuza, a few random people
Talk To Online: see above
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LOL LOL LOL LOL *falls off chair as the whole compy lab stares at her* LOL ahhh that was just classic. I guess he is cream then XD
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Find out which LifeSaver you are.
All right, so maybe you didn't have the most romantic of beginnings, but you came out all right in the end. You're not totally sure if music is for you, but as long as you have the other members of your band around you, it'll be ok. Besides, the fact that you're a star character in an anime guarantees you more fans.
Take the "Which Unknown Jrock Band Should You Be In?" quiz
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Take the Which Powerpuff Girl Are You? Test.
find your queer
as folk personality!
*Take The Ice Cream Flavour Test!*
You are a classy person who buys or adores expensive clothes from the Catwalk. You love to cuddle, and know that the whole world loves you. You eat gourmét food, and loves everything that glitters or shines. You love luxury very much, and if you aren't rich just yet know that someday you will.
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He's getting chubby. Look at his faaace...*pinchy Ta's face* he's got cheeks now...not just cheek bone. But I LOVE his cheek bones!! They gave his face those beautiful good looks...I mean not that he doesn't have them now...but you know what I mean. *snuggles with Ta* I love him anyway.
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>D fun huh? And they say you can't learn anything reading porn. LOL. Mwhahah oh....yeah before I forget to mention, I'm not being fickle, just realistic here but I don't think Jose is as interested as I think, so I might just toss that whole idea out the window. Forget it. I'm apparently waiting for Ta...without a choice. -.- all righty then. That sucks for me. >.> anyway...yeah...Imma go find something else to do. Laters.
@08:06 p.m.
Who me?
Akio and Ghost standing in front of me. I was too lazy to get up. This was as we waited for Jun to show up.
Me and Akio. I was being Toki at the time and decided to sit like him.
The 4 Yakuza lighting up...except Ghost. She's the only one that doesn't smoke so Jun, Toki and Akio did. I love this pic. We look real gangsta. LOL
Ghost blocked my face in this one LOL But this is us as we played pool and Akio was sitting where I was.
Toki smoking. I had to take this pic. It was just such the moment for it.
After we played pool and Jun got there. We decided to get sushi and since Toki can't eat it because I'm allgeric to it, I took the pic as Jun, Akio and Ghost had sushi at the make shift Dragon Leaf.
Because those men already have boyfriends.
SO TRUE LOL
The same urge that makes dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving.
Mwhahaha
Mace will do that to you.
That was just funny.
Row row row your boat.
LOL LOL LOL *falls off chair*
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Which X Pairing Are You?
That's us next to the pool hall outside the pizza place. Hehehehe
Only Daniel in 36 Moons had red hair not black. Hehehe but he still looks yakuza-ish. Anyway...Imma go try and finish up this 1 shot. Laters.
@03:24 p.m.
First memory: Pain, whiskers
-Childhood ambition: Cyber police from S
-Childhood nickname: Bon *wah that is kawaii ^^ Bon Bon Bon Bon Bon ^__^
-Animal you compare yourself to: Lost lamb *man thas deep..*
-Your strength: I have no weakness
-Your weakness: I have no strength (thas clever)
-When you first meet a person, which part of the person do you look at?: How many moles the person has. *I do that too*
-Habits: Shout anywhere *reeeeally...? XD*
-Favorite saying: Sleepy *LOL how kawaii*
-Dish you're good at making: Sakito-kun
-Favorite season: Summer mornings because it's romantic
-Daily necessity: Hugs *Misato let's help him out with this one XD*
-Sleep habits: Naked under apron *what's he doing with a apron on when he sleeps? Thas jus kinky XD*
-What does others say that makes you happy?: Ba-bon
-Recent favorite thing to do: Reason for existence
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Then she goes on about Queen of the Damned which was a bad movie and I'm not urging anyone to go see it. BUT GOD DAMN it just pissed me off because she's like talking about Anne Rice's books like 1. She could do better 2. Like she read them all when it's like painfully obvious to any Rice fan she HASN'T and like I said if she had she read em SO WRONG. It's like she's queen guru of all literature and whatnot. It just makes me so mad. Considering I'd give my left arm to write like she does.
@09:01 p.m.
I like this picture a lot...I dunno why but I do. Maybe because he looks dirty? LOL I dunno...
I can see that damn ssang kah pool of his that sags over his left eye...just like it ALWAYS has, but in this pic it's SO DAMN noticable. It's the only reason I linked it back. It jus bothers me.
I like this pic a lot. Better then the other one.
@08:07 a.m.
She warns first off...
I got someone to get mad at me for saying this...
I can't comment much on Hide's music. What I heard it was...you know...there. It didn't move me...there you. It didn't move me. Well okay I lie...it did move me....to turn off the mp3...>.>
So true so true....-.-v again, I got someone to be mad at me because I said suicide was the pussy way out and they got all bent out of shape because I happen to say it in the same conversation about Hide. I heard one song from X-Japan and yeah that one guy died but at least he went NATURALLY as stated.
Kami glorified ritualistic suicide, which can be understood with his love of the Japanese military. I really don't think that covers blowing your brains out (or whatever the hell Cobain did, i'm not looking it up) or getting drunk and hanging yourself. And of course the big thing is that Kami didn't DO it! >.<
I dunno about all that Hide had no talent. He had to have some because he did have legions of fans and whatnot....I mean I don't think he's the great demigod that everyone's making him out to be....but you know...he must have been doing something right. Of course I don't think he was all that great looking either and everyone is like OOoo OoOo Hide from Pink Spider! (or whatever...) *giggle* I'm like...uh...his hair is pink ^^b faboo..I don't know about Kami, just that he died naturally and Cobain shot himself in the face because "he couldn't handle star pressure" which makes me wonder what the fuck were you doing forming a band, getting signed, and making videos for MTV if you didn't wanna be famous? Uh...yeah...>.>
Me too....God if your friends did it, it wouldn't be all that fucking great would it? Okay then shut up. It's glorified death. But it's death nonetheless. Of course when she finished up that rant she started going after Sugizo which made me not agree with her the rest of the way...
Um okay yeah....he's a 30 something year old man with a 3 yr old daughter, with extreme talent who can play a guitar and make your skin shiver with pink hair. Granted he may not be a pretty pretty boy like Haido but damnit he IS is a sexy God XD when you earn nicknames like "The Walking Porno" that says a lot. Duh....and I'm not bias because I happen to lust after Sugizo's hot ass, I'm setting his talent into play too. And I happen to LOVE the fact his hair is pink. ^^
Wow I really don't think Gackt or Masa is worthy of being worshipped. >.> not because they aint fine or nothing because yes, I too was once a Gackt fan (still sorta am) but you know...if you look carefully, you can see him aging *runs from a knife wielding Auwon* and not that it's not noticable on OTHER J-rockers hell I point them out I.E Haido, Sugizo, Yukkie...but you can really see the fine lines on Gackt's face when he DOESN'T smile. At least with Haido or Sugizo, it's a little harder to spot those little aging lines. Well what you want they over 30. Even sex Gods and walking dolls age. And dude what ass on Chacha is SHE talking about? There is NO ASS back there. Hell NONE of them have asses....except Sugizo. I mean he better wearing those short shorts. But really...*sits back and uses fingers to count* Haido has no ass, Gackt has no ass, Toshiya has no ass, Miyabi has no ass...and I'm not just bias about my 1st love K-pop either. Oh no. I'm a equal person. *is up to 4 fingers so far* Okay in the K-pop world, Jun Jin has no ass (in fact NO ASS AT ALL his back just...concaves...), Tony An has no ass just an extended back, Dong Wan has no ass which is a tragedy really. All that muscle and none of it on his ass. Jae Won has no ass, but he has more then Tony! Hye Sung has no ass, no shape no color...*clears throat* so he's got a good voice...>.> sorta. There are about 3 Asian guys known that have an ass. Moon Hee Jun because everything about him is big and/or thick with the exception of his nose which is a small little bitty button! *presses Hee Jun's cute nose* Did I jus say little bitty? -.-;;;; and my baby Ta because yes he has an ass...do not make me scan the picture of him turning to the side and the clear lump behind him is visable.
And Sugizo because if you see him running around enough times in those short shorts and garters you see his thick thighs, killer gams and round firm ass. XD *smack*
@08:20 p.m.
Find your inner vampire.
I am 49% worshipable! And you? Find out!
49%
Eveangelion boys getting it on against a window XD YAOI warning...XD *licks lips*
1 Bishies getting his neck licked by another...*shiver* Oh yeah....good times.
@08:29 p.m.
check it out, i'm kangta!
test made by icha of silver bell
take the quiz here
All ducks aren't sweet and innocent and you prove that. You have a nasty streak.
Find your inner rubber ducky.
take the "which neglected jrock band are you?" test. or something.
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Music and lyrics by: Hyde
Beyond the course of time
A room that we once shared
But my memory's a haze
Forgetting what was said
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared - I lost you over again
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
Can't pain upon the canvas
Without you here -- there is no colour
A colourless landscape
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
@04:04 p.m.
Miyabi sitting there. Looking like quite the sexy bitch. I designed pants JUST LIKE THAT which bothers me -.- but hey, he's flashing thigh so I'm not really complaining...XD
Miyabi without make up. Yet another ningyo. Except the lip ring. But I could give 2 flying fucks about the lip ring, he's HOT XD
Drew this today just for mah Aya *snuggles*
And of course drew Aya himself being a sexy bitch. I'm gonna draw more later tonight after I finish writing. hehehe okay...now Imma do some more pic hunting of Miyabi...*drool* laters.
@08:22 a.m.
take the damn thing yerself. by T3kk0!
Congratulations-- the Power of God is in your hands. Well, maybe not, but you do occasionally feel as if the weight of the world is on your shoulders, and sometimes you just want to run away to escape it all. You mean well, but you are sometimes short-tempered and don’t necessarily think things through before you do them. Friendship is very important to you, as is loyalty. You have a lot of growing to do, but deep down you really are a good person.
Which Dragon of Heaven are you?
Quiz by Kerianne
I am Vanilla Flavoured.
I am one of the most popular flavours in the world. Subtle and smooth, I go reasonably with anyone, and rarely do anything to offend. I can be expected to be blending in in society. What Flavour Are You?
